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Old 02-24-04   #1
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Journal of a thousand cries

Ok, well I tried to creat an online journal before, but I put it in the wrong section, so I'm starting over. lol

bout me for starters:

5'4
Female
Red hair
Green/gray eyes
Virgin
Never been kissed
I'm very romantic and cuddly.
I'm loyal, and a good friend (I think)
I like rock, dance, techno, alternative, and oldies.
I'm a total :queen:
And even though I have only known him for a day, I completly appriate DD. (guess who he is) lol

Also: Hey Shy Shy, and Vudu! MWAHS!! lol

Magick ninga!!!!! :woo: go ninga! go ninga! lol

PS: PM me n e time if u wanna know something. :die:
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Well as for me I didn't care where the fuck you put the journal. But i'm really glad that you are person that likes to cuddle
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today

My day was 50/50.

50% Hell. 50% wonderful.

Hers why:

Horrible. My sister spent like an hour bitching about her bf and how he's an ass. I told her to fuck off, so my mom started giveing me shit. :argue: Then I called her an :asshole: so shes all right now. Then, oh then I took the bigest spill! I was going down stairs to get some food right. and out of nowhere. TRIP! WHOA! SLAM! CRASH! Like this fall wasn't humanly possible, it was just so wrong! I felt so :lame: I almost broke my neck! (too bad I missed) :die:

But I also had an awsom day! (spell check)

Everybody here at dark forum has been so nice, and welcoming! People have been so kind, and it really means alot to me!

Shy Shy, I wuvs ya!
Vudu, lets go pin some people! lol
DD, what can I say. YOU ROCK!! I want to talk to as much as possible!!

MWAHS! to all!


Proud member of the pillow club!

byes.

PS: DD, where r u man! lol

:woo: Magick ninga! Go ninga go! Go go ninga go!
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My day was 50/50.

50% Hell. 50% wonderful.

Hers why:

Horrible. My sister spent like an hour bitching about her bf and how he's an ass. I told her to fuck off, so my mom started giveing me shit. :argue: Then I called her an :asshole: so shes all right now. Then, oh then I took the bigest spill! I was going down stairs to get some food right. and out of nowhere. TRIP! WHOA! SLAM! CRASH! Like this fall wasn't humanly possible, it was just so wrong! I felt so :lame: I almost broke my neck! (too bad I missed) :die:

But I also had an awsom day! (spell check)

Everybody here at dark forum has been so nice, and welcoming! People have been so kind, and it really means alot to me!

Shy Shy, I wuvs ya!
Vudu, lets go pin some people! lol
DD, what can I say. YOU ROCK!! I want to talk to as much as possible!!

MWAHS! to all!


Proud member of the pillow club!

byes.

PS: DD, where r u man! lol

:woo: Magick ninga! Go ninga go! Go go ninga go!

I can understand how hearing people bitch about there love life. Can get pretty annoying. I just hate it when people talk about that period. Even if you don't have anybody in life to be in love with. Sometimes I just feel like smashing his/her face with an iron.

It's a good thing that you didn't break your neck though. I would be dissapoint if I haven't had the chance to get to know you. Even it it's just on a computer. You seem really cool as well.

I love you to.
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smooches! no you r cool! lol
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smooches! no you r cool! lol

Yay I got smooched! Can I smooch you back?
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so far....

ok, well it only 90AM. I' have to get some work done cause I have a test coming up. But Last night I had the weirdest dream! I was in cali, or somewhere warm. and this naked cowboy just kept running by screaming “yhey will leave you, you will be the last one”. I was just like what the fuck! I think I shouldn’t have eaten what I did lol. What did you guys dream about? Ok, well I’m gonna close the screen, I think it will kick me off, hope not. Either way send me some messages k? ttys have great day!

:woo: Go magick ninga!! lol
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so far part 2...

Ok, well that test I was studying for, it was a big history thingy, and well cause I have been really upset I like zoned out, forgot my lessons, and got a d! Man this sucks. those little brats last night killed me! grrr! Now I'm gonna have to work exta hard. damn.

besides that I had a horribly boring day. no one was on, so I just sat here. lol

I hope everybody had a good day! thankyou for being there for me, and for being my friends!
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almost done

Well 2-day is prety much blah!

I'm going to the store for some music and other shit. I wanna get the smile empty soul CD, and I got a craving for a cross necklace. Not sur why, probably cause of the dream I had during my nap:

I was waliking along a brige over troubled water (stupid joke I know lol), ne way, and the entire path was covered with cherry trees so everything was covered in pink petals. it was so pretty! n e way, so as I'm walking I look up and there is this huge light, and out of it comes this big cross, and I tri to run from it but it comes after be and goes right through me and I wake up. So now I feel like I gotta wear one. lol weird I know. lol

I also have to get some snacks cause I have to baby sit again. but this time it probably wont b that bad, its weird, I'm watching a 13 yr old...

So maybe it might be fun, who knows............


n e way, I'll be on from time to time, cause I'm gonna pick up some movies, so she'll b occupied, and I can come on here.

bbs.

:woo: Magick ninga!!!! lol
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I get to stay, yay!!

mom said she'll go for me so I get to stay home and stay on here. even tho nuthin is really going on.........

ne who, I'm here. :ale:
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yesterday and today

ahh! well I'm in a shitty mood. I went to go out, to a local club that I heard about from DD (imagine that, a club right up from my house and I didnt even know) ne way. so just as I'm all spofed up and ready to party "Jordan! Come here!". I was just like w/e and went. There my mom was standing there with a paper. she said: "Your daughter has failed her history test, and this wil unfortantly set her very far back". "What is this Jordan? You failed your test?!" mom said. "Thats it, you arnt going out, you will baby sit and on the nights you dont, you will study." she said "MOM! What the fuck?! The reason I failed is cause I has to baby sit, and now u want me to do it more?!" "Dont get smart with me!" she said I just yelled fuck off, and went for a walk. Now being totally pissed I wasn't even in the mood to have fun, how could i? so I just went around the back of our apartment building and went up the fire escape to the roof. I just sat there till like 11pm. when I finally went inside she went off again. "Where the hell have you been? I was worried sick!" she said. and I just said: "Dont waste your time on little ol' me darllin." and when I walked away to my room i just screamed at the top of my lungs. so she grounded me. but since I'm homeschooled she cant see me, and dosn't know I'm on here. I just fucking hate her! she only deals with me cause she has to. shes always saying "I cant wait to you move out, we were so happy before you". well then you shouldn't have had me bitch! sorry the only people I ever cared about had to die just to give u me!! I wish she would die! I want my dad back, I want my gram to give me hugs when I'm upset, and I want my aunt to help me insult things! god, it hurts so much. how do you go on? you do you pretend to breathe. I do you live when there is no life around you? :argue:

"WHY DID YOU LEVE ME?! WHAT DID I DO?!" I screamed that like times, then I started sobbing, and I passed out.

so I'm not in the best mood right now. and none of my friends r one so once again, alone!
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im sorry to hear about that hon. my father died, and few days ago after a very heart wrenching convo with my ex about everything going on in my life i found myself screaming to my father for help and guidance. i often do this on my ow, and i think this is the first time i have while i was in a crowded place. i cried to the whole way to her house, and i cried after i left. i went to bed crying my eyes out wishing for the chance to tell him i love him, and say im sorry for how things turned out. i never wanted to say those mean thinsg to him when he was dying. (seconds till it happened)

my pastor keeps telling me its not my fault, and that was gods release for both of us, but i dont see how punishing me for the next few years or decade was supposed to make things better, but then i remembered my passage. luke 9 vs 28-36, and now i am just looking at it all as my passage, my slow but steady path up the mountain to forgiveness, and praise. i will learn its not my fault in time, and i will make my life easier in time, but for now i just have to deal with some things...

how old were you when your dad died.
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Umm wow. I was gonna say welcome to the journals but that last bit was kinda sad, I know what domestic strife is like. An old saying goes, "you can choose your friends but ya cant choose your family" So welcome any way, Im sure you are finding that the journals are an awesome place to bitch about stuff, and you'll always get feed back from your friends here. And speaking of freinds, if your down with Shy Shy, your down with me YO!
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down on shy and down on you, i didnt know that was possible......oh! sorry, misread.....lol
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dont be kissing my possible man shy! lol j/p thanks D_D, I'm sorry fo r your loss. my dad died about 7 yrs ago
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