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Old 07-15-06   #1
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Here's the place to post your inner most feelings and thoughts. Treat it as a diary, a place to call your own.

What you post here, stays here - no quoting journals outside the Journals forum and whatever anyone posts cannot be used against them.

Flaming within this forum will not be tolerated. Breach of these rules will result in a warning and possible ban. If you have nothing constructive to say DON'T POST!
i thought i should bring up the journal rule inside of my journal. that way if anybody is wanting to be nasty to me inside of my journal and disrespect me all together. i do not need to be physically attacked.
i CANNOT allow those kind of behaviors inside of my journal.

i am not forcing any single one of you people to come in here and read what i write or hear what i have to say.

people will come into my journal for multiple of reasons... with those multiple of reasons that you have in order to come to my journal for. i basically do not care what those reasons are. i want you to know that i accept you full-hearted and with open arms.

i also want the people who are viewing my journal. as well as when they post something back to me out of a journal entry. i want people to respect other people as well. of course as you can tell i want everything to be civil.

just as long as you obey me and fallow the rules. we will ALL get along just fine. if you don't you will get a warning or possibly be banned.

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stuff about kendra.

by the time i was 6. i had 3 operations and 2 of those were for my cleft palate. i had a hole at the back of my throat when i was born. which was the cause for a cleft palate. they also had to stitch my tongue to my cheek. cause they thought i might swallow it, choke on it, and die if they didn't do that to me. and the other was to fix my ears and to put tubes in them so they could drain.

after that i went to speech therapy to be able to talk. from there i had to have a special teacher to learn to read. i learned how to read by reading dick and jane. all of this happened by the time i was 6 years old.

after that it was one special class after another and that is why i didn't graduate high school till i was 20. i was put into a class room with kids who had downs syndrome, autistic, mentaly retarded, and cerebral palsy. but by the time i got to high school. this lady took me in for a test. after she tested me she realised that i was way smarter than those kids and she couldn't understand why they have thrown me in a class like that. so this time they had put me in a better special ed class.

i also have scoliosis and by the time i was either 8 or 9 years old of age. i had to go to houston texas to get operated on over there. because they couldn't find a doctor here in el paso texas who studies within the field of scoliosis. now i have a steel medal rod in my back and they also took a hip bone out of me. cut it up into little pieces and put it in between my back vertebrates. i think that was the toughest operation i had to deal with. i was also scared about it and it was seriously uncomfortable.

then i have problems with my eyes and i have papilledema. papilledema is a swelling and protrusion of the blind spot of the eye caused by edema it's also called the choked disk. i'm also nearsighted.

as you can see i have a learning disability and i'm also dyslexic.

growing up for me was hard and seriously very stressful. but here i am as you see me now.

if your health isn't as bad as mine. it kind of makes you stop and think to appreciate it for not being like my health.


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You are obviously working well with your dyslexia - you seem to have very good grammar and spelling.

I'm surprised that they would have the kids with cerebral palsy in that class as well - CP doesn't affect your mind.
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You are obviously working well with your dyslexia - you seem to have veery good grammar and spelling.

I'm surprised that they would have the kids with cerebral palsy in that class as well - CP doesn't affect your mind.
i do the best that i can. though i still of course struggle with it on my dyslexica. but i'll let you in on a little secret. i spend my time using the online dictionary A LOT. as you can see the dictionary has been very handy and helpful to me.

i had no idea that my grammar isn't all that bad. i'm glad you are letting me know about that. since i'm not too sure about it is all

the reason why CP doesn't affect my mind. is because to correct you on one thing. i DO NOT have CP. i'm perfectly normal.

thank you for your nice reply.

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Believe me - your grammar isn't publishing worthy perfect, but it is LIGHTYEARS above most of the damn mouth breathers out there. Just look around at most of the posts from anyone who signed up and stayed for one day. It's nice that most of the people that stick around here are literate (mostly), at least.
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Believe me - your grammar isn't publishing worthy perfect, but it is LIGHTYEARS above most of the damn mouth breathers out there. Just look around at most of the posts from anyone who signed up and stayed for one day. It's nice that most of the people that stick around here are literate (mostly), at least.
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well thank you and i'll be sure to check that out.
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i do the best that i can. though i still of course struggle with it on my dyslexica. but i'll let you in on a little secret. i spend my time using the online dictionary A LOT. as you can see the dictionary has been very handy and helpful to me.

i had no idea that my grammar isn't all that bad. i'm glad you are letting me know about that. since i'm not too sure about it is all

the reason why CP doesn't affect my mind. is because to correct you on one thing. i DO NOT have CP. i'm perfectly normal.

thank you for your nice reply.
Your grammer isnt bad at all. If you didnt say anything about it I would have never realized you had those disabilities.

For me, all I had/have is ADHD. ...Yeah.
Maybe a few of you could tell?
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Your grammer isnt bad at all. If you didnt say anything about it I would have never realized you had those disabilities.

For me, all I had/have is ADHD. ...Yeah.
Maybe a few of you could tell?
good i'm glad my grammar isn't bad. well the reason why i don't say anything. is because i don't really like to tell people this kind of stuff about me. i keep this stuff about me inside of the closet. because i don't want people to think about me any differently. instead i want them to still think of me and look at me the same. without knowing that kind of information. from when they are starting to know about it now. i don't want them to be all oh she is the girl with the disabilities thing. you know what i mean? though i thought i should say something. so people can understand why i am the way that i am. cause before i used to get flamed with the way that i would write and spell. which is why i've gotten myself to try and be better with it as much as possible. i'm doing all of this all by myself. but all of that stuff is bridge under water.

now i don't feel embarrassed about telling people this stuff about me at all now. since i've gotten over it. i'm starting to see it as something to be proud of rather then having to be embarrassed about it.

i had no idea that you had ADHD. now that you've told me about it. i know about it now. i thought you had an addictive personality rather then an ADHD. i know what ADHD is and it's where you can't be able to concentrate and it's like your pretty much a speedy person. your always constantly going. man that has got to be tough.

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Just poppin into say hi and see what your new journal is like sweets!

Hmm, say, is there a link between DF server changes and you creating new journals?
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Just poppin into say hi and see what your new journal is like sweets!

Hmm, say, is there a link between DF server changes and you creating new journals?
hello tiggs.

on the server changes and creating new journals. i have no idea.
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today's horoscopes.

ARIES- Our luck goes wherever we go but, like our nose, we cannot see it because it is too close to us. We only see it in our reflection. When we stop to look back on where we have been or what we have been through, we get some idea. But others are in a better position than we are to assess the extent to which we have been blessed or cursed. We really can't be objective because we take our disappointments so closely to heart - and because we are often over exuberant about our successes. Jupiter this week, though, insists that you will do well by anyone's standards... even your own. Expect some convenient coincidences.

TAURUS- "When you have eliminated all which is impossible, then whatever remains, however improbable, must be the truth." Sir Arthur Conan Doyle gave these words to Sherlock Holmes. You don't, though, have to be a great detective in order to see their relevance in your life this week. Something seemingly far-fetched is taking place. The more you try to understand it, the more confused you become. Surely, something can't really be happening or someone has got hold of the wrong end of the stick. Really, though, you had best believe the evidence of your own eyes. What's happening may be very strange but it is very positive.

GEMINI-So here you are, right back where you thought you would never need to go again. Reliving old dreams - and old nightmares. Are you going round in circles? Not quite. It's just that you have some unfinished business to attend to. Sort it out and set it right and you may yet seriously improve your long-term prospects for emotional and material security. Unfortunately, in the process of doing this, you must face a fear, or return, mentally at least, to a situation that makes you feel uncomfortable. Hence, the stress that you find yourself experiencing. Really, though, all you need is a little love, trust, creativity and patience.

CANCER- Nothing lasts forever. Still, though, some things go on for a remarkably long time. We can end up feeling trapped; not just by the situations that seem to be endlessly oppressive but even by the ones that are quite harmless. Still, these play their part in keeping us travelling along old familiar tracks when we could be exploring new and different roads. A part of you is now tired of the routine which has become extremely predictable. Another part of you feels that it is churlish to walk away from a formula that is still successful. Compromise if you can. If you can't, take the risk, ring the changes and reach out for a brave new adventure.

LEO- How long does it take two people to reach an agreement? That depends on how much they are enjoying their argument. Debates and disputes are popular passtimes. What satisfies a hunger for controversy? Some really good feud. You can't stop someone else from feeling keen to keep up a conflict, but you can at least, modify your own position. If you withdraw from an active role in a process of antagonism, you make it much easier for others to back down. A very positive possibility presents itself. Given all that it could lead to, you would be well-advised to put past differences aside wherever possible.

VIRGO- You win some, you lose some. You clear up a mess, you create another one in the process! You try to save some money, and you end up spending even more. All these things can and do happen from time to time. Is that bad? What a question. That's like asking whether there is something wrong with a day if it is followed by a night. Life has its rhythms and its seasons. When we are on an up, we don't worry too much about the down. When things seem to be going against us, we figure the tide will never turn again. This week brings something brilliant, and something deeply frustrating. Give your energy to the former.

LIBRA- Do all stories have happy endings? That rather depends on how patient you intend to be. If you wait long enough, things will definitely become right, no matter how wrong they could seemingly be. So, when will your current stressful saga take a turn for the better? Sooner than you think! You have already been through the worst of it. If things seem to be dragging on, that's only because there are some complications that are bound to take a while to resolve. You are tired. You are starting to feel pessimistic. But really, though, you have no need to worry. It won't be months before you see a change for the better. It will be days.

SCORPIO-Sometimes, we don't realise when we are mentally or physically exhausted. We just fill up with adrenaline and we plough on regardless. We feel fine until one last straw breaks the camel's back and we suddenly collapse in a physical - or psychological - heap. Try to remember that. You are going through a lot and it is taking more out of you than you realise. Eat well and sleep well. Avoid worrying unnecessarily. Indeed, just avoid worrying. All worrying, ultimately, is unnecessary. Pace yourself. Preserve your strength and this week's minor, but intense, source of aggravation will soon pass.

SAGITTARIUS- You were born under the sign of the Archer. You should find it easy to answer this week's crucial question. If there is a target that you absolutely have to hit, how many arrows must you carry in your quiver? That's quite right. One is, indeed, plenty - as long as your aim is true. Now, let's try a different, but related question. How big does a window of opportunity have to be before you can take advantage of it? That's right too. Just big enough to climb through! As long as you've got a chance, you can make something of it. You face a tight situation this week. It is not, though, so tight that you can't make a success of it.

CAPRICORN- If you didn't care so much, you could be a lot more objective. You could walk away and shrug your shoulders. You could invest less and avoid risk. Your heart, though, is well and truly caught up in the matter that you are now so preoccupied by. You can't pretend otherwise. But nor is that as much of a problem as you might fear. You have been sincere and generous. You have tried to do the right thing. You have nothing to be ashamed of and every reason to believe that, "If what comes around, goes around" then the right things will come back to you. Venus suggests a difficult week, with a deeply rewarding and delightful outcome.

AQUARIUS- What's too expensive? What's beyond your means? What can't you have? What is there no point in you even trying to attain? You feel as if a certain situation is hopeless. You are really not entitled to be so pessimistic. You may have encountered a setback but you have not arrived at the end of the world. Act as if you expect things to get better soon. Be prudent but not despondent. Though you don't quite understand how you have got into a difficulty, it doesn't matter. You can find your way out of it through as logical a process as you found your way into it. Have faith and aspire to the very best - and you will yet get it.

PISCES-Someone isn't telling you all you need to know. You don't require chapter and verse. A certain piece of information, though, would shed a very different light on a situation that you think you fully understand. If you ask for the truth, you will not necessarily be given it - or at least, not by the person who really ought to disclose it. So don't ask an individual. Ask the universe! Put out a general request for enlightenment. From somewhere, somehow, the full story will reach you. After this has happened, a decision will become much easier to make, and a problem will become much easier to solve.

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"Son Of A Preacher Man" by dusty springfield.

Billy-ray was a preacher’s son
And when his daddy would visit he’d come along
When they gathered round and started talkin’
That’s when billy would take me walkin’
A-through the back yard we’d go walkin’
Then he’d look into my eyes
Lord knows to my surprise

The only one who could ever reach me
Was the son of a preacher man
The only boy who could ever teach me
Was the son of a preacher man
Yes he was, he was, mmm, yes he was

Being good isn’t always easy
No matter how hard I try
When he started sweet-talkin’ to me
He’d come and tell me everything is all right
He’d kiss and tell me everything is all right
Can I get away again tonight?

The only one who could ever reach me
Was the son of a preacher man
The only boy who could ever teach me
Was the son of a preacher man
Yes he was, he was, lord knows he was

How well I remember
The look that was in his eyes
Stealin’ kisses from me on the sly
Takin’ time to make time
Tellin’ me that he’s all mine
Learnin’ from each other’s knowing
Lookin’ to see how much we’ve grown

And the only one who could ever reach me
Was the son of a preacher man
The only boy who could ever teach me
Was the son of a preacher man
Yes he was, he was, oh, yes he was
He was the sweet-talking son of a preacher man
I guessed he was the son of a preacher man
Sweet-lovin’ son of a preacher man
Ahh, move me
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BLOOD & FIRE gave me this article.

"How To Stop Yourself From WORRYING"


Dear Friend:

Most of us worry from time to time. Some worry occasionally, only when difficult situations arise. Others worry more often, usually about specific areas of their lives, such as health, a key relationship, children, money, job security or the like.

Some people worry constantly. If they have nothing specific to worry about, they will think something up. Even worse, they might unconsciously create a difficult problem or situation, just to have something "real" to worry about.

Whichever group you may belong to, any advice you may have received about dealing with worry probably hasn't helped all that much.

There are reasons for this.

No matter what you read or whom you listen to, your ability to eliminate worry may not have increased as a consequence. In this report, I'm going to explain why.

Years ago, I worried fairly often. Now, I hardly ever worry, no matter what happens to me or to others close to me. How did I make this change? I'll explain in a moment. The answer is not a simplistic one. But first, let's examine...

A Few Key Points About Worry

Point #1--Most People Are Very Capable Of Eliminating Worry

Most people have the ability to eliminate worry whenever they want. They aren't psychologically handicapped or "challenged" in any way. Nor are they lacking in intelligence, commitment, or desire to make their worry go away.

Mostly, what keeps us from successfully conquering worry is a lack of understanding. Much of what we've been taught about worry (and other moods and emotions) isn't really true. As a result, we lack certain distinctions that are critical for making worry naturally disappear. Once these distinctions are in place, however, your ability to deal with worry can rise dramatically.

Point #2--Do You Know What Worry Really Is?

Whether you call worry a mood or an emotion doesn't matter very much. In fact, if you call worry a mood, you don't get any less of it. Call it an emotion, and it persists just the same. But what if you call worry a habit? Now, a habit is something you can do something about!

Good News!!!

Lucky for you, worry is a habit! It's not a natural state of human life, nor is it necessarily a good or positive thing. Worry is just an automatic habit of thinking and responding to certain events in life. It's produced by specific thoughts (i.e., conversations) and behaviors (i.e., action patterns) that get triggered automatically inside our bodies.

If you've purchased my book The 14 Day Stress Cure or my tape album Your Personal Stress Coach and you received my Pocket Stress Coach index cards with them, take out your index card for worry and look at it right now. Turn to the side marked "CONVERSATIONS" and look at the statements numbered 1-4. This is how you have to be thinking in order to feel worried (if you don't have the card, just follow along--you'll be just fine):

You've got to be assuming something bad might happen in the future.
You've got to be assuming someone or something will be hurt or harmed.
You've got to be thinking that if you just worry hard enough, somehow you'll keep bad things from happening (psychologists call this "Magical Thinking.")
Most people believe that if they didn't worry, it would mean they don't really care.
These are the habitual thought patterns that cause worry to occur. Now, flip the card over and let's examine the habitual ACTION PATTERNS that either cause worry to occur or keep it from resolving:

A. Trying to magically influence external situations or events (i.e. doing the equivalent of a rain dance!)
B. Indulging in worry instead of acting to eliminate or deal with a situation.
C. Trying to deal with situations yourself (when you lack the necessary skill or experience to do so competently).
D. Failing to seek help from others (who do have the competence to assess and/or solve your problem).
We'll come back to these specific thoughts and behavior patterns later on. Be clear, however, that the more you habitually engage in these specific thoughts and behaviors...the more worry you will have. And vice versa.

Point #3--Do You Know How To Distinguish Realistic From Unrealistic Worry?

All instances of worrying are not the same. Sometimes, we may worry for good, realistic reasons. If you live in a high crime area, for example, you should probably worry about walking around alone at night. If you frequently engage in unprotected sex with multiple partners, you should be worried about getting AIDS (and other sexually transmitted diseases). And if you are a senior citizen and worry that Newt Gingrich is out to reduce your Medicare benefits, you might have good cause to worry (even though I don't believe things will turn out badly for you, whatever Congress decides).

But what if you still are worrying that the Russians are going to nuke us any day now? Or how about if you live in fear that someone infected with the HIV virus will breathe on you or cough in your face? These are examples of unrealistic worry. They are based upon exaggerated concerns of future hurt or harm.

NOTE: An exaggerated concern doesn't mean that the bad event or circumstance could never conceivably happen. Worriers often argue that the possibility is not zero. But it is the probability, not the possibility, that distinguishes realistic from unrealistic worry. How probable is it that the Russians will launch a nuclear missile in our direction tomorrow? How probable is it that you will catch AIDS from casual contact with an infected person? In most cases of unrealistic worry, the possibility may be present, but the probability is just about zero.

Point #4--What's The Difference Between Productive and Non-Productive Worry?

Sometimes worry can actually motivate us to take effective action. I call this productive worry, to distinguish it from its much more prevalent non-productive counterpart. If you've been goofing off and not preparing well for an upcoming test or major task, worrying about failing might be very appropriate (i.e., realistic). Even more, if this nagging feeling of worry causes you to buckle down and prepare more seriously, then in addition to being realistic worry, it becomes productive worry as well.

Unfortunately, most of the time people are engaged in either unrealistic or non-productive worry (or both). In our modern culture, worry is even accepted as a substitute for taking action. People who do nothing but worry incessantly about their problems can console themselves by saying "Well, at least I'm doing something (i.e., worrying) about my problems."

Why All This Advice Rarely Helps

You can completely understand everything I've said so far and still not find it easy to stop yourself from worrying. What are the reasons for this?

The answers can be found by considering the next four points.

Point #5--Human Automaticity And Conditioned Body Responses

As human beings, we are programmed to respond in automatic ways. The thought patterns and behavior patterns we engage in most of the time are not, in large part, under our direct voluntary control. Things happen in life, and our bodies respond automatically. Unconscious conversations and action patterns kick in, and our moods and emotions follow in their wake.

This is why you can understand a whole lot about worry intellectually, and your body will keep right on worrying despite what you know. You can, for example, know that it's silly to worry about losing your job or getting struck down with a serious illness, but your body goes on worrying about these things nonetheless. That's just our human nature. If our bodies have become used to worrying over time, they will continue to do so no matter how hard we try to intervene.

It's important to recognize that from our body's standpoint, worrying almost always seems to work! If you worry about your job every day and you don't lose it, your body will conclude that it was worrying that paid off. Even though worrying had nothing to do with you keeping your job, it will be hard to convince your body otherwise. Thus, worry tends to beget even more worry, at least as far as your body is concerned.

Also, worry is associated with "caring" in your body. When you worry, your body sends you warm, fuzzy messages. It says "you care about people" or "you are really a concerned human being." To give up worrying, therefore, is anathema to your body (and your self-image). Your body will tend to hold on to this silly habit, and if you ever decide to free yourself from it, your body will resist you strenuously.

Point #6--Worry Is Often Due To A Lack Of Wisdom

Another key point is the relationship between worry and a lack of insight or wisdom about life. People who are very wise about life tend not to worry very much. On the other hand, when people don't understand how life really works, they feel vulnerable and insecure. They often can't get life to turn out as they'd like, and as a result, they are much more fearful that bad things will ultimately happen to them (as they often do). It is very, very hard to get such people to give up worrying.

This is why much of the simplistic advice about how to stop worrying doesn't work for the majority of individuals. It's one thing to tell someone to "live life one day at a time" or "don't worry about things you can't personally control." It's quite another thing, however, to become the type of person who can live life this way (and truly mean it).

In my youth and early adulthood, I lacked a great deal of wisdom about life. I also tended to worry quite a bit. Now, I understand a whole lot more about how life really works, and as I've slowly accumulated this knowledge over the years, my tendency to worry has correspondingly diminished.

How do you gain such wisdom? Ah, that's the perfect question to ask. I just wish I had the perfect answer to give you. I do know that most people don't acquire deep insight and wisdom quickly or easily. They have to seek it out and spend many years testing out a variety of new perspectives. Once you've done this, you'll know exactly what I mean.

NOTE: Wisdom is not exclusively an intellectual thing. You know a person has true wisdom because their thoughts, actions, and accomplishments in life are congruent. In other words, they don't just think themselves out of worry. They consistently act in ways that reduce their chances of experiencing failure, disappointment, or serious harm.

Point #7--Worry Often Stems From A Lack Of Trust

Another key dynamic in the phenomenon of worry is trust. When you don't trust yourself to master the demands of life, you tend to worry. And when you don't trust others to help you overcome your weaknesses, you also tend to worry for the very same reason.

When you have a great deal of trust, however, that no matter what happens in life you'll come out okay, you won't worry very much. Attaining this advanced degree of trust is not easy. But it can be accomplished if you obtain the right support, guidance, and proper understandings.

As my level of trust in myself, in others, and in the universe as a whole has expanded over the years, my old habits of worrying have gradually dropped away.

Point #8--Worry Often Stems From Overinvestment In Life

One final point to consider is how easy it is to become overinvested in life. By "investment in life" I mean caring about a particular or specific outcome. When you need things in life to happen in very specific ways (in order to feel happy or satisfied), you set yourself up for repeated disappointment. Thus, "bad things" will happen to you much more frequently, and you'll be fueling your body to worry more intensely.

If, on the other hand, you take a more philosophical approach to life, your tendency to worry will not be as strong. YouÍll be confident that there can be multiple ways for life to work out, so you won't tend to value any one particular outcome above all the rest.

While this approach isn't applicable to every area of life, the more attached you are to having life go one particular way, the more you will worry that it won't end up as you want. Again, giving up such overattachment is not easy. Which again is why much of the simplistic advice about worry isn't helpful.

How To Stop Worrying

Given all that I've said so far, let me now try to offer you a few general caveats about how to cope with worry. The way you choose to deal with worry will vary, depending upon which subgroup of worrying you want to address.

A. The occasional worrier (situation dependent)

If you only worry occasionally, when certain uncommon situations arise, you can do yourself a lot of good by realizing that your body has been triggered to think and respond in worry-producing ways.

Take out the index card I included with this newsletter and look over the specific thoughts and behavior patterns that must be operating within you. Then consider each one separately, and see if you can combat it. If you can't think of ways to do this on your own, ask yourself the following types of questions:

Is my worrying realistic or unrealistic?
Is my worrying likely to be productive or non-productive?
Am I really doing a rain dance by thinking I can magically influence external events?
Am I continuing to worry mainly because I don't want to be viewed as someone who doesn't care? If so, can I separate caring about someone from feeling compelled to worry about them?
Am I worrying about something that could be resolved with effective action?
Am I worrying about something that I don't know enough about to resolve myself? If so, why am I not asking others for help?
Am I worrying because I trusted myself to handle something I really am not experienced enough to handle?
In most cases, if you just stop to ask yourself these questions, you will break up your body's worry habit, at least temporarily. Since you only worry occasionally, your internal programming probably isn't all that strong, so you should be able to overcome it with logic and careful reasoning, or by seeking assistance and clarification from others.

B. The frequent, but specific, worrier

If you frequently worry about the same types of issues in life (health, relationships, job security), stop trusting yourself to handle your fears. Realize you probably lack the necessary insights and wisdom at this time. Learn instead to rely upon and trust the wisdom of others whom you respect and who have demonstrated competence in the areas where you need help.

Become a student of the areas that are troubling you and slowly learn to increase your own trust and wisdom. Such trust and wisdom will not come quickly or easily. But as you begin to acquire it, your worry will naturally lessen.

C. The incessant, global worrier

If you tend to worry constantly, and if you've been regularly doing so for years, nothing simple is going to help you stop. Consider getting psychotherapy to explore your deep seated need to worry and the skewed, unrealistic view of the world that supports this habitual tendency.

In addition, give serious thought to engaging in some time honored de-conditioning exercises, such as the Eastern practices of Tai Chi or meditation. These will probably be necessary for you, since your body has become so conditioned to worrying that no amount of intellectual insight alone will be powerful enough to overcome your bodyÍs internal worrying machinery.

What Made The Difference For Me?

As I've already mentioned, my own transition from a frequent to an infrequent worrier took many years to unfold. Along the way, the following elements made the biggest difference, as far as I can tell:

Understanding the specific thought patterns and behavior patterns that cause worry to occur (see Index Card).
Understanding the nature of human automaticity.
Increasing my knowledge/wisdom about life.
Increasing my willingness to trust others to help me cope with problems when I don't really have the competence or expertise to solve them myself.
Lessening my attachment/investment to specific material things or outcomes in life.
Taking a more philosophic view of everything that happens in life.
As I review this list, I'm struck by how much these items differ from the typical advice people receive about worry. But I shouldn't be surprised, since most typical advice doesn't work, and these things actually did!

Well, I hope you enjoyed this special report about worry.

Wishing you good health, happiness, and much success,

i haven't read it. i am going to get myself to read it. since i worry A LOT as well. i am quite the worry wort.

remember BLOOD & FIRE gave me this to check it out.
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Well, in all honesty I do have a slim addictive personality. I just wanted to know what gave it way. You didnt upset me, its all good. But I'm off everything I was on (and I was only into that crap due to the massive amount of people and friends that did it and got me into it), Its only cigs and caffiene for me. I've even slowed down on the drinking... :/

Well, it was a little difficult, but I think it was even more difficult for my teachers

Lets see.. aderole, first of all wakes you up.. I mean, you CANT sleep when you take aderole, my focus and attention skyrocketed. I could pretty much do calculus when I was on it (exagerating). It also destroys your appetite. I NEVER ate when I was on it. There was a few times I kept taking it (cus I was a bad boy) and stayed up for like 3 days straight, NO Food(except when my stomach hurt, then I forced myself to eat bread or something). Those days lasted up until one day when I overdosed a bit... havent taken it since.
I don't know if people without ADD&ADHD would have the same effects but from what I heard its pretty much the same.

"there are ALOT of druggies eveywhere"

good point, everywhere I go it seems a person asks me, "Hey man.. *looks around* you got any trees?"
Of course I never do, nowadays, but I can understand why people ask me.. (I look like an ex drug user...) Picture that dude off halfbaked (the movie) with the tyedye shirt, except not as goofy and not wearing tyedye. (Jim Breuer, I think his name is)
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Well, in all honesty I do have a slim addictive personality. I just wanted to know what gave it way. You didnt upset me, its all good.
because in a way i have an addictive personality also. i don't know if that can sometimes show within my post or not. so that is what has made me come to the conclusion that you have an addictive personality. i would have NEVER guess it to be anywhere near ADHD at all. but when i heard you had ADHD i was surprised. good i'm glad i didn't upset you with it.

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But I'm off everything I was on (and I was only into that crap due to the massive amount of people and friends that did it and got me into it), Its only cigs and caffiene for me. I've even slowed down on the drinking... :/
it's nice to know that you have cleaned yourself up from that stuff. i used to do that with the cigs, caffiene, and alcohol myself. but i only did that because i wanted to. i don't let anybody to force me to do stuff that i don't want to do.

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Well, it was a little difficult, but I think it was even more difficult for my teachers

Lets see.. aderole, first of all wakes you up.. I mean, you CANT sleep when you take aderole, my focus and attention skyrocketed. I could pretty much do calculus when I was on it (exagerating). It also destroys your appetite. I NEVER ate when I was on it. There was a few times I kept taking it (cus I was a bad boy) and stayed up for like 3 days straight, NO Food(except when my stomach hurt, then I forced myself to eat bread or something). Those days lasted up until one day when I overdosed a bit... havent taken it since.
I don't know if people without ADD&ADHD would have the same effects but from what I heard its pretty much the same.
i don't blame you for not wanting to take medication. if i was in your spot i wouldn't want to take it either. but why do doctors make medicine if they "claim" it's to help you.. while instead it will give a person bad side affects? that doesn't really make any sence.


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"there are ALOT of druggies eveywhere"

good point, everywhere I go it seems a person asks me, "Hey man.. *looks around* you got any trees?"
Of course I never do, nowadays, but I can understand why people ask me.. (I look like an ex drug user...) Picture that dude off halfbaked (the movie) with the tyedye shirt, except not as goofy and not wearing tyedye. (Jim Breuer, I think his name is)

hahaha. crazy stuff.
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because in a way i have an addictive personality also. i don't know if that can sometimes show within my post or not. so that is what has made me come to the conclusion that you have an addictive personality. i would have NEVER guess it to be anywhere near ADHD at all. but when i heard you had ADHD i was surprised. good i'm glad i didn't upset you with it.



it's nice to know that you have cleaned yourself up from that stuff. i used to do that with the cigs, caffiene, and alcohol myself. but i only did that because i wanted to. i don't let anybody to force me to do stuff that i don't want to do.
Well, I they didnt really 'force' me to do all that. I just saw how much fun (it seemed) they were having with it, so I just kinda went along with it.
But its really hard to stop once you start and make it a routine. But after the first month of quiting, you don't really care anymore, cus your body has detoxified and your used to being sober.


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i don't blame you for not wanting to take medication. if i was in your spot i wouldn't want to take it either. but why do doctors make medicine if they "claim" it's to help you.. while instead it will give a person bad side affects? that doesn't really make any sence.
Yeah, I agree. It helped a little, with the focusing and all. But I believe people can get past ADD/ADHD in time, and with practice. (me, I played minesweeper alot in school that helps concentration(if you try to beat it in like 10,15 seconds). Lets see, there meditation, reading, and my favorite... Martial arts. You'd be suprized how beneficial it can be.

Oh yeah, and about that Jim Bruer thing, I do really look a lot like him (alot of people tell me that, like.. this is me, pretty much right here http://oregonstate.edu/enews/enewsImg/jimbreuer.jpg I would show you an actual picture, unfortunatly I don't have my digital camera right now) Just skinnier, shorter hair, and a different personality. I mean come on, that dude ALWAYS looks like he's on drugs.
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Well, I they didnt really 'force' me to do all that. I just saw how much fun (it seemed) they were having with it, so I just kinda went along with it.
But its really hard to stop once you start and make it a routine. But after the first month of quiting, you don't really care anymore, cus your body has detoxified and your used to being sober.
i wasn't an alcoholic or anything like that at all. i just drank occasionally. i smoked a lot and drinked a lot of caffiene. but with you i'm sure it must have been a bitch. though it's true your body goes through the detoxifiedness.

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Yeah, I agree. It helped a little, with the focusing and all. But I believe people can get past ADD/ADHD in time, and with practice. (me, I played minesweeper alot in school that helps concentration(if you try to beat it in like 10,15 seconds). Lets see, there meditation, reading, and my favorite... Martial arts. You'd be suprized how beneficial it can be.
well it's good to know that with ADHD it isn't permanent. so the pill only helped you to focus while with the rest it just gave you bad side affects. wow... fuck i am not even good at minesweeper! i don't really get the object of the game. i know that it involves a little math. before you find the bomb. i'll do good for a little amount of seconds and then poof the bomb comes out.


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Oh yeah, and about that Jim Bruer thing, I do really look a lot like him (alot of people tell me that, like.. this is me, pretty much right here http://oregonstate.edu/enews/enewsImg/jimbreuer.jpg I would show you an actual picture, unfortunatly I don't have my digital camera right now) Just skinnier, shorter hair, and a different personality. I mean come on, that dude ALWAYS looks like he's on drugs.
haha ok i'll take a look at it.
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i'm going to make a correction with what i've said. i don't have an addictive personality and i didn't really know what it was at the time. until i have gotten myself to read about what the addictive personality is on the net. so i don't have any kind of addictions with anything at all. i'm basically a clean person. sorry about the mix up at least i haved corrected myself. i feel like an idiot. but i'm not going to take that personaly. anybody else could have done the samething as i did. so i don't have an addictive personality.
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