fair enough... I realize I am far from perfect... and far from better than anyone else... but none theless, some people outside, in the fresh air, somehow annoy me the most out of anyone else.

i am interested in learning things. don't you ever assume i don't want to learn things. that i'm too afraid to learn them.. because that isn't true. but when it would come to being one of your "intellectual friends" that isn't what i am interested in and since i have no intrest in those things. i don't want to learn that stuff because i have NO INTEREST. why learn something that you don't want to learn as well as not having an interest to it? that would be nothing but a waste of time. but don't you EVER assume that i don't want to fucking learn things... that i'm afraid to learn them... because that isn't true... it all depends on what i have interest with and what i want to lean....


but you should try having your intelligence being insulted all the time... saying how it's less then average

also i have no problem with the world. i don't go around saying "everybody is againts me." who here on darkforum have ever seen me do that? i so want people to point that out to me....

i still want to be around people. no matter what... even if i don't have the best kind of relationship with other people. i still want to be around them...

i've said in one of my various journals on darkforum... that if people have a problem with me that they need to come up to me and tell me about it.... like if i say something or do something wrong... that they need to go up to me and say "hey kendra i don't like this or that. it would be cool if you don't do that anymore". instead of treating me really bad with something i did.... tijuana and mia have seen me say that in my journal. but then again not everyone reads my journals.. as well all have our own set groups of people to flock with on darkforum.

but people aren't doing that... instead they are making fun of me, ignoring me, and stop talking to me all together and they are doing it behind my back... which is really immature....

Ok - first off, I don't think you're stupid or immature. I have had many a conversation with you to the contrary. You're a very sensitive person which can sometimes lead to you 'taking things to heart'. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that.

I think Panthy IS your friend, she just sees things in a different way to you and sometimes her comments can seem harsh - not everyone is diplomatic all the time, even though their intentions are for the best.

I'll give you an example:

My friend might keep going on about a guy who she's madly in love with, but the guy pays her no interest right? So, after many discussions she might come out with the phrase 'oh, but I love him'!! So, face to face I'll say to her - 'shut the fuck up!' - but the difference is, she can see me, she can read my face - she'll know I'm just concerned or despairing. That often doesn't come across in text. In text, and depending on your mood, it's easy to see that person (mentally) frowning and shouting at you.

Also, people will say things to you in text that they may not dare say to your face, and you really have no way of knowing how they mean it - so, you imagine how they mean it, and that can be good, or it can be bad.

I hope that made some kind of sense.

exactly.. but most of the times i do want to change that to where it's not so bad. but each time i try not to be that way. it doesn't work.

i'll keep that in mind. or try to keep that in mind.



yes correct.


with that last part on what you said... it really hit me on the dot.. because it's hard how to imagine something and knowing if it's a good way or a bad way... cause it's hard to know since it's nothing like in person.. from with that example you have set out to me about the friend you had... that way it is and would be easier...

in person i'm a little different.. like i'm more layed back and passive... if people want to interact with me it's fine i'll let them and if they don't. that isn't a bother... cause i'll keep myself in my room and i'm just busy with entertainment and the such and not really care... but i will care for a while but it's always alot easier to get over stuff in person then what it is from the net...

cool all i wanted was another persons eyes view on this... that was all.. thank you mia~ow for doing so..

but i do however want to get better...

You want to get better? You mean, change how you are?

Don't change who you are Kendra, just see things from another perspective now and then? You know, your personality is what makes you a 'character' here on DF, and I'm sure the same goes for Real Life.

Yes Mia is correct. But dear, I will say to their face- that is just how I am- and many people hate it when I do that- because they know that I have some truth in how I do it and what I say. And they just can't run away.

Good boy- Want a biscuit?

Class A inspection at my unit

either that or pillz... yeah, that could help but yeah either the above or the below, Khaos would like. lol

Annoyed with my jobless husband- can't wait to go to wyoming.

it's patchday for the game...

Wyoming?? I'm so sorry.

the tempature outside.

Spending 3 hours to make a drive that should have taken 15 minutes in bad traffic, and STILL not getting my truck all the way home. Its parked in a business parking lot a half mile away, i had to walk the last half mile uphill because my PIECE OF SHIT RANGER couldnt make it up. I fucking hate snow, i'm moving to the tropics.

Actually after living there for 9 years- I quite liked it.

Sure- it snows alot and is basically is winter 9 months out of the year, its still beautiful, good fishing- I just love it.

People here in Missouri think its cold here- they don't know what cold is. So I just laugh at them. Wyoming is a great area.

Annoyed- I'm tired today- annoyed me a bit.

it's only 52 degrees here.