This isn't really a bitch. This is just me being sad and needing to vent it out. *Breaks out in sobs* What the fuck is it with this love shit? You love me, but you hurt me? How does that work? Am I the mean one? Am I the bitch? Maybe... but, I don't deserve this feeling.... do I?

~hugs~ I think we all know how you feel sweetpea

makes me want to kill... or hug... or something...

Mmm I would say 'Let me at him' but im a bit on the timid side recently. Im good for hugs and shoulders and I make the most wonderful cakes.

KILL!

rogue will kick his ass for you. I will mop up.

oh, not her? ok... KILL... something...

I think its Gregg.. But im not sure.. I don't like to pry.

its always something or someone... with her, with you... with me, with everybody...

It's Gregg. Always been Gregg, never been with anyone else really. Not seriously anyway. But, yeah...... it's just not going to work out I guess and he's leaving. He doesn't know where, but says he doesn't want to be here anymore. I can't trust him, I can't move on, He can't change, He can't move on..... It's like running in circles. I wish he knew how I felt, but I can't tell him right now, it just hurts too bad.......

DEATH!!!... well, cake or DEATH!!

Destroy him.

neither, thanks.... I can't eat and I have no urge to kill anyone. I'm just so lost and confused. I hate how these things happen, your never ready for them. Here I am at work and all upset and wanna crawl into a whole and die..... my chest hurst, my head is spinning, I just wish he were here to talk to. He's my bestfriend.... I really need him right now. I don't know about "us", but I know the only thing that'll calm me down right now is to have him come here to tell me he loves me. Then at least I could think straight. I hate him for making me upset like this, but I need him. Ugh......

No, I know what you mean babe, its difficult, so difficult.. I rarely let go.

I'm so confused. I don't know what I want. Now he's gone and I'll never get to figure it out. Part of me says, "Good, go then, asshole." And, part of me wants to run after him screaming, "No..... I Love you." Ugh..... I hate fights, espically ones like this when you don't know what will happen. I keep thinking he'll pull up front with flowers for me, but he won't..... he's gone.... how could he do this. Yeah, I told him I was done with him, but he should have tried harder. He should have talked to me. Instead, he just hung up saying he can't do this anymore. That if I don't want him he doesn't want to stick around and be hurt. I wish he'd call, or stop here, or SOMETHING! I really need to hear his voice. I LOVATE him more than anyone, ever. Period.

PS: To fill you in, I left him a month and a half ago, he's been trying to "fix" things and "work it out" with me. Then, he goes on the comp last night and chats with people (Girls) for 3 hours cuz he "can't sleep". * we don't live together, I found out cuz I "snopped" *

you chat with boys on here dont you? or was he looking for like local girls to meet with?

I don't really know anything else to say. But don't get sick hun, he's not worth you.

boys are stupid, find yourself a nice girl and settle down.

Yes, your right. And no, it wasn't local girls. Not that I know of anyway. And that's what he said, too. That and he did it on purpose to piss me off for snopping. But, I don't stay late at night to chat. And, I tell you guys about Gregg and Ariana. That doesn't matter, though, I don't care about online flirting, it's the fact that he knows I'm upset and he doesn't seem to care. I'm not him, I don't know what he's thinking right now, but to me.... how? How can you upset me so and run off? fdkjfaoi8rujtojtrkvtjaoirt...... I'm getting to personal now, sorry all, I'm just upset and hurt. I can't vent to coworkers, so I'm venting to you all.