One year older and not a damn thing to show for it. This is the dilema of most. At this time 22 years ago, I was born and not one person in the world gives a shit. In the past week or so, here is the fate that has befallen upon me. My car got totalled, I have to wear a brace due to residuals from a surgery...yeah, brain surgery is a hell of a fun time, my girlfriend broke up with me right after I gave up everything to be with her, and all of my friends are either missing or off in another state. Nah, I lied, I dont have any friends. I'm going to start the day off with a bottle of depression and end it with a hand full of fuck the world. I'm a nice guy! Why's all this happening to me, and at the worst possible time. OH, I'll get even with you yet, fate!

All of you that decide to post back, either cheer me up with something or fuck right off.

Signed,

Your mother.

Sketch, does that mean you are an artist?

You know I dabble in art. It could be worse. You could have gone to live with a guy friend and after you got wasted found out they are gay. There are always worse things in life. Don't think about all the crap that has happened, think about all the sh*t that hasn't happened to you. Atleast not yet.



Wow, real bonding moment there. I feel better.

If by art you mean crazy random things out of my head, then yes. Theres a site somewhere on the net that proves it. Just most of what I have worth showing is too big to scan. I always think of all the shit that Hasnt happened to me. That depresses me more knowing of the things in life expected of me and knowing they will likely never be achieved.

If I had a hot pocket or some sugar cereal here right now, all my troubles would be gone. I have neither. Just another addition to things that are going wrong or pissing me off.

Why don't you go down town and bum a few cigarettes? I bet there is a park around. You could work with others to get a sucker to pay your bus fare home.

It sounds like you are in a bad way.

things can only get better tho....?

does a happy dance to try and cheer up sketch


seriously tho , no matter how bad things get you cant feel that low all the time.find some random person you happen to have met once or twice before pressure them into hitting the bars and proceed to get wasted. it always makes things seem better,
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Ha. For one, I dont smoke. There are no buses around, no parks, and I'm not much for drinking. Maybe thats my problem? I need to get drunk a few times to really appreciate that there are millions of people that are way worse off than myself. You can only tell yourself, things could be worse, so many times before oyu start to crack. Also, the best chance at a random meeting would be the vast isles of Walmart. I'm not a fan of walking 15 miles to do so. I'll just sit this one out alone, as usual. Need...my guitar back...to take...my mind off. Even a happy bday from my ex would have made me smile...what with her promoting to be my best friend after everything. ...mmm...bitch board.

Well you know she was probably a slut and will be a hooker one day. You know whoever the jackass that's boucing her tulips probably just noticed she was unfaithfull to you, so he figures he can push it to see if she'll crack. Some guy tried doing that with me, but he didn't understand I was pissed because my boyfriend cheated on me. It was more like getting back at than cheating. It's a good thing I know martial arts. Now I have sponsership out of Alaska if I ever want to use it.

You know you really are better off. You don't need some slag bringing you down. I've seen it all before and even was there once. Atleast it sounds like you still have a place to stay so you aren't rock bottom. That's a hard place to get out of. I avoid it. Don't want to find out if I can take it.

ok, i skimmed this so bear with me. move out of illinois ssssss. i think thats your dilema. also your one pic i found on your website was pretty nice. post more. might want to get that pink eye in your avatar looked at.

Hmm..I dont believe there was cheating, just complications. She just, gave up, and was crazy at times...sometimes randomly insane. I'd say mostly because of the whole Immigration and stress thing. I would never cheat on someone no matter what the circumstances. If I were cheated on, I'd just hate them and leave forever. Moving out of Illinois IS my problem. If I could make that any bigger, I would. The point needs to be stressed. Illinois is a craphole. When you enter you automatically get a farm hat and a walmart card. This is why I went to Australia for 6 months. This is where my gf lived. This, making it very difficult for me to see her at times, but I was filing all my paperwork to stay there permanently and work so I could be with her. Back and forth and difficulties with paperwork, but everything was going pretty well, except for a lot of random fighting that I never knew what was about. Funny how life just bites you in the ass when you're not looking.
You thought my pic was nice? My webcam pic? The one where Im making a face and promoting that I have erectile dysfunction?
I will say this as I've said many many times before. People only find me attractive when I'm at my worst. Be it women, men, or those creepy gay German guys that keep emailing me. When I look decent, nobody really cares. I think its because they feel sorry for me. Girls like a guy that they can make over. Maybe theres hope for me yet.

...when CAN I post pics? Damn you, restrictions!

What do birthdays stand for, other than the fact that you've aged a year?

actually i was talking about your art, sorry about that. i know about the farmer shit. my grandfather is a farmer near peoria. it would be ok if the gravel roads were at least twisty.

Ahh. Gotcha. Skim around. Theres a whole artwork section. Hence clicking the big pic that says artwork. Then theres other such things. Theres ads, and cartoons, theres a whole site devoted to the evil bunny I made up and there are comic strips on there. I'm working on the page today. I have to make the artwork section updated with better stuff and more maneuverable. Also..

Birthdays help if youre still growing. Cuz after puberty, the sex drive comes into play. And without a sex drive, how else are you going to go about relieving stress? And then with sex comes babies and such. PRACTICE SAFE SEX !! --dont forget to pull out.

Yeh, that's right. EVERYTHING is about SEX!



You know I'm just on the Internet and there is a gimick for getting your credit report. You know FREE CREDIT REPORT! The day isn't even over and the ASSHOLES already charged $39.20 to my account. You know they say TRIAL PERIOD and $34.95 but no. It costs more and they charged me the same FUCKING DAY!



You know it would take idiots like them to do something like that and they DON'T EVEN HAVE A CUSTOMER SERVICE LINE!



So there I am at the convience store. Getting some gas and cigarettes. I checked my balance earlier today. Looking alright kind-of low. All I have with me is my debit card. What do you know? DECLINED.

Those FUCKING REJECTS from a BAD SCI-FI MOVIE screwed me up. Now I might have a full tank of gas, but when I go down to Austin to visit a friend. I'm broke.



Why don't they just shoot me?

I like your art. It's pretty. It have a semi-porfolio on my web site. Just click on the sig.

DAMN THE MAN! You track down those bastards and give em one for me! What you do is find out where its at, and then call the place cuz theres a numbers...somewhere. Credit card places usually have it on file. Call them and cancel your service. Theyll likely bill it right back. Only it takes longer than it took them to take it! B...baa...bastards!

As far as my art goes, some is pretty, some is pretty creepy, and some is pretty awful. Im going to tone out the pretty awful part and leave all the rest. Should be fun. I find it much easier when people suggest things for me to make, so I dont have to use my head as much. Comes out a lot nicer.

I see no art on yours, but lots of poetry. I get in moods where I just hate art and write a lot. I was in bed at 5am this morning and thought of the BEST poem..then a little part of a story to write. I was on a roll! I was so happy. Then I thought, I'll just write it all down in the morning when I wake up, cuz I cant be bothered now. ...thats right. I sure forgot most of it. I'm going to go struggle to remember it now.

Sorry, I have a boring life. That's about the best I could do.



The tiles are little painting about 20 x 20 pixels large. Can't you see it. The second main index is tiny fans.

i'm not really into reading your bullshit, so i'll just leave a this in your thread.

Wow. Fuck you too.



I feel so touched. It's almost dirty.

Man, everything in the past 2 posts was simplistic, yet great. I almost shed a tear.

i only have one thing to say


IF YOUR LIFE SUCKS, YOU SUCK!!!

Hmm, need...to post...pic....wont...let....me.

Oh well, the day is over and ended less horrible than previously thought. Bdays dont mean a whole lot to me in general, but...damn, cake is calming.

Now Ill go back to being crazy ol sketch, again. Back to working on my website or something. Boring day. Welcome to Saturday morning.