Im so bored and depressed and confused and tired and lost and and and and lonely....I need a hug!

*hugs Devil Bitch*

There happy?

kinda...thanx!

im sorry my sweetness I LOVE YOU

Sorry i'm no supper hero.

But here stair at him :woo: He really like attention from women because he could fly.

do you not feed the people of the world a fish supper shy shy ? Tut tut! Shame on you

Devils sweet, whats up ?

I love ya 2 Amy!

hehe thanx shy...

Evil...Well just everything is starting to really get to me and im really close to giving up...I have tried to help others, i just fuck it up. I have tried to help myself...But thats hasnt worked. I would go somewhere, but i ALWAYS lose patients with them...I dunno i just wanna scream and just let it all out...But if i do, im going to lose more...And i dont want that...Cuz i have very few as it is. And those few i cant even see day after day...I only see them saturday nite's...Sometimes. I cant even be with them. And i really need to see Jesse...I need to know if he is alive and doing better...I cant take this shit anymore...Im so close to just leaving...here or the world. I just dunno what to do for myself anymore. How are you?

Sweet the whole world wont turn its back on you unless you turn your back on it. There will always be a helping hand. If you wanna scream and let it all out, do that if that is what it takes. If you need to see Jesse try getting in touch wiv him or someone close to him that you know. Dont give up just yet, you know things have a funny way of turning themselves round most of the time. Just please dont give up yet.

Im fine.

I cant let it all out....Cuz ya i just cant....And i cant get intouch with Jesse...He is in Cal, in a hospital...And they never call me anymore and tell me how he is doing...And everytime i call them i get disconnected...I dunno...Im just so sick of being depressed...But i cant help myself anymore...I cant fake smiles, laughs, everything anymore...

You cant end it all tho. Theres no reason to. Start a new. Get a new hobby or something. Sounds stupid but it can take your mind off things for a bit, if only half an hour. Try talking to someone in person. Try writing all your feelings out and then burning the piece of paper. Try anything babe you cant just end it !

There is no1 who cares or wants to hear my problems...No1 wants to do anything with me anymore, no1 calls, no1 does anything...Why does it matter...Seriously. Why stay? My parents fucking hate each other, i hate my dad, im lossing love for horses cuz everytime i ride or want something or try to show i have to hear about it from my dad...So why love horses when i have to always hear about it? I have NO ONE...seriously. All i do is cry...All the time. I cant take it anymore...Its not getting better...Its been a a month and half of true hell...each fucking day is getting worse....So u tell me...Why i should stay.

To evil yeah sure I could feed the world a fish.


You know i'm not depressed anymore and I have been doing ok for about a month. Taking sometime for my self and away from Darkforum. Really did me some good. So no more depression for Shy.


DevilBitch maybe you should take sometime for your self. But I don't want to listen problems anymore.

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HAHAHA! Three people have used the comic genious thing on the ".........." I feel gifted.


Anti has his "cutcutcutcut"

Shy Shy has her ".............."

Look there are people out there who care. Look, no more talking about taking your own life shit. Your only young and you have a whole world out there waiting for you. You will not stay stationery for the rest of your life, you dont need to stay with your parents the rest of your life. Things can seriously change if you are willing to give it a go.

I know i know....

I'm sure he is thinking of you shelly.Now I feel like shit ,I'm carrying on wit my DUMB ASS FAT MUTHER FUCKIN UGLY ASS IMMATURE BITCHY self on how I love matt and blah blah blah....


Im such a waste of a life form.

sorry
and no im NOT Expectin pity..

Sweetie...SHUT THE FUCK UP. Jesus.
1st. U r very pretty...So shut up!
2nd. I understand the whole Matt thing...I bitch about Jesse ALL the time...And i shouldnt...But i cant help it, and u cant either.
3rd. Ur NOT a waste!
4th. Stop saying your sorry!
5th. I love you!!!!!!!!
6th. Ur not getting pity...Just the truth!

I do wonder if he ever does think about me.............
























probably doesnt....

I really think he does,even how much I hated matt when i was in tha mental hospital (I was about to committ suicide because matt left me and I loved him and he was gonna go wit my best friend cuz he was sick of me smoking pot and cutting myself)I still loved him I hated him but I jus wanted him.And you didn't even put him away!You didn't wanna go wit his best friend bc he did something dumb...you did nothing babe.


But yeah I seriously want to meet driwicked soo much out of anyone on this forum she is my 1st pick to beat tha living shit out of.So when we meet (we will ) I will find her and I will hurt her...and I'm very serious.She lives by you right?

I wonder sometimes...I kinda did put him where he is...He was getting out of control..I couldnt help him anymore...So i sent him to hell in FL...And ya we sued them now he is in Cal...And i havent heard about him for 3 months now. And the lst time i heard his voice was 7 months ago...And last time i saw his face was 9 months ago....It really sucks.....Why do we have to fall in love and then it turn into shit?!?!?!

She doesnt live by me...I know where she lives tho...I have seen her house...I dunno...I dont have a problem with her anymore...I never really did, she just pissed me off with her pointless threats and pointless shit. But hehe u do what u wanna do love!