~jealous, wishin it was he~

Deftones i think .........Change


I've watched you change
Into a fly
I looked away
You were on fire
I watched a change
In you
It's like you never
Had wings
Now you feel
So Alive
I've watched you change
I took you home
Set you on the glass
I pulled off your wings
Then I laughed
I watched a change
In you
It's like you never
Had wings
Now you feel
So alive
I've watched you change
It's like you never
Had wings ahhh ahh ahhh
I look at the cross
Then I look away
Give you the lungs to
Blow me away
I've watched a change
In you
It's like you never
Had wings
Now you feel
So Alive
I've watched you change.
Now you feel Alive
You Feel Alive
I've watched you change
It's like you never
Had wings

no you don't i broke it off with him, that's what the song's about

the song is called "change in the house of flies"



ANI DIFRANCO LYRICS

"Cradle And All"

fourteenth street and the garbage swirls like a cyclone
three o'clock in the afternoon and I am going home
F train is full of high school students
so much shouting
so much laughter
last night's underwear in my back pocket
sure sign of the morning after

take me home
take me home and leave me there
think I'm going to cry, I don't know why
think I'm going to sing myself a lullaby
feel free to listen
feel free to stare

I live in New York New York the city that never shuts up
in the daylight everything is so gory
you can hear snatches of stranger's sorry stories
and I moved there from buffalo but that's nothing
the TRICO plant moved to mexico
left my uncle standing out in the cold
said there's your last paycheck have fun growing old

take me home
take me home and leave me there
think I'm going to cry, I don't know why
think I'm going to sing myself a lullaby
feel free to listen
feel free to stare
rockabye baby
in the treetop
when the wind blows
cradle will rock
when the bough breaks
the cradle will fall
down will come baby
cradle and all

youth is beauty
money is beauty
hell, beauty is beauty sometimes
it's the luck of the draw
it's the natural law
it's a joke
it's a crime
I was bored
you were bored
it was a meeting of the minds
now it's three in the afternoon and I can't leave too soon
saying thank you, I had a nice time

take me home
take me home and leave me there
think I'm going to cry, I don't know why
think I'm going to sing myself a lullaby
feel free to listen
feel free to stare

maybe I'll live my whole life
just getting by
maybe I'll be discovered
maybe I'll be colonized
you could try to train me like a pet
you could try to teach me to behave
But I'll tell you, if I haven't learned it yet
you know,
I ain't gonna sit, I ain't gonna stay

take me home
take me home and leave me there
think I'm going to cry, I don't know why
think I'm going to sing myself a lullaby
feel free to listen
feel free to stare

fields with a little magic to wield the words;



Endemoniada


So let it feel unreal, when I force you to sleep at the wheel
Think about this - his looks could kill
It's such a thrill the way I feel
Now I'm falling asleep at the wheel,
And I'm dreaming of the kill

We dream of familiar plains here - we dream of familiar places

Do you want to display, you just stand in my way
If you want to display your love in that way
Now get out...

Think about this...
What I've seen with old eyes
And every time I turn around another dies
Think about this - his looks could kill

As visions black, I go to the wall sometimes when I'm walking on my own
We dream of familiar places
As visions black, I go to the wall sometimes when I'm walking on my own
We dream of familiar places

And I'm dreaming
We dream of familiar plains here - my heart beats, my heart beats
We dream of familiar places

Stop

YAAAAAAY :metalhead wow I mean, I'm sorry ~hugs~



Sisters with MORE~for U~


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some people get by
with a little understanding
some people get by
with a whole lot more
I don't know
why you gotta be so undemanding
one thing I know
I want more
I want more

(and I need all the love that I can't get to)
(and I need all the love I can get)
(and I need all the love that I can't get to)

d'you get scared to feel so much?
to let somebody touch you?
so hot, so cold, so far so out of control
hard to come by, and harder to hold

some people get by
with a little understanding
some people get by
with a whole lot more
I don't know
why you gotta be so undemanding
I want more
(and I need all the love I can get)
(and I need all the love that I can't get to)
(and I need all the love I can get)
(and I need all the love that I can't get to)

there are parts of me that don't get nervous
not the parts that shake
you won't get what you deserve
you are what you take
learning to cry for fun and profit
I'm not done yet
counterfeit dollars or the English zloty
anything I can get

some people get by
with a little understanding
some people get by
with a whole lot more
I don't know
why you gotta be so undemanding
one thing I know
I want more

(and I need all the love I can get)
(and I need all the love that I can't get to)
(and I need all the love I can get)
(and I need all the love that I can't get to)

all the love that you can get
all the love
that I can't get to

Powerman 5000

A Is For Apathy

I wanna be
The richest American
I wanna live
Out on the street

So many reasons
To just do nothing
To walk around
Like you're out on your feet

So here we are
Now running in circles
We shoulda listened
To H.G. Wells

We're living in
The age of frustration
We're giving in
But we can't even tell

And all you need
Is one good reason
One good reason
You don't believe

You want a mapped out
Blank Existance
So you don't feel stupid
Before you leave

Everybody's here but nobody showed up

A is for apathy
For apathy
For apathy
Green says go
Blood red stop
You gotta hit the bottom
Before you hit the top

So make the call
Which side you on
Back with the weak
Go down with the strong ..

for ps

Shoot the Moon
Norah Jones


The summer days are gone too soon
You shoot the moon
And miss completely
And now you're left to face the gloom
The empty room that once smelled sweetly
Of all the flowers you plucked if only
You knew the reason
Why you had to each be lonely
Was it just the season?

Now the fall is here again
You can't begin to give in
It's all over

When the snows come rolling through
You're rolling too with some new lover
Will you think of times you've told me
That you knew the reason
Why we had to each be lonely
It was just the season

This song, by Pneumatic Detach and AEC is called "Justin Is a Stalker" and is dedicated to no one in particular.

You know the way I'm comming for you,
You know just what I'm going to do to you,
There's only so far that you can push me,
There's only so much that a man can take.
I can't tell you how much I'm looking foward,
To seeing how much I can break you.

You stupid bitch, did you really think you'd get away?
You're never going to get away again.
Did you really think that you would get away from me?
Wipe that illusion from your stinking lips.

You're never gonna guess the pain that I will give to you,
Until I'm tearing out your rotten, fucking arms.
To watch you bleed would bring me total satisfaction,
And I wont stop until I tear your whole world apart.

And you wont know me anymore
And you don't want me any longer
And you wont know me anymore
And you don't want me any longer

Everything that you try, nothing matters to me
Just only when you die, my only liberty
Everything that you've done, moving under the sun
Ever place that I've gone, under the weight of a gun
Nothing left to hide, you know you're dead inside
When I'm comming for you, there's nothing left to lose

You know I'm much closer now,
You know your life is over anyhow.
You rotten whore, how did you think this would end?
That I would forgive and forget you now?
Then perish the thought, then less you believe,
That you have outsmarted me.

You're nothing without me and I'll make you see
That without your skin, you're just a bag of needs
And I'll tell you what you want,
And I'll tell you what you need.

Everything that you try, nothing matters to me
Just only when you die, my only liberty
Everything that you've done, moving under the sun
Ever place that I've gone, under the weight of a gun
Nothing left to hide, you know you're dead inside
When I'm comming for you, there's nothing left to lose.

oh well........................................................

3 doors down - The road I´m on...................

She said life’s a lot to think about sometimes
When you’re living in between the lines
And all the stars are sparkling, shine everyday
He said life’s so hard to move in sometimes
When it feels like I’m in the line
And no one even cares to ask me why I feel this way

And I know you feel helpless now, and I know you feel, hold on
That’s the same road, the same road that I’m on, yeah

He said life’s a lot to think about sometimes
When you keep it on between the lines
And everything I want and I want to find one of these days

But what you thought was real in life
Oh, it somehow steer you wrong
And now you just keep trying and trying to find out where you belong
And I know you feel helpless now, and I know you feel, hold on
That’s the same road, the same road that I’m on

What you thought was real in life, somehow steer you wrong
And now you just keep trying and trying to find where you belong

I know you feel helpless now, I know you feel, hold on
That’s the same, the same road that I’m on

....this is machines of love and grace


All I Really Need

["I'm gonna give you one more chance, now if you wanna apologize, here's your chance!"]
["Ok, ok, I'm all through, can't do another thing"]
["I'm gonna give you the hottest night of your life"]
["Please, I want you so bad"]
["Ok, ok"]
["kill me"]
["kill me"]
["Ok, ok"]
["kill me"]
["Please, I want you so bad"]
["kill me"]
["You self-righteous"]
["You self-righteous"]
["Please, I want you so bad"]
["kill me"]
["Release the rage, get it out, get even"]
["kill me"]
["Release the rage, get it out, get even"]
["kill me"]
["Release the rage, get it out, get even"]
["kill me"]
["Release the rage, get it out, get even"]
["kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me"]
["Body and soul"]
["Body and soul"]
["Body and soul"]
["Body and soul"]
["Bastard!"]

Oh please, for God's sake, forgive me
Forgive me, for I know not what I say
Forgive me, forgive me, my love has gone astray...
All I really need is your love
["asshole"] ["cocksucker"] ["motherfucker"] ["scumbag"]
All I really need is your love
["eat shit"] ["cocksucker"] ["bastard"] ["bastard"]
All I really need is your love

[ Each of the rest of the sample groups take a grouping of four
[ these samples in a different order.

All I really need is your love
Desire alone is not what you call love,
Still not all that I was thinking of...
All I really need is your love...
All I really need is your love...
All I really need is your love...
All I really need is your love...
["love love love love..."]
["...asshole"]...

THE THORN WITHIN
Forgive me father
For I have sinned
Find me guilty of the life I feel within
And when I'm branded
This mark of shame
Should I look down disgraced
Or straight ahead
And know that you must blame


*I am the secret
I am the sin
I am the guilty
And I, I am the thorn within


Forgive me father
For I have sinned
Find me guilty when true guilt is from within
So point your fingers
Point right at me
For I am shadows and will follow me
One and the same are we


* Repeat


I do your time
I take your fall
I'm branded guilty
For us all


So point your fingers
Point right at me
For I am shadows and will follow you
One and the same are we

For Elinor... i am angry because i still allow myself to bleed for having loved you....

Title: Never Forgive
Artist Assemblage 23


It never felt so real
Never so visceral
But now it's all too clear
And all too typical

You're left with nothing
And it's all your fault
Relations cease
And emotions halt

Did you think the things you said
Wouldn't get back to me?
That I'd fall and disperse
Beneath you misery

I won't waste my time
You can suffer alone
Crying your shrill litany
In endless drones

CHORUS
Rain down
Tears of regret
You haven't seen the worst of it yet
Your name
A foul epithet
Never forgive... never forget

I offered you something
You can never regain
But now all I can offer you
is total disdain

And this is how you pay me back
for all those times
I listened to you
and forgave all your crimes

If lies about me
Are the best you can do
I guess I must've
Overestimated you

Paint cruelty on me
But its all the same
No one believes someone
In your mindframe

(CH)

The light of day
Was never kind to you
But the darkness is worse
When the day is through

Time to reflect
On all your misdeeds
And sob your sorry self
To sleep

For anybody who needs inspiration:

Artist: Seether
Album : Disclaimer
Song: Out Of My Way

Lyrics:

Out of my way
Out of my, way

[Pre-Chorus]
I can’t pass up this opportunity to make myself absurd,
I can’t pass up this opportunity to make myself be heard.
Would you, like to, be the one who sees me lose this all,
Would you, like to, be the one who sees me fall.

[Chorus]
Nobody’s gonna stand in my way
Give it up son, I’m doin’ this my way
Nobody’s gonna stand in my way
Give it up son, I’m doin’ this my way

You like to think the worst is over now, but you cant breathe at all
You like to think you’re owed a favor now, man you’ve seen it all

Did you, want to, be the one who pushed me off the wall,
Did you, want to, be the one who let me fall.

[Chorus]

You can’t hold me down..
You can’t hold me down..
You can’t hold me down..
You can’t hold me down..

[Pre-Chorus]

[Chorus]

Nobody’s gonna stand in my way
Give it up, I’m doin’ this my way
Nobody’s gonna stand in my way
Give it up, I’m doin’ this my way
Out of my way

HOW SWEET U are~hugs~

this is dedicated to a fucking nation full of sleep and ignorant morons;


Machines of love and grace with;


Albert Speer
We have faced despair
and found a river there
we have faced despair
and found a river there
we have sucked the fruit of disease
and found that it tasted sweet
like meat gone bad

sleep warmly under columns of light
sleep warmly under columns of light
sleep warmly under columns of light
sleep with the fishes tonight

all alone in this recluse car
became afraid of what we are
and what we might not be
in the land of the free

land of the free
land of the free
land of the free
land of the free

smell the ripe overripe budding America
a sweetfaced straightlaced pornographic actress
that's her draw -
no one can believe she'd appear in this smut
her face smiling perfect through innocent teeth
unaware of the debauchery beneath
smiling innocent through perfect teeth
unaware of the wolves running
wild in her streets
in the land of the free

land of the free
land of the free
land of the free

get em up get em
down on their knees
all praise to Allah
who provides what we need
a Swiss precision suicide machine
Jesus Christ
Soul on Ice
sleep with the mother fuckin
fishes tonight

I feel like posting this.

Type O Negative

Love You To Death

In her place one hundred candles burning - as salty sweat drips from her breast
her hips move and I can feel what they're saying - swaying
they say the beast inside of me is gonna get ya - get ya get -
yeah

Black lipstick stains - her glass of red wine - i am your servant
may I light your cigarette
those lips smooth yeah I can feel what you're saying - praying
they say the beast inside of me is gonna get ya - get ya get -
yeah

I beg to serve - your wish is my law
now close those eyes - and let me love you to death
shall I prove - I mean what I'm saying - begging
I say the beast inside of me is gonna get ya - get ya get

Ahhhh - let me love you - to - ahhhh - let me love you - to -
death - to death

Ahhhh - let me love you - to - ahhhh - let me love you - to -
death - to death

Hey am i good enough - for you
am I good enough - for you
am I - am I for you - am I - for you
am I good enough - for you

I like that one too. This is dedicated to my love life.

~Everyone I Love Is Dead~

Seems three years - though maybe four
someone drops dead - whom i adore
you love someone - there will be grief
the kiss of death - lips of a thief - goddammit

A dusty stack of photographs
of times i cried - but mostly laughed
commit the past - into blue flame
acrid smoke - cowardly shame - goddammit

At times i'm truly terrified
cause dope and booze - don't help to hide
they're used to mask - a weakling's hurt
it's just like painting - over dirt

Everyone i love is - dead - everyone i love is - dead - all dead

life's a game i cannot win
both good and bad - must surely end
the mirrors - always tell the truth
i love myself for hating you

Everyone i love is - dead - everyone i love is - dead
everyone i love is - dead - everyone i love is - dead - goddammit

Goddammit

All dead - all dead
all dead all dead all dead all dead all dead all dead all dead
all dead - all dead
goddammit