NIN

"Hurt "

I hurt myself today
To see if i still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But i remember everything
What have i become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone i know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear my crown of shit
On my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stain of time
The feeling disappears
You are someone else
I am still right here
What have i become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone i know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If i could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

for waterbearer. i love you. *hugs tight*


the winter here's cold, and bitter
it's chilled us to the bone
we haven't seen the sun for weeks
so long too far from home

i feel just like i'm sinking
and i claw for solid ground
i'm pulled down by the undertow
i never thought i could feel so low
long darkness i feel like letting go
if all of the strength and all of the courage
come and lift me from this place
i know i could love you much better than this
it’s better this way

so it's better this way, i said
having seen this place before
where everything we said and did
hurts us all the more

it's just that we stayed, too long
in the same old sickly skin
i'm pulled down by the undertow
i never thought i could feel so low
long darkness i feel like letting go
if all of the strength
and all of the courage
come and lift me from this place
i know i could love you much better than this
full of grace
it's better this way

edit - stupid drunking postedness

Doe is back wooo whoo!!!! u've been missed itss about damn time u come back~!!!!

no i'm not back. i left for good several weeks ago but ended up posting that in a drunken stupor. sorry.

aw......okay.......but u is very missed so u better visit once in awhie aight

Lullacry

Sweet Desire

So long have you drunk bitter tears
turning hopes into fears
every wound on your soul has a story to tell
getting bigger like the ripples in a well

Always hidden between blind eyes
Sheltering Your Grief and lies
you have covered yourself with fire
come on and taste the sweet desire

Glowing fire
Getting higher
Come and taste
The sweet desire

NIN



Even Deeper

i woke up today
to find myself in the other place
with a trail of my footprints
from where i ran away
it seems anything i've heard
just might be true
and you know me
(well you think you do)
sometimes i hate everything-
yet i wish i felt something

do you know how far this has gone ?
just how damaged have i become ?
when i think i can overcome
it runs even deeper

and in a dream i'm a different me
with a perfect you
we fit perfectly
and for once in my life i feel complete-
and i still want to ruin it
afraid to look
as clear as day
this plan has long been underway
i hear them call
i cannot stay
the voice inviting me away

do you know how far this has gone ?
just how damaged have i become ?
when i think i can overcome
it runs even deeper
everything that matters is gone
all the hands of hope have withdrawn
could you try to help me hang on ?
it runs...

i'm straight
i won't crack
on my way
and i can't turn back
i'm okay
i'm on track
on my way
and i can't turn back
i stayed
on this track
gone too far
and i can't turn back
i stayed on this track
lost my way
can't turn back


Last

gave up trying to figure it out
my head got lost along the way
worn out from giving it up
my soul i pissed it all away
still stings these shattered nerves
pigs we get what pigs deserve
i'm going all the way down
i'm leaving today

come come come on you've gotta fill me up
come come gotta let me inside of you
come come come on you've gotta fix me up
come come gotta let me inside of you

still feel it all slipping away
but it doesn't matter anymore
look through these blackened eyes
you'll see ten thousand lies
my lips may promise but my heart is a whore

come come come on you've gotta fill me up
come come gotta let me inside of you
come come come on you've gotta fix me up
come come gotta let me inside of you

this isn't meant to last
this is for right now
i know it's all getting away
it comes to me as no surprise
i know what's coming to me is never going to arrive
fresh blood through tired skin
new sweat to drown me in
dress up this rotten carcass just to make it look alive

come come come on you've gotta fill me up
come come gotta let me inside of you
come come come on you've gotta fix me up
come come gotta let me inside of you

this isn't meant to last
this is for right now
this isn't meant to last
this is for right now

i want you to make me
i want you to take me
i want you to break me
i want you to throw me away

NIN

Terrible lie


hey god why are you doing this to me
am i not living up to what i'm supposed to be
why am i seething with this animosity
hey god i think you owe me a great big apology

terrible lie

hey god i really don't know what you mean
seems like salvation come only in our dreams
i feel my hatred grow all the more extreme
hey god can this world really be as sad as it seems

terrible lie

don't take it away from me, i need someone to hold on to
hey god there's nothing left for me to hide
i lost my ignorance, security and pride
i'm all alone in a world you must despise
hey god i believed your promises, your promises and lies

terrible lie

you make me throw it all away
my morals left to decay
how many you betray
you've taken everything

terrible lie

my head is filled with disease
my skin is begging you please
i'm on my hands and knees
i want so much to believe

I like songs without words.. how about some Ravi Shankar..
~musical interlude~

To/Die/For

Hollow Heart

Memories of you
haunt me everyday
a never healing wound
and nothing left to say
i die a little every day
i die a little anyway
for the memories
for hell inside of me

no true emotions
no true regrets
no true devotion can live off bitterness
my hollow inside
my hollow heart
my restless soul is longing to depart

come surround me with your grace
wash away my deep disgrace
take me into your sweet embrace
where i can live in sin
i die a little anyway
i die a little every day
for the memories
for hell inside of me

no true emotions in my hollow heart...

NIN

I do not want this


I'm losing ground
You know how this world can beat you down
I'm made of clay
I fear i'm the only one who thinks this way
I'm always falling down the same hill
Bamboo puncturing this skin
And nothing comes bleeding out of me just like a waterfall i'm drowning in
2 feet below the surface i can still make out your wavy face
And if i could just reach you maybe i could leave this place
I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this
Don't you tell me how i feel
Don't you tell me how i feel
Don't you tell me how i feel
You don't know just how i feel
I stay inside my bed
I have lived so many lives all in my head
Don't tell me that you care
There really isn't anything, is there?
You would know, wouldn't you?
You extend your hand to those who suffer
To those who know what it really feels like
To those who've had a taste
Like that means something
And oh so sick i am
And maybe i don't have a choice
And maybe that is all i have
And maybe this is a cry for help
I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this
Don't you tell me how i feel
Don't you tell me how i feel
Don't you tell me how i feel
You don't know just how i feel

I want to know everything
I want to be everywhere
I want to fuck everyone in the world
I want to do something that matters

NIN
Gave up

perfect little dream
the kind that hurts the most
forgot how it feels
well almost
no one to blame
always the same
open my eyes
wake up wake up wake up wake up in flames

it took you to make me realize
it took you to make me realize
it took you to make me realize
it took you to make me see the light

smashed up my sanity
smashed up integrity
smashed up what i believed in
smashed up what's left of me
smashed up my everything
smashed up all that was true
gonna smash myself to pieces
i don't know what else to do

covered with hope and vaseline
still cannot fix this broken machine
watching the hole that used to be mine
just watching it burn in my steady systematic decline
of the trust i will betray
give it to me i throw it away
after everything i've done i hate myself for what i've become
i tried
i gave up
throw it away

FUNKER VOGT - Shaven

Shaven cunts fuck much more horny
I know this for quite a while
so the juices run in torments
and not only bloody sperm

So fuck until the cunts are steaming
a shaven cleft on wet skin
let us play some kinky games
to incease our horny passion

Refrain:
I'm the great pubedresser
I cut pubes like a master
always dressed in black leather
I want to lick your naked skin

Pearls of sweat drop from her body
building up a lake of lust
with each stroke she starts to shiver
and her screams are getting louder

This song goes out to someone with a shaven crotch.

Tarja is my goddess...

Nightwish

Tenth Man Down

Today I killed, he was just a boy
Eight before him, I knew them all
In the fields a dying oath:
I'd kill them all to save my own

Cut me free, Bleed with me, Oh no
One by one, We will fall, down down
Pull the plug, End the pain, Run and fight for life
Hold on tight, this ain't my fight

Deliver me from this war
It's not for me it's because of you
Devil's instant my eternity
Obey to kill to save yourself

I envy the 9 lives that gave me hell
My path made up by their torn bodies
Man to man, soldier to soldier, dust to dust
Call me a coward but I can't take it anymore

They wait for me back home
The live with eyes turned away
They were the first ones to see
They are the last ones to bleed

The ultimate high as all beautiful dies
A ruler's tool, priest's excuse, tyrant's delight...
I alone, the great white hunter
I'll march till the dawn brings me rest
10th patriot at the gallow's pole!

this ones for you varmon cant remember if i gave u the lyrics or not like i said i would so here you go



skidrow

18 And Life

Ricky was a young boy, He had a heart of stone.
Lived 9 to 5 and worked his fingers to the bone.
Just barely got out of school, came from the edge of town.
Fought like a switchblade so no one could take him down.
He had no money, oooh no good at home.
He walked the streets a soldier and he fought the world alone
And now it's

18 and life You got it
18 and life you know
Your crime is time and it's
18 and life to go


Tequila in his heartbeat, His veins burned gasoline.
It kept his motor running but it never kept him clean.
They say he loved adventure, "Ricky's the wild one."
He married trouble and had a courtship with a gun.
Bang Bang Shoot 'em up, The party never ends.
You can't think of dying when the bottle's your best friend
And now it's

chorus

"Accidents will happen" they all heard Ricky say
He fired his six-shot to the wind that blew a child away.

chorus

I hate this man i hate this man

but i likes this song

Papa roach

"She Loves Me Not"

When I see her eyes look into my eyes
Then I realize that she can see inside my head
So I close my eyes thinking that I could hide
Disassociate so I don't have to lose my head
The situation, is to adjatation if she cut me off
Would this be an amputation?

I don't know if I care
I'm the jerk, life's not fair
Fighting all the time
This is out of line
She loves me not, loves me not!
Do you realize I won't compromise
She loves me not, loves me not!

Over the past five years I have shed my tears
I have drank my beers and watch my fingers fly away
Then until this day you still swing my way
But its sad to say sometimes she says she loves me not
But I hesatate to tell her I hate
This relationship I wanted to date this is over

Life's Not Fair
I'm the jerk!

Line for line, ryhme for ryhme
Sometimes I be writin' all the goddam time
It's makin' me sick
Relationship is gettin' ill
This your stupid man
On the lil, could you feel
What I feel, what's the deal girl
We're tearin' up each others world
We should be in harmony boy and girl
That is a promise we made
Back in the day
You told me that things wouldn't be this way
I think we should work this out
'Cause all I didn't mean is to scream and shout



Life's not fair!
Life's not fair!
Life's not fair!
I'm the jerk!
Life's not fair!
She loves me not!
Loves me not!