there isn't a wrong way to live life. how can living a life the way you want to live it be wrong? you are your own person, you make your own choices, and you make your own destiny. tell me how can any of these things be wrong? that is just it there should be NOTHING wrong with that once so ever. you should live however the fuck you want to live it. just as long as it makes you happy as a person and nothing else should really matter besides that. fuck how society wants you to be a person and expects you to live your life how they think you should live it! a big giant FUCK YOU TO SOCIETY!! is what kendra has to say. want to know why i say that? because people are not ME! they don't think like me, they don't dress like me, they don't act like me, they seriously do not have my emotions, they aren't compassionate like me, and i say things which no one dares to say from what i write about in my journal. when it comes to me and my own thoughts. i'm extremely deep for a female. and i feel so powerfull right now that i could make people shut the fuck up and listen to me on what i have to say. since i have alot to say for a person who is quiet. my heart is like an open book for the whole intire world to read.

so i want everyone here who is reading this entry of mine to do this... pick a hand to use weather you are a righty or a lefty.... i'm a lefty so i'm going to use my left hand here. then with that hand of yours find a place that is crowed with people... stick out your hand and use the middle fucking finger people!!!! you want to know what you guys just did? you flipped off SOCIETY!! man i know you people can do it... you people should clap for your selves.

so remember your life isn't wrong on how your life is being lived. just as long as you are happy with it... then give it a fucking world.. since i'm starting to practise what i'm preaching to you people. i'm going to do the same with my life. and always will since i take my own routes. its so fucking nice not being a sheep to society.

"eats meat" hail kendra.......

Her name was Lola, she was a showgirl
with yellow feathers in her hair and a dress cut down to there
she would merengue and do the cha-cha
and while she tried to be a star
Tony always tended bar
across the crowded floor, they worked from 8 til 4
they were young and they had each other
who could ask for more?


CHORUS:

At the copa (CO!)she was a showgirl.....at the copa....copacabana(Copacabana)
the hottest spot north of Havana (here)
at the copa (CO!) Copacabana
music and passion were always the fashion
At the copa.... they fell in love

His name was Rico
he wore a diamond
he was escorted to his chair, he saw Lola dancing there
and when she finished,he called her over
but Rico went a bit to far
Tony sailed across the bar
and then the punches flew and chairs were smashed in two
there was blood and a single gun shot
but just who shot who?

REPEAT CHORUS

At the copa... she lost her love

Her name is Lola, she was a showgirl,
but that was 30 years ago, when they used to have a show
now it's a disco, but not for Lola,
still in the dress she used to wear,
faded feathers in her hair
she sits there so refined,and drinks herself half-blind
she lost her youth and she lost her Tony
now she's lost her mind

REPEAT CHORUS

At the copa... don't fall in love
don't fall in love

haha well i'm talking to sixxx(sic)six on yahoo messanger. and on yahoo messanger he is talking to wicked lady. so wicked lady was singing this song "copacabana" to him but she sanged this part only "she was a showgirl.....at the copa....copacabana" so i found the lyrics and posted it to sixxx(sic)six on yahoo messanger and him show her the lyrics. but as i left to go get a pack of cigarettes. wicked lady got me started on this song though. in the kitchen i had that song in my head.. so i clapped my hands together once and started singing that song in the kitchen... so once when i came back and got my cigarettes i found some barry manilow lyrics and posted this to her and she messaged me on yahoo saying i have great taste...

well this is all i got to say.

today i'm feeling anger. i'm not going to let this anger feeling take control over me. so i'm going to try and get my self to relax and hope that this anger feeling will pass. so right now my body is having a war right now on trying to relax while getting rid of this anger feeling i have at the moment. and while this is happening to me right now. i have to put my head down here and there. just to give my self a little rest from this war my body is having to put up with. and it has been causing me to have a pain in my chest all ready. felt that this morning when i woke up and feeling angry right off the bat from waking up. i know exactly what i'm feeling angry about. but i'm not going to mention what it is i'm feeling angry about. cause that is for me to know and for you not to know. there is only one person who does know what i'm angry about and she understands about it.

so i'm trying not to let this anger have control over me. since it has control over me way to much. for a female i have alot of anger going on. but i don't take it out on other people though. i don't like being this way around people. unless if it is for a reason and a dam good reason only and if they fucking asked for it as well.. then i'll give you what you fucking asked for. then once when you get it from me on the thing which you have asked for. don't fucking be saprised about it and go "why did kendra yell at me the way she did? is she fucking pissed at me? did i do something wrong? " don't do any of that shit.. since alot of people do that when you explode on them and there being ignorant little cunt rags...

man this causing pressure pains on some parts of my body. which isn't good for the body its self to have. which is why i'm forcing my self to relax. here is where i'm having pain from when it comes to my body.

1. lower back.
2. chest
3. my elbow.... like it feels as if its being squiezed to death and it has a pinching feeling going on. and sometimes that hurts though. and i feel that off and on with my elbow and i haven't bannged it up againts anything. so i dont' know what is causing it to have that kind of a pressure.

and i also don't want to deal with hate right on top of anger. that would seirously wear me out. and this stuff does wear me out.

i know exactly what is going on inside my head. and why i feel the way i feel.

well for a person who is a virgin. i don't really see what is so great about masterbation. eventhough i have done before out of curiousity. but it didn't satisfy me. and that was a long time ago actually when i performed masterbation on my self. but haven't done it since then. but here is what i think about masterbation.

with me it all has to deal with this. why have sex with your own hand? i mean having sex with your own hand is safe sex. you can't get sexual transmitted disease or aids. and you don't have to worry about your own hand cheating on you unless if its idle. but with women we are more emotional creatures. and if we were to masterbate. then it would take us alot to have an orgasim.

so that is why i don't ever want to deal with it anymore. and plus feeling the inside of your self right along with pubic hair........................ that doesn't excite me "giggles"

oh ya and i'm feeling much better by the way.....

yes for a person i have a thing called "empathy." i can feel what other people are feeling. when i ask a person if they are ok. i can tell that he or she are not ok as they claim to be ok. which is why i would come out and ask the person twice. and if he or she would stick to there "ok" answer.
these are things i'll do.
1. i'll be a good person and ask if he or she would like to talk about it.
2. if he or she would come out and say "no" and not to talk about it. then i'll leave that be and still let he or she know that whenever they need to talk to me about something. that i'm always here to listen to them whenever they need somebody.
3. i don't force anybody to give me an explenation about the problem that he or she is worried about or having.


which no one should do really. you can't force someone to talk to you about there problem. or even be upset with them about it for not telling you. the best thing to do is this.... you should keep talking to either a he or she and try to cheer them up as best as you can. and let them know that if he or she wants to talk to you about the problem. then they will come to you once when they feel ready enough to come to you about there problem. i think it all has to do with them not trusting you as a person. whenever he or a she is having a problem.

and it isn't all about trusting someone whenever he or she is having a problem. cause most people they feel that they don't have a right to have a problem. because other people have it way worse then them. and they feel that there problem is in a childish form. and so what either a he or she would do is they would bottle it up and try to handle it on there own.

insight

i can understand a problem that a person is having... and being able to see something in the problem which the other person can not see. and its like as if i can psychic about it. and your trying to prevent them to do the right thing in the problem that the person is having. instead of them doing something about the problem in a wrong way. i don't know how i'm always able to see something in the problem which the other person can not see. its just something i have always been able to do.

well i guess this is all i got to say about my empathy and insight. i hope you enjoyed what i had to say about it.

2 good qualities many people have but few use them.

yes and you are correct. with me i use it all the time. nice to see you in here edge!

Oh you know me. I' ll just pop in randomly.

haha good and you better come in here!

I really like your signature.

thank you. i like my signature to because i feel the same way.

Angelina Jolie always makes me horny for a reason that is different from her beauty.

haha. well tell me about your reason.

It's her personality of course silly!

haha oh!!

well she does have a kick ass personallity though. god i'm silly "giggles."

In a very cute, awesome, attracting way.


*hugs*

well as you people can see i've been reading about telekinesis. and since i've been reading about it. i learned about telekinesis a day in a half and got the power down all ready. because yesterday i moved an object so now i believe that telekineses DOES actually work and it isn't bullshit as how i thought it would be. since i've moved an object ONCE i could do it all over again. also when i moved that object it freaked me out. and ever since i've moved an object i can't be able to get that moving of an object out of my head at all. i'm going to be messing around with telekinesis alot more untill i seriously get it down. anybody can do telekenises as well as being able to have telekinesis. so that is what i'm going to be doing all this week learn, study, practise, and meditate.......

but i have to be carefull with telekenises. cause if anybody catches me moving objects they are going to think i'm satan. and having an open mind can get you into trouble. i'm open to just about anything...

but having telekineses isn't about being satan at all. it has nothing at all to do with having his powers. and it isn't an occoult power either. its all about the energy and using the force of the mind.

once when i get telekineses down i'm thinking about looking into psychokinesis. telekineses is different then psychokinesis.

telekineses- being able to move objects.

psychokinesis- being able to control an object. weather you are bending it or using it to stop time.

but i'm sticking to telekineses for right now. well this is all i have to say about my journal.

woah!

ya tell me about it... cause that is what i say about it as well.