this one?

wow i'm glad i had better comments about my picture this time. because the last time i've posted a picture. mainly people were saying the samething "you look just as i imagined you to be. or that it was nice to finally see you." then getting other members who said i was ugly. i've been seriously not comfortable about posting a picture of myself ever since that. but i liked the comments that i got this time much better then the last.

yeah!

heh, you could try this one...

yeah that is true i like that.

that is ALOT better *nods head*

~spits out drink~ Holy Fuck! You are hot!!! I had no idea. Wow!!! ~doesn't know what else to say~

awww

hehe

well you spitting out that drink and saying "holly fuck"

that was seriously good enough on your reaction

thank you hunny *hugs/kisses*

well not much has been going. except i'm starting to interact with my dad more. now that my mom and grandma are out of town. in a way its weird and in another way it isn't so weird. i have a nice and all and i love him. except i don't know how to communicate with him so our interaction is less. i know how to interact with my mom a lot and know how to talk to her. but with my dad don't know how to talk to him since he will talk about golf and poker and the such you know like guy things on which i have no clue as to how to talk about that with him.... but he has been cooking dinner and i'm shocked to see him cook dinner and i didn't know he could cook dinner.... yesterday he made french onion soup and some salad and it was all very good. i was seriously amazed about it. then we would talk her and there some a bit. we just talk about the food is all hehe. he would play golf with his buddy's at the country club and then he would come home early and cook food for us... his friends didn't know he could cook after they said this "you know how to do that doc?"

people still call my dad doc. also he will come into my room and tell me how he's going to plan out his day and he even asked me if we need to get more beer hehehe. i was sitting here by my computer feeling shocked about that question... so i agreed that we needed more beer.

so today he will come home early and cook chicken friend steak with greay and french fries.... because i never talk about my dad much do i?

anyway i'm going to get off. don't know what i'll be going to do and all... but i'll get myself to do something.....

well i came back. which didn't last very long. don't really have anything to do muchless even have anyone to talk to in person... so i decided to come on here and see who is online at darkforum.. to have some people to chat with...

yeah i'm feeling alone. while i don't feel that bad about it. just.... just... don't know how to describe it.... i guess i'll put it as bored/alone....

bored/alone hehe cute.

maybe it would be nice if i could get a phone call from anyone.... because i'm that desperate.

sometimes you gotta turn it
up
up
up

sometimes you gotta turn it

down
down
down

i don't even know
why
why
why

so why not have a
beer
beer
beer

because it does a body
good
good
good

my dad cooked dinner it was pretty good. i'm amazed that he can cook. i didn't think he could can cook. but my dad can actually cook. he cooked me some chicken fried steak with french fries. lately he has been cooking me meals that i like. i gave him a compliment at the table about his cooking and thanking him for cooking for me. so now he is in his room and i'm in my own room. i'm watching VH1 listening to there 80's shit.

guess this is all i have to say. since i'm just sitting here chewing on a yellow straw that you use for those kool-aid packs... i'm still trying my best not to drink so much coke.

i'm being a space cadet again. so i guess i better get going.

w4rd.

ok well i passed out and i just now woke up. the time is only 9:37PM. while i woke up feeling seriously fucking thirsty. so i got some kool-aid packs and pour all of the kool-aid out of those packs and put it into a glass.... then i just sucked that right down. i'm still pretty thirsty as a matter fact. of course el paso is raining i heard it thundering outside while i was sleeping. i love the fact that its raining. i hope that it seriously rains alot. i'm happy when it rains. because it would be nice to get away from some of this fucking heat that we are having. i hope it never stops raining. i want it to rain and rain and rain and rain..... do you think i'll ever get tired of it? nope because i don't complain when its rained to much in el paso. while other people will do that. they want it to rain and when it rains alot people bitch about it saying that we are having too much rain... where with me i don't a fuck i'm butt as mother fucking happy about it.

there is something weird with this. since i'm drinking a tall glass of kool-aid its like as if this guy is seriously shocked about me from the way i'm sucking my drink down with his face expression


because i happened to look at that face expression while drinking my glass. it made me giggle.

have you ever fucking noticed that when you are drunk. you start to seriously feel everything around you like its power or energy more better and clearly? then when you watch television it would look better, more crazier, and more wilder..... then when you listen to music the music just sounds better.... like if your listening to joe cocker or gary allen or whoever the fuck it is you like to listen to... when it would come to listening to elevator music..... it just sounds a lot better... then everything just seems really fucking weird. instead of feeling that you are drunk like i am right now and i'm not lying. because of what i'm talking about is full standard proof that kendra is fucked up.

now what the fuck was i talking about before the fucked up part interrupted me?

ok now i totally remember dudes and dudette. instead of feeling like your drunk... it would make feel as if you smoked some fucking pot or whatever... when you are drunk but not stoned... do you people understand what the fuck i'm talking about? if you people do then you'll get a golden sea horse for christmass or hey maybe even right fucking now... just look outside of your window *snaps my fingers*

LOOK MOM AND DAD people have seahorse outside of there window....

parents go "gee thats great daughter"

ok despite from my drunken idotic speech....HAHAHAHA that made me laugh... i can't believe you people would sit here and give your time and day to listen to me. but since you people do that i feel loved.

i'm such a light weight which is why i'm cheap if you were to go out on a date with me... 3 or 4 beers would just about do it for me.... before you would know i'll end up peeing on top of a mens urinal and stealing waitresses money.... since that what happened last time i went out.... hehehe having a few beeers and a red headed slut drink... that is what made me do all that....

that was the first time i've ever fuckin stolen anything... not proud of it but i know not to do that again and i was fun, wild, crazy, silly drunk...

ok i'm pretty wasted hahahahahahahahahahahaha

this is soo fucking funny... i'm talking out of my ass all drunken and you people are listening to me.. hahahah that is funny but don't take that to be offensive...

i wouldn't hurt anybody but myself.............. not even if that person is a total fucking dick head despite how much i hate them... violence is not what kendra is about............................................. i'm glad i'm not like that...

anyway night to all of you cute and fuzzy, wuzzy, and cuddly loving people..........

love ya and naughty night...

kendra has left the darkforum building to hit the hey sack.....

then let me tell you what will happen when i wake up... i'll be all like thinking to myself "hey did i wright anything fucking stupid in my journal or any where else and not even know it?" then i'll go and check.. usually i always say something and then when my guess is correct i'm all "fuck kendra what the hell were you thinking?"

I was thinking that you were drunk or sumpin...

no i was drunk.... i had a couple of beers and don't know how many shots of JD... i was aware of everything still that i did from last night. so when i go back and read up on it i'm going to laugh my ass off about it....