grrrr my chest hurts....Like when you breath in, its like your breathing in really cold air, and like a knife is going into your chest.....

Ouch....................... Why is that happening?

i dunno...it just does every once in a while

That is weird. I wish I could be a scientist and a doctor at the sametime..... So I could find out why this cause Shelly to have this.

Wait am I in Shelly's journal or in my journal? ................. If I posted in your journal i'm sorry......

Well for right now i'm just sitting here. Kicking back and listening to music. I was sitting down on my carpet, and I had my guitar right next to me. Sang something that popped into my head at the time. So I pulled out a pen and paper and just started to write........... I'll figure out the chords on my guitar later on. The only thing that I need to focous on is what i'm writting, AND then i'll mess around on my guitar. Sometimes it sucks being a mucision. Because you get a song and have it stuck in your head for a while......... At first its going to drive you crazy once when you write it out on paper. Afterwards when you sing it, and use the cords to the song......... You are going to sit here and think this "Oh man my fucking music sucks! I'm not tallented....... Who is going to like my fucking crap anyway?" Then i'll crumble up the paper and toss it in the trash, and forget about it. I know i'm pretty hard on my self huh? Also I have alot of grammer in my writting.. That is another thing that pisses me off. All though I can't sing for shit and I don't have a voice at all. I would mind if someone were to sing the songs, which I happen to write. Just as long as I could play my guitar part, then that would be fine. I've been like this for three or four days now. On getting my self to write and figure out what kind of chords I want to use for the guitar and such. Weird how i'm starting to do this. I'm seriously not that great on my guitar, and i've only been playing on it for 9 years..... The reason why I say i'm not that great on it, is mainly because I don't pick up my guitar anymore to practise on it, or to even mess around on my guitar anymore. Also I still tell my self that I suck on it, and that I shouldn't even be playing on it. Well of course I should be that way.

Well in the morning i'm not so friendly. The time now is only 8:14AM. So i'm up and grumpy. What do I feel like right now? Um let me think here........................... I feel like killing, tourtering, while being a charmer, and a romantic, all at the sametime.....

Is it full moon yet?

~Giggles~

Um not yet. I still need alot of hours of time to fly by, for it to be a fool moon.

Aww hell and I wanted to dance naked under it.

We can use the sun.............. And still dance naked under it. But we have to go some place private, so that way no one can see.

Well I feel tired, sad, intence, lonley, lovable, being a charmer and a romantic at the sametime. Wish I had someone here for company. That would be nice. I want to love a person, just as long as they love me back. Cause if i'm not loved the same way, that is going to make me sad as all shit. That would kill my mood and then i'm back to being intence. Like how i'm intence right now. I'm listening to Prince "Under The Cherry Moon...." A very relaxing tune. Also it is very nice and cold in my room. My room feels like a refridgerator, and I have my black hoodie jackit on. So i'm mainly freezing my ass off, while still having all of those emotions, which I told you all about. But I want to be cold instead being hot. I'd choose cold weather instead of hot weather any day. Cold weather puts ShyShy in wonderfull moods. Which is why I seem to like winter alot. You'll see ShyShy the way you would never see her before.

~Drinks my Dr. coke and sticks my tounge out. Moving it up and down.~

Then closes my eyes while feeling intence..................

Oh yeah baby!

interesting.....

Hahaha thank you.

your welcome..

How are you doing?

True.

that could be fun.

today is a good day. slight rain showers and not too cold