muuuushy. Lyrics, yes? You should have your songs online so we can all hear ;em the way they ought to be.

a lot of things that should be are not. c'est la vie.

thanks for reading.

i don't write mushy stuff, either.

Okay well, maybe that was the wrong adjective.

inspiring thoughts:

i'm in love with my reflection but i don't know who i see
"i'll see you in another life when we're cats" - from "Vanilla Sky"
it could be worse.. i could be in love
there are three simple steps to learning the two-step
everything you want is right to the left of you
a game is simply an event where happiness is at stake
heaven has more marbles to play with
why am i alone when i know the one i love?

And here I was expecting to see something pertaining to anal sex. On a kick this evening are ya?

song lyrics:

If Only... (Taksu)

just one more try
to find what i felt, was lost
inside
our souls shed light
fractions of a wish
i wear this white shirt
to deflect their eyes
reflect my skies

i dream in blue
you know the truth
don't be afraid
i'm the only one here
dreaming in blue

i fill this space
but it's not enough to converse
with empty air
so resolved with a new tongue
i'm enamored with the parts of you
that even you don't know
i'm never really gone
you can always find me

i dream in blue
you know the truth
don't be afraid
i'm the only one here
dreaming in blue
i dream in blue

a flurry of emotions got me this..

i found you on the floor
tears upon the door
i picked you up and said
maybe if we went out
share a little laugh
leave your pocketbook

everytime i stop
you pick a little flower
dazzle up my life
while i'm counting up my luck
you stop my hand, tell me just to trust

string us like marionettes
and i'll let you in
just for a little while
you caught me blinking moonlight
i asked you if you knew the way
you said even hollow hearts know their way
but my steps feel slow

even roses wilt away
someday
it's new

Rune Divine / Guided by God

heaven, such a sentimental place
i'm the fool, who believes
heaven, crashing cars down below
i'm the fool, who believes

i'm empty arms
desperate
betrayed
i'm the fool, who believes
who believes

heaven, it's a beautiful day
i'm still waiting for the rain
heaven, it's a beautiful day
i'm just a man in your game

i'm up in arms
famished
forgotten
i'm the fool, who believes
who believes

rune, divine
rune, divine
divine

carry pictures across the sea
marriage rings inside the trees
little hearts, fond memory
still i find myself alone
love just seeps out from my bones
love just seeps out from my bones

dreams, out of reach
pillow talk, in your sleep
how far, must we crawl
for some ease
the rivers flow thru the deep

wish upon a silver waning moon
for a chance, for a change
life just seems to slip away
i should dream for you and me

sing, for the soft
darkened mines, scratching schemes
pleading shale, sacred guide
god grows in glowing souls

wish upon a silver waning moon
for a chance, for a change
life just seems to slip away
i should dream for you and me

the consequence to never change is never quite a vain realization to a pure soul. nameless i shall become. faceless i shall become. i shall invade your dreams. i am the nightmare in reins. a cross borne to your heart. to justice and the last kiss of agony that you will ever taste. the pounding bass beat with coupling behemoth rhythms of a kettle drum.

i am the desireless one. i carry faith in nothing for nothing has released me from it's own illusion. in the ways i feel, is this real love?

i have discovered the softness of a suede brown. alone with it's caress. remember the feel of my thin skin..

inspiring cafe wall and flag tribute:

source: www.burningman.com

impotence (just a ramble)

why do i love you?
why do you love me?
do you still..........
was it good enough to break you?
in this fall from grace, we will meet again, in another time
another place
deep down
in the meanest, coldest time to be
when you love
when you need
when you hold
angel
you're like barbed wire
our kingdom could fall and you'd desert
and i'd just love you to notice how devoted i am
to destroy myself, to appease your heaven
i'll take my revenge
as you stalk my shadow
i know who you are
i forgive you still
hey you
was it good enough to break you
apart
you know.....
i'm the one
you're the heart
the blood of my impotence spills like cold desire
have you held your own bet
or spread your wet dreams to dark strangers....?

hey you
i'll love you forever
just know
in this fall from grace
i'll die alone
in another time
alone
unafraid
you
you
you
you
you
you
you
you
you
desire
fuck you

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Radio plays my soul
I've sang these songs so alone
So long
To fill a meaning
No more reasons
To tell your love

Quartz upon a shore
Lift up on the hills of a dying sun
Patience waits on passenger wings
My tears of hope
My faith in you
I play your dreams
I am waiting
Inside your doubts
Tear me out

Let me out
Of your love
Just let me out
Of your love
You loved me then
Love me now

thoughts:

mirror

what was said thru electronic lines could never be the truth.
perception is key and logic was always the base of all things true.
but logic is flawed when the heart sings aloud.
so, i listened to my heart and my heart told me a secret:
you cannot fool a heart but the heart may be controlled by the mind. the mind is in control but the heart is the one that knows. and yet, the heart is the greatest of all deceivers. irony licks her lips.
take fair warning that i am indeed wiser and more intelligent than you. i am.
but i am weaker than you. i am. but you are not strong. you are a fool.
and i am the willing martyr; no more.
what is desire but to be controlled will. what is relative truth but to be controlled lockets and fragments of information bent on selfish gain.
you are a thief.
i am a memory but i still touch my cheek.
i am the fool.
i am more. what change is amiss?...
love to love. the sun still shines.

keyboards, electronic drum beats, synthetic effects, one guitar and one microphone:

Nova Sun

forget me not
i'm not so afraid
to kiss the clutter of your heart
anywhere i am
you're stealing parts of my soul
while i build the fires up
immolate desires up for shame
the kingdoms crumble down
the speed of blinding breaths
a broken bell chimes

in the presence of you lies half the truth

i'm the setting sun
i took apart the dream
the wish is getting old
perfume passions pass

surely you knew your cause
the wax and the wane
persevere the clocks and stains
seven days to choose the risk of feather falling skies

forget me not
caught up in a haze
your every word is cold and cruel
deal your curses out
the blush of your scars shed light
arouse the suspicions
and take advantage of my faith
dawn the breaking waves
the tides are up for change
love again like once before

as i take a second glance at my jagged pain

i'm the rising sun
spiraled out to stray
the arrows find their mark
full bloom roses wilt away

and now it's your turn
to play your solitary cards
your truth remains untold
alley ways betray the intent of my blessed soul

i'm a nova sun
blinking in and out of sight
the truth can't stay obscured
i just wanted you

song lyrics - a more formalist approach contrary to my otherwise cryptic style.

composed with guitar, bass, drums, keyboard, piano, viola and cello.

On A Storm (Dormant)

a cool breeze cuts a warm thought
you sweep a locket of your hair
was this moment real
or did i just imagine it so

oh, cruel desire
my hands, withdrawn
i can't let go of what i've never held

i'm wishing on a storm, wishing on a storm
to wash away all this pain
i'm waiting on a storm, waiting on a storm
to wash away all this pain

there's no reason in holding faith
we are all free souls
you've not been abandoned child
you've always been on your own

oh, cruel desire
my hands, withdrawn
i can't let go of what i've never held

i'm wishing on a storm, wishing on a storm
to wash away all this pain
i'm waiting on a storm, waiting on a storm
to wash away all this pain

and the world still turns
i bear witness to an eclipse
the sun seeks solace
and the world still turns
and turns

i'm wishing on a storm, wishing on a storm
to wash away all this pain
i'm waiting on a storm, waiting on a storm
to wash away all this pain

note: i would appreciate strong criticism on this particular piece.

poem - intended to be formulated into a song (therefore, these are lyrics), but it should be read as a poem.

The Endless Nile

i'm thinking, something new
i'm feeling, something old
i'm breathing, something new.

we built a temple to our love
just to watch it crumble down
alone, i built it up again
then it really disappeared.

there's no reason to pretend that we'll be here again,
all things change
but the moon is here to stay
oh, silver mystery
to bask in your light,
i sought my shelter in your heart
my mind foretold a vision,
where we dreamt upon the endless Nile
a shore we begged to cross
a dream forever lost.

close your eyes my love and sleep
i pray that sleep will find me, too
tonight, tonight
we walk the endless Nile.

this reminds me of "schism" by Tool...

um...i dunno man, it um...i just didn't feel it...um, it doesn't seem very poetic to me, it seems like you're forcing some kind of theme, or some deep message, while i'm just completely baffled as to what, and quite honestly, not very interested....

there's really nothing to grab me (my interest)...the real "poetic" part of this piece doesn't start until the third stanza, which is too little too late, and not very unique or interesting as it is...

and then, there's that last stanza that's all "lovey dovey..." which is just, bleh

all in all, not your best...

peace man

i feel the same way about it too, although the "blegh" starts from the very start. the idea was to write some sort of "story" (but not prose) and integrate that into song format. with what i have written (musically) so far, it seems to flow, but then i got bored with how it was progressing... blah blah..

sc-ahh-rap!

(thanks for the critique)