Most of my friends are across the net in far distant places . . . I have only two close fiends here where I live, but one has his own problems to deal with at the moment and the other doesn't understand most of the time what I'm going through at this time. And with my family, with the emotional side, they're indifferent . . . they believe a bit of money or something material will solve the problem.

Sometimes I wish I could hit some over the head with a bit of understanding, because I see sometimes that others bring their "deamon of fear" to the table without realizing how I feel about a situation. Haven't understood, haven't asked questions, haven't listened and colour the whole situation with their own instant perception of it. (grrrr)Wish they'd take the time sometimes to find out more.

well that is like me hun and i don't have any kind of friends once so ever in person. the only kind of friends i have are the one that are from here. i also don't like people and i'm pretty much an angry person. well what is it that you want people to understand?

To understand where I am at with my experiences. Most times they will just go ahead and "presume" something about what I'm going through without asking questions and get the whole situation wrong. I can sit and say I know the situation in detail, know quite well how everything connects, all the reasons of why etc, have an indepth understanding of a situation. Others will colour everything with their own perceptions, their fears and their experiences without trying to take another view . . . it's annoying and frustrating. And when they see me in pain, emotionally, they straight away assume someone has hurt me and go about saying things about that other person . . . grrr, which is most of the time not true anyway and it just upsets me and I usually will defend the situation/person or just say nothing because I know they won't understand no matter what I say.

Most times, I'm in pain because of lack of understanding and support. I know the situation I've walked into. An experience, sometimes it doesn't work out but I do all that I can and it just is . . . I can still feel loss and sadness about something . . . and I'd rather work through any pain I have rather than trying to hide or mask it . . . others don't understand this sometimes either.