This is a poem I wrote for my girlfriend after we had broken up. This girl I love more than anything or anyone.
(She and I are back together now)
We've known eachother and been going out for about 2 years now. Its a long distance relationship and its hard for both of us since we live so far away from one another.
But this poem is the result of alot of hurt and sadness I felt after she decided we needed to break up. Which last month she told me that she wanted to because she was scared of being loved.

Read with an open mind.

Its entitled, "Im Falling Apart"

Baby,

Im falling apart,
My heart has been torn
Burnt to ashes

Crying for love lost,
I loved you, and love you still, but at what cost?
I gave you my heart, mind, body, and soul
Is the past forgotten?

No strength left within
A hollow shell remains
My only saving grace...
You kneeling before me,
And wiping the tears from my face

Never again shall I feel pain
Scars from worry for my loved one
From a jagged plastic shard...
Should I end it now?
Or will my action be in vain?

You said "Baby, im horny"...
My dick hardens as your pussy gets wet
Orgasmic ecstasy, to you I gave my virginity
Because you cared, were special to me, and you make me horny
You cummed as I came inside of you...
I held your hand as our bodies shivered
Colapsing exhausted, "hold me close" you said
I held you close, carressing my lovers breasts
I whispered "I love you" as I layed against you
Take my hand, I need you
To hold you, to feel you

I loved you tenderly, because you are my girl
A close embrace... the tears streaming down your face
I held you in my arms as you cried...
Horrible tragedies that consumed you
Gentle hand, wiping the tears away
Im here to take away the pain
My darling, I love you

Always and forever, you'll always be in my heart
Even as the earth consumes my body,
In my heart you shall remain...
Love everlasting
You'll never be forgotten

Do you remember?
All the times you wanted to end it?
I was there to protect you
I wouldnt allow it, I couldnt!
You said id get over it..
And I replied "NO! I WOULDNT!"
A million daggers to the heart,
The pain I would feel if you died...
If your heart stopped beating,
Id slit my wrists and die just to be with you on the other side
I would give my life for you, without a second thought
No question in my mind...

You lied to me and I forgave you,
The truth found in your affection
I loved you too much to leave you

My body longs for your touch,
Baby I miss you soo much!
Do you miss me too?
Or am I purposely misplaced?
As my heart beats it becons to you
Id be with you until the end
To hold you again, to feel your warmth
And hear your hearts rythym,
Speaking poetry to mine
You are the most beautiful girl I've ever known or seen, inside and out

Long walks in the park, rotting fruit hits a goose
Watch the sunset dissapear on the horizon
You accidently wet your pants,
I tried to clean them with my bare hands
Soiled clothes in a bag

Memories, never wasted
Your juices hath I tasted

Actions, misunderstood
Unforgiven?

The last night, "we have to talk"
Words from your mouth...
On the bed you lay unable to speak at first
As I packed my belongings
You told me how you felt...
Holding back the tears
I let you speak your mind,
With a puzzled look upon my face

I still struggle to understand...
You said you felt nothing for me now,
That we werent meant to be
Overwhelming emotions bringing me to my knees
You sat on the bed beside me,
Unable to say anything
A moment of dead silence
I colapsed onto the bed

You layed beside me,
And said "I love you"
The tears began to flow, not just because I had to go
But for things that may never be
You then held me close and comforted me
But couldnt prevent my heart from breaking,
Large shards of it causing the pain deep inside
We made love and slept together that night even still...
Unknowing of what tomorrow would bring

There was silence in the car as we traveled
To my final destination
Your hand in mine, but upon your face I could not look
It hurt too bad, I couldnt bear it
When we arrived I tried to be strong
You were there, that was holding me together
For when it was time to leave you, I would fall apart
Embracing as we sat, the clock was ticking
My broken heart was beating faster as the time aproached
Had your love for me truthfuly run out?
A million questions crashed through my mind
The note you wrote me, and placed in my hand
"read it later" you said...

Ten minutes after ten 'o' clock
The time has come, for me to go,
And for our last display of affection
But as soon as I walked to the checkpoint,
And you dissapeared...
That same moment I wondered,
Had our love faded just as fast?
I boarded the plane and felt a part of me start to die
Where the rest would surely follow suit
Asking myself what I had done wrong,
As I opened up your note 17'000 miles up in the sky
My eyes taking in everything, as I tried not to cry
"I'll always love you" forever cemented in my mind
I covered my face so that others would not see,
The tears running down my face

When I arrived back home, I felt lost and sad
I had a piece of me missing,
The key to my heart
Which I know, is buried deep inside of you
I cried and cried, still to this day
Dreaming of you at night, and thinking about you all day
Reality crushing my spirit as I awoke
You werent laying beside me,
It was just a sick cosmic joke
The dreams turned into nightmares
Because it was you my heart needed

Everything Ive done since, reminded me of you
As I took my first shower at home since I left,
The water was quickly replaced with tears
I dried off and went upstairs to cry
My eyes searched for you, but you were nowhere to be found
Unable to eat, unable to sleep
I could not go on,
Without your love, my life has no meaning
Your friendship means alot to me, but its just not the same

I love you more than you'll ever know, or be able to comprehend
My heart pleads for another chance...
Just one more kiss, a warm embrace, to hold you once again
I need you now as I cry...
As I finish this poem,
To let you know how I feel
That I need you and cannot survive,
Without you

Baby I love you...

Yours,

Always & Forever