I feel the darkness come over me, an old friend from a distant past. Its like a cold breath on your neck, or the slight whisper in your ear. You almost welcome the calm and peace that it brings, as the cold settles over you, through you. Not until you feel more like a shell than your self do you start to breath again. Your eyes close the visions of loved ones, friends, and family fade. The warm thoughts of standing my a river, sharing a first kiss, and the fire from nights of passion, fight to stay in your heart and mind. Your heart slows as the chill fills your body, and slowly but surly fills your mind. You open your eyes to a new feeling of an old comfort, as the warm fades and the fire dies. The only thing left that was you, that's still warm is the tips of your fingers, recalling a phantom memory of running your fingers through soft golden hair. The darkness has no remorse for even phantoms, your hands clench your knuckles whiten. The darkness owns you now, visions induced by jealousy and neglect fill your mind. All sense of reason fades, the darkness whispers in your ear, "She never cared." Ghostly echoes fill your mind. In the mirror even your face changes, twists and bends, it morphs to show you why she never cared. The darkness no longer whispers but shouts in your ears, the ravaged remains of a human voice rips through your skull, " SHE NEVER CARED, YOU WHERE USED, YOUR NOTHING MORE THAN A PLAYTHING!" The voice becomes many, you feel your power grow, but the darkness takes more and more control. Its screams come with visions, dark figures in the shadows, to faint to make out for longer than a second. You sit down, everything's cold now, the darkness shows you that pain is what you truly feel, it slides a blade across your arm. The crimson flowing from your arm give a spark of a memory of the hair band she left, and the smell that still lingers from it. The darkness again screams a near demonic shriek now coming from every direction, a sound that nearly takes you to your knees, "YOUR WEAK, YOU ARE NOTHING WITHOUT ME, YOU WILL NEVER BE FREE OF ME!" You get dressed and head out into the world, you go to the river, to the place of the first kiss. Your heart slowed now the only thing you feel is anger, the memory brings only pain. An avalanche of memories of every event with her buries you, twisted memories, warped by the darkness in your heart. The darkness toys with you, mimics her voice, lets you warm to the sight of her just to freeze over and twist the image into an abomination of her beauty, her smell turns rancid. You return home, everything's dark. The darkness gives its self form, a ghostly vision of her. Your mind is so torn by the twisted memories you pay no attention to time. Days fade and become weeks, you no longer require food, water or sleep, only the darkness that surrounds you. You feel your self drifting away, your eyes once a window to your joy, your love, are nothing more than glazed mirrors to the horrors of the darkness. People come into your dark labyrinth that was once a place for living, you stare through them as there words bounce off you. Without blinking you turn back to the comfort of your shadow, you cant remember the last time you even blinked, nothing but a blank stare millions of miles away. Theirs nothing you can do now, the darkness as consumed every part of you, and as you fade into the eternal darkness you let out your last breath, and say "Good-bye my love."

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Look at me. What do you see? Do you see my love, my heart, my passion, do you see my soul? Or do you see my hate, my fear, my pain, do you see my soul? Or do you see what I allow you to see?
Dont Blink!!!