my eyes full of lies
my corpse full of flies,
there is nothing left of my life,
and all i need to do is die,

i need to walk away,
from your overpowering pain,
why are haunting my life,
just go away and leave me here to rot,

i can't take it anymore,
i have to stab myself some more,
please go your own seperate way
cause you won't like what comes my way,

death is near,
and fear is in my eyes,
darkness fills my head,
because now i'm dead,

lifeless sorry to say,
can't come back to this hurtful place,
refuse to,
cause i don't want to be abused,

go your own seperate way,
then you will live another day,
can't help you anymore,
cause i'm dead miss lamour,

piss on my grave if you wish,
just don't miss,
my eyes watch you from above,
my darling dove,

what will happen when i'm gone,
will you follow me into the depths of hell,
or will you take flight to the heavens above,
or will you stay on this hurtful world,

no one knows what will happen after i'm gone,
but remember i'm still with you forever,

feelings are confused,
emotions that i can't use,
i want to tell her,
but i don't know how,

i just want to be left alone,
so that i can face my soul,
why are you here,
what you no fear me,

well death is coming near,
and angels are running away,
i'm on the edge,
so don't push me,

there nothing that i can do,
except stand and look like a fool,
all there is, is space,
for the unholy place,

theres a demon that has an unfriendly face,
hes here to kill, and he doesn't hesitate,
so go and leave me alone,
so that i can face my soul

face my soul,
face my soul,
and now i'm alone,
and there is nothing left to lose,

so now i'm going to lose,
whats left of my life,
wait there is nothing left to lose,
BANG....................................

slowly i wait,
load the gun,
one by one,
slowly into the gun,

click............
click............
click............
BANG.............

silence fills the room,
no one around to here my cries,
whats left but to die,

you weren't around,
so you decide to drag my body on the ground,
can't you see what you have done to me,
all you have done is play mind games with me,

and now i die and lie in my shame,
of own filth and guilt,
nothing left,
can't except, what i am,

so no i'll die,
there is nothing i can do,
to prove to you that i love you
time can only tell,

been to long, got to move on,
so that i can be strong,
so have faith,
for what i do,

Hmmm.... I don't know wether to say good job or call the local Mental Ward. Good Job hun.


*are you gonna be ok bud?*

Hey bud,

look I know things get rough, but you will get through it. You did it when you lost me, and you can do it again. Don't bitch about it, just do it.

it is my fault,
for a lot of things,
that i can explain,
but pain only comes my way,

should i just walk away,
and forget my problems,
or should i stay,
and let the pain get to my brain,

i don't know what to do,
i'm just lost and confused,
what's the use,
i'm only going to get abused,

kicked around,
thrown to the ground,
and watch you laugh at me,
like i was nothing,

its been to long to be strong,
so long for i am gone,
can't fool me,
i know that you don't like me,

what i should of done,
is just leave and i'll be gone,
leave you with the pain,
that you can't excape from,

why have you forsaken me
in your eyes, forsaken me,
there is nothing i can do,
to stop this,

well here i go,
down the long road of dispare,
and leave you with disgrace,
on your precious face.......

hee hee it's gone!

How do you manage to piss me off so much?

whats left of us,
there is nothing left,
i ended it cause your not the same,
but i have now gone insane,

now can i jump from a plane,
you fucked up idiot,
there won't be nothing left,
once i fall to my death,

whisper into my ear,
and show me that you care,
wait you don't,
but you won't cause that is the way you are,

can't wait,
i got to paint,
a life that isn't mine,
but a life of yours,