I cut
I bleed
Blood is what I need
What I cut I feel freed
My anger is released
My pain has deceased
Its getting late,
i have let out some of my hate
I'm tired, i think i'll go to bed.
There's too much pressure on my head.
I sleep and dream about that day
Couldn't there have been another way?
As the sun begins to rise,
I pray
that today will be better
better than yesterday.


Damnit dad! Look at what you made me do!
See this blood dripping from my wrists?
Well, this is from you.
From the time you didn't understand me,
like you never do.
From the time you made me scream and yell at you.
Damnit dad! Look at what you've done!
Look at the scars and see what you've begun.
You left me dad
Why do you have to be so mean?
Why can't you just accept me for me?
I know I'm not the daughter you want me to be.
But guess what dad?
You're stuck with me.
Damnit dad! Why don't you just leave!
I dont want you here anymore.
All you do is make me cut!
Dont you see what you're doing to me?
Don't you have any idea?
Of course not.
And you will never know.
Do you want to know why?
I'll tell you.
Wait...no i wont.
You don't deserve to know.


I feel it again
that familiar feeling
my eyes start to fill with water
I feel the sting
I feel the warm blood on my wrists
then , i feel a single tear
starting to merge out of my eye
as it slowly rolls down my cheek
i think about what i've done.
the satly tear reaches my lips
and i think about what i've become
i hate this feeling
this feeling of sadness and pain.


I wish my life was a dream
In dreams you cant feel pain
in dreams you dont have to deal with this twisted world.
I wish life was like it is when i sleep.
when you're sleeping
you dont have to think about reality
you are calm and sane
you cant hurt yourself when you're sleeping.


What the hell are you doing?
Why are you doing this to yourself?
are you crazy?
doesn't that hurt?
dont you realize you're going to have to wear long sleeves for the next week?
I look at myself in the mirror,
pick of my knife
and with each cut, the questioning starts again.


If only these walls of my room could talk.
What would they say?
Would they tell about that girl with brown hair crying herself to sleep?
Would they tell about that girl with the sad brown eyes
that cuts herself every night?
or maybe they would tell about the time when the girl with the light brown skin kicked a hole in it out of anger.
or how they have seen her change.
the happy little girl that use to dance inside their walls
is now searching her closet every morning to find a long shirt to hide what she did last night.
if only my walls could talk.


Walk with me
follow me
I'll give you a coat when you're cold
I'll give you food when you're hungry
I'll be your shelter when you're homeless
I'll pick you up when you fall down
You were lost in darkness
but knew where the light was
you thought there was a better way to deal with your pain
you had to learn the hard way
this is a test, don't you see?
I love you
I dont want you to hurt anymore
come with me
believe in me
put the knife away
close your eyes and pray
put your anger and sadness on me
i'll talk them and cast them away.


Crying all alone in the corner
Blood red tears soak my face
No one?s here for me anymore
No one cares
I slice open my skin once again.
This is for the pain you caused me
I thought you would always be here for me
I thought you would always care
But you rejected me
And you left me all alone
With no one here to comfort me
Now I hate you for it
Crying all alone in the corner
In a field of razors
By myself


The pain is more than I can bear
It is overwhelming my whole body
I can barley think straight anymore
It hurts too much to think
Abominable thoughts cloud my mind
Unspeakable actions haunt me
I just can?t stand this anymore
I can?t stand the pain, the pressure, the stress
I can?t even stand to breathe anymore



Walking silently down the hall
The only noise is of her own breathing
Everyone else is in class like she should be
But she can?t take it anymore
She has to do it
She walks quietly into the bathroom
Carefully checking every stall to make sure no one is there
To make sure no one is there to find out about her secret
Her dark secret.
As she softly closes the door?
She reaches in her pocket to find it?
Pulls out her knife.
The knife that is always in her pocket
For she does not feel complete when it isn?t there.
With one slice?everything seems to pause.
All the problems, the stress, the hurt.
Tears start to merge in her eyes?but she tries to stop herself
She knows when she goes back to class, they will see.
They will see her face and know something is wrong.
They will know she has been crying, so she tries to stop herself.
It seems impossible.
She just wishes they could understand, what?s going on inside of her head.
She feels broken on the inside.
Like some part of her has just died.
She wipes away the tears, and washes the blood off her hands
It?s time to go back to class.
Time to put back on that fake mask.
The mask people want to see.
The face where she?s always happy.
She feels so alone inside?even though she is surrounded by people at all times.
She quietly opens the door and merges out into the hall, with her head hanging low.


There are no words that can appease my pain
Stop trying to make me feel better
Just leave me the fuck alone
You have no right to calm me down
You were never around
Stop telling me I need help
I?m fine.
I?m alive.
See me bleed.


Would you even care if I died?
I thought we had something special
But I was definitely wrong.
I thought you actually cared about me and my feelings
But now I know the truth. You don?t. you never did.
Do you have any idea how much you hurt me?
I don?t think you do.
You don?t know the pain you?re causing me
The pain knowing that you meant everything to me
Yet I meant nothing to you
I was nothing more than you?re play toy.
To fuck with, and fuck over.
I thought you cared.
I thought you were different
But now I know better.
You?re just like all the rest.

I like them. They express the deepest emotions, that are hard to fit words to. Good work my friend, and welcome to Darkness. I hope to see more of your poetry soon. (Check out mine is you want. ) See yea around!




DEMON

That's very sad.

I really like your work-very emotional.

Conveys feelings quite well.

Good work.


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