Into Forever

I am drifting and collapsing. Dark clouds are growing and manipulating. Windows open in the smoke. Faces peel open in the dark. I can hear them shaking away the fear. Can feel the hearts beating. Intricate bleeding labyrinthes pushing their way through the ground. There was a time when I could still feel the pounding. Now it's all the same to me. Dead static blurs a white force field around me. I am electric I am dreaming of you. Everything is falling. You spin away from me. Our love is hidden in a puzzle. The guardian rewinds it at the morgue. I can hear the chattering of ugly bones. Car crash victims laughing at my living body.

Can't hold the steering wheel. This place is too big for me to control. Too many monsters in my brains. Can feel the skull cracking. What happened to...don't tell me I...can't seem to recall. What is it that what was it I said.
Ghost shadows in locked wooden houses. Deep in the forrest I can hear your voice again. It pulls me in and I can dream again. It comes in cycles. I use to understand but now I can't even stand the thought of it. I have become my own exit. The doors are glowing. All the people and places. All the things I knew from the start. They are with me here forever.

I'm pushing a never ending wave. It's rendered me incapable and insane. Paralyzed I watch them hunting. Scraping down they all start running. I want to join them but I fear I'd kill them all. And I'm so sick of playing the games. Speeding towards a blur of something. It becomes a storming sky. I can't wait to fall through the floor. Down into the clouds where it is nice and electrifying. The operator without a voice. A place I can call home again. The void will breath in me and it will stop. Welcome to the horror show step in and show your broken soul. Give in to the disease it will breathe in and stop. If only for a second or two. Please don't start it please don't start it please don't start it again.


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Friend of the Flies

I woke up in a darkened room.
My eyes were open and I felt so blind.
I felt so blind. I felt so blind.
I was invisible and there was nothing I could do.
Echoes drowning in the distance in my mind. All the time in my mind.

A red beast came for me with open arms.
It spoke to me with backwards lies.
My shotgun dreams promised me from harm.
Dentist records needed for the friend of the flies.

Beyond the blankets of flesh and oceans of blood,
I can see the truth in your memories.
Lost in a secret place next to you. I'm in hell with nothing to do.

Without a shadow to follow me
I seem to be a distant memory.
But i'm here you see and i'm still me.
I can't breathe but I can dream.
I can't leave but now I can see.
And although you can't hear me all I can do is scream.
All I can do is scream. All I can do is scream.


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Stay or Go Away

stay or go away today or another day

I feel a cold rushing over me
i've never felt this cold before
It's like i'm dying but i'm breathing
i'm frozen straight to the core

i wish the cold would go away

I didn't want this but i have this
never want to let it go
It's breaking and it's hurting
my life's become a horror show

i repeat it every single day

it was so simple so thoughtless
all of my life made sense
i took for granted everything
you think about me less and less

how much longer will you stay

everything else is failing
my dreams and hopes are cracking
my world's become a sick joke
but nobody's laughing nobody's laughing

it doesn't matter what i say

i've seen it so many times
i never thought it would be me
pushed it back beneathe behind
but now i'm starting to believe

even though i'm still afraid

i put a number in my head
of reasons not to be dead
the other number in my head
is growing and it's wanting red

how long can i pretend it's ok



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Time is Taking


time is descending taking its time with me
i'm sending myself away i'm pretending
that i'm awake i'm descending
with time imbedding
in me it's infecting
i'm descending
down times disease its manifesting
its changing me
i'm descending
with time and time is taking me
time is shaping me
its changing me
i'm desending into time
all my life was a joke
all this time has been revoked
i am alive but i'm not seeing
i am alive but i'm not breathing
its time thats taken my life
its time i've shaken this disease
have to remove this killing machine
i have to sooth this death in me
in shattered mirrors i can see
beneath and without faith i can't believe
all that is real all that i feel is what's unknown to me
all thats hidden deep inside of me

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trickery in baby flesh


(this one was inspired by some works by hr giger)


blossoming white clean meat exposing
in shining gleaming all encompassing designs.
soft slow dance like bodies back and forth
thru eyes like mirrors no world so peculiar
as to want to swallow you whole only to regurgitate you
thru giant pores like mawls like lips
speaking backwards incantations
to take the clouds in like smoke
the fire in the oceans comes rushing forth
forming faces of the future
collapsing giants catacalysmic nothing so awful
so many dead and no place to hide
never ending strangers seeking truth
in the most grotesque styles.
All time ticks till after the hope drills
into psycho laughter.
No god no plate of warm flesh
and no fresh blood for any of you.
open black box folds out perfect
see the figures manipulate
in symmetrical contraptions
connected to the razor structures
no eyes too tight to see this night
the nocturnal flapping creatures
with one eye and giant claws
watching children hungry thru the window
still like a picture horror movie turn back the page
terrified rewind the tape stop close the mind
shutter at the touch so cold disease with a brain
watching you always watching you
thru several distinct hidden places
quiet whispers secrets you don't understand
inhuman sidelong glances bulging gaping sharpened
with the sound of a million clocks ticking in a babies skull
cracking under the pressure of wild machinery
ancient power sudden bursts of energy
a vast array of blood clots exploding
a scarlet abstract landscape sucking back together
a strange world now forever lost in baby flesh
made vast as the ocean in this sick place eternally

The madness that you speak of


white eels in black water rise
faces staring so cold
strange thoughts explode
a sudden sickness so old
backwards screeches into darkness
a flickering red
columns of fire sucking back
the feautres of a million dead
a timeless collection where flesh is clay
in hands stinking of death
the crawling bodies covered in filth
with wide eyes and insects
traps made of bone
with vast creatures sewn inside
whispering forever
black marble floors with scratches
from butcher knive hands severed
returning madness sweeps thru all directions
into boxes shipped to the other side
cracks in the surface spread apart
revealing skeletons screaming
black fluid evil pulses into pipes like veins
growing outwards weaving
moderated monsters turn inside out
to fit the shape of human skulls
decapitated victims stuck thru stakes
dropped into the holes
we feel so red like blood and burning
hot in demon eyes to see you die
we want you dead and churning
into blades of pain don't ask us why


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looping

looping
Broken taken stripped and screaming
the Quiet portal stems into me
blinking dreaming not quite thinking
Deeper echoes hide a stranger me.

i move i'm not moving
i speak i'm not speaking into
everything is looping
everything is creaking
i want to but i never will

i feel i'm not feeling
i'm listening i'm not listening to you
nothing is healing
nothing is finishing
everything is standing still


locked in place the black is seeping
am i just paranoid am i just paranoid
Drowning closing slowly repeating never releasing
i see the distant void.


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BLOT LINE

BONES
COLLAPSE
FORGET
RELAPSE
DROWN
DOWNWARDS
FORCED
INFLICTIONS
SPECK
ACROSS
VIVID
SCREENS
OF LIFE
DRAINING
AWAY
ALL COLOR
AND LIFE
ERASING IT
ALL AWAY

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White Lights and Black Eyes

precious and Crushed always open and glowing sometimes knowing never showing that it will get in come rushing and screaming cutting down and breathing shaking and twitching like a secret animal staring always hidden between the flesh making such a bloody mess can't seem to get this noise out of my head maybe if i was .. just want to get back to that place white lights and black eyes so many memories i can see them on the floor spinning figures levitate backwards bleeding seeping down i feel the cold lifting i am a god watching never caring letting fingers dig deeper in the distance planets fall down if i had one bullet i'd make it count back from ten i find the courage and let it out



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Quiet Shadows Vaporize

skeletal objects broken and rotting
seeping and clotting
some are so precious
others are restless
all watching you
never felt so scared never felt so paralyzed
watching this parade
and my mind closes down a vast asylum
all machinery grinding and scraping
the metal doors come down
in flesh in the sky
in my brains i can see the fear
what i use to be comes creeping back
a growing atrocity taking out my veins
surgically implanting them beneathe these walls
i try to scream and scream just so i can seem
seem to be alive so i scream and seem to be alive
tentacles and childrens faces lifting curtains
black liquid fills these small rooms and i can't move
the operators shift the gears
manipulating my hopes and fears
rotate my pain to the next living contraption
not quite finished but it will work for me


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What's Happening To Me?

Slowly creeping and so carefully revealing what's on the other side.
The places I can't find burning down within my mind.
Abandoned structures my salvation in this fantastic desperation.
What if I never felt those brittle bones snapping inside?
All those people staring at my bodies seperation.
In a broken mirror I watch in horror and I wonder why.
My flesh a wild construct shifting in that cold train station.
What's happening to me? I can't breathe as hard as I try.
Is this just an hallucination? What if it's just my imagination??
What's happening to me???

Dead Hands

Suck in Push out Bring down Shove up Suck down Rip out Take in
Lost contortions forced hallucinations
meant to scare you please don't cry
Deep seeping stares peeling back box fold 2 times
Guardians looming in invisible walls so white and complicated
Push up Suck out Rip down Take out Shove in Bring down
I told you for the last time
I told you the...last time
Everything you say Everything you do
Every single day i'm talking to you
Suck down Push in Bring out Take down Shove out Rip up
Make it go away

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Hidden & Opening Secret Desires

Slipping unconscious
ferocious
derranged
and constantly folding in
remembering secrets
All those precious situations
Never forget
words that infect
Take back the armor plating
The taste will repeat
so sick and sweet
Wild cards mesmerize
retract magicians swords bloodied
A winding puzzle with your face
ripped apart and reattached
The sound of your voice playing backwards
on an ancient record player
I can almost see your eyes
In time i'll learn to hide it all away
Only a blurred out washed out memory
With two hands pushing me down
I'll find a path to push and make it out

ROT WITH ME

FEEL ME
I can make myself warm, can sometimes move an arm, my blood clots so thick.
WATCH ME
I move like shadows, turn me inside out and you might see something sick.
TASTE ME
I'm as sweet as funeral candy, all my insides melt inside your mouth.
GIVE ME
We can be so happy inside my narrow wooden house.
TAKE ME
I can seem so alive, I can turn back time, I can even pretend to breath.
LET ME
I will take you down into the ground with me into the dark where the red worms feast.
HELP ME
I need someone else, I can't stand it down there all by myself.
GIVE ME
All I want is another blanket of flesh, I just need someone else.
KISS ME
Please don't scream there's monsters down here and we've got no place to go.
SEE ME
I grow skeletal, I lose my flesh & rot. Holding you tight we disintigrate so slow.

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Translucent, Burning and Coming For You


We dream like we’re lightning bright white and fire blue.
Maybe we're frying, maybe were really burning inside.
We scream like we’re dying, so sick of trying to be like you.
So bright and frightening, can see things burning outside.
Can see things fighting to get in, it's all seeping thru.
Please don't move it's tightening and getting deeper inside.
We seem like we’re lying but were telling you the truth.
No time for running and hiding, there's more waiting outside.
Can almost see it thru the artificial lighting, but there's nothing to see into.
It looks like it's dining, it's locking itself further inside.
We can see it hiding, we can see it breathing in you.
Pretend you’re dying, maybe it will go back outside.
Don't bother crying, there's nothing you can do.

i only read a few of your poems....thats enough to tell that u definitly have some talent there......beautifuls words....hope to see more

Why thank you.

Ghost Lightning Memory

Deep windows keep me falling in. A hidden message is scratched underneath.
Shadows dance strangely across the walls. Can still see frozen objects locked in mid air. What does it take to get them down. What do I have to do to get out of this town.
Keep me coming down. Keep me hanging out. Watch me letting go. See me breathing out.
Watch it all come crashing apart.
The frozen ghosts exhale a force field around you. I try to get through and am electrified. My veins fill with serpents and memories. They burst at the seems and make me fall.
The clocks play back, my lungs collapse, my ribcage snaps.
I stand up and scream. I'm lightning and I'm burning bright.
The mirrors shatter, I fake a smile and turn around to look at you.
I close my eyes when I see that it's too late.