My Book Of Nightmares
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Red ocean waves from within crash on my brain
White foam showers my mind
Ghosts in dreams drown in shadows
Roses, blood, ...
Pandora's box sits still on my lap
Red ocean waves from within crash on my brain
White foam showers my mind
Ghosts in dreams drown in shadows
Roses, blood, love, fear, claws, and kisses scar my mind
Pages filled with empty ink
Hollow emotions stalk
The horizon shrinks into the ball of pen
Memories dive into a blue and black sea
Words yield to no doubt
Thoughts walk through any mind's wall
My soul splashes onto the white canvas
The voices of me rattle the rusted golden gates of Heaven
And I let them soar
From within the pages of my book of nightmares
Make me feel like a beggar
Make me feel like a thief
Make me feel like a battle
That cannot end in peace
Make me feel like running
As if I lost my nerve
Make me feel like crying
Tears I don't deserve
Please bleed
So I know that you are real
So I know that you can feel
The damage that you've done
Oh, to myself, I am numb, I am numb, I am numb
Is this really living
Sometimes it's hard to tell
Or is this just a kind of gentler hell
Turn out the lights
Let me stare into your soul
I was born and bled for you to hold
Please Bleed...
Never said thank you
Never said please
Never gave reasons to believe
So as it stands, I remain on my knees
Good lovers make great enemies
Please Bleed
wandering stars....for whom it is preserved...the blackness, the darkness...forever
Tombs of dead, blankness in the mind
Conclude to what, this I hide
Burial in ground, shed the skin
Shed the rotten clothes to end
Taken by what, light the fire
Taken by the last of the hour
Bloody rise under twisted metal
Satanic phase, on the black level
Right or wrong, who would care?
Until I die it doesn't matter
Brain drowned in thoughtlessness
Solemnly dead in hopelessness
Create another soul to take my place
Only my fading memory will remain
Are you forgiven for creating this?
Are my words to you meaningless?
Look at me, what do you see?
Endless sorrow I tend to bring
Stare ahead, don't be ashamed
Look silently into the flame
wandering stars....for whom it is preserved...the blackness, the darkness...forever
Trapped in frustration
Wishing for sedation
Hurts to look, hurts to see
Ugly world leave me be
Cluttered mind, broken thoughts
Line'em up, slam the shots
Numb your soul and the heart shall follow
Whole or in pieces, I am what life will swallow
Perfection expected, never to sin
Lose my mind, now and then
Would it help to breakdown, would it help to just cry
I just need to go, I just want to fly
Overwhelming confusion bleeds me dead
Needing diffusion, need nothing said
Don't know what I'm doing, don't know where I'm going
What if I'm wrong, and time is anything but slowing
Friends around, at a distant I keep
Not too close, not too deep
Many mean well and some mean so much more
But what does it matter when your soul's on loan at the second-hand store
It's like no one understands if you can't feel
No one "gets it" if you can't love
Now I'm a problem for the solving and
everyone wonders what the fuck I'm thinking of
I become the patient the world wants to heal
Diagnosed ill when nothing is everything I feel
There will come a day when I break free
Till then behind the walls I shall be
Recovery is a must in a world that never stops turning
Determination is a blessing within the fire that never stops burning
Strong without, strong within
Focused now, I begin again
Summoned strength, my will becomes steel
My life in balance, welded to an even keel
Unfamiliar faces all around me here
I close my eyes and pretend of no fear
They want you on your knees, they want you broken
They mean to silence your soul and leave you unspoken
They become the workings of someone else's plan
They are the storm and inside it you must stand
They are the demons that lurk inside your head
They are the voices that refuse to be unsaid
Suspended by strings, that they can not see
Given a face, that they can not be
Look at the puppets, the voodoo dolls,
Destroying at will, not my walls
wandering stars....for whom it is preserved...the blackness, the darkness...forever
Come see the masses,
Worship the atomic bomb.
Mutated children in a chior,
Singing their earie song.
Sigils inscribed in blood,
Runes carved in people's heads.
Necromantic priests,
Gather armies of the dead.
Insight the Diabolus,
Satan sitting on God's throne.
Diabolus Sanctus,
Upon a piller of human bones.
The lamb is torn by the beast,
Racked on a cross of thorns.
People come gather around,
As the Anti-Christ is born.
Angels fall from the sky,
Heaven ablaze falling to earth.
Evil souls scream and wail,
Watch your world slowly burn.
The land is torn assunder,
Lightning strikes the ground.
The once proud symbol of God,
Hanging black and upside down.
The world begins to rumble,
Blood moon in a polluted sky.
The sun begins to melt,
Blighted world in crimson light.
The four riders ride,
Contagion begins to spread.
Corpses line city walls,
So strong the stench of the dead.
There's no hope left for man,
He's raped the world of it's life.
Forever enthrulled in slavery,
Now God cannot hear man's cries.
Come see man's greatest creation,
A worldwide hecatomb.
You've carved your name in stone,
Now there's nothing you can do.
wandering stars....for whom it is preserved...the blackness, the darkness...forever