I can't remember what you look like
your face has been lost in the wind
Along with my wish's that it wasn't true
That you'd come out of the closet
and hold me close.
Tell me to stop crying everything will
be alright.
All I can hear is your voice in my ears
saying that you couldn't take life anymore
And not to worry,It'd be over soon
your girlfriend was there,then she left
hasn't talked to me since
I can't remember why you didn't wait
another two minutes.
I called you then,no one was home
and I had to find you.
Dead in the basement,you,my best friend
dead on the floor.Your hazel eyes closed.
A gun in your hand and blood on the floor
and maybe that's why I remember your face
all pale and sunken in.
Or your hair all matted with blood
So I suppose your eyes and your voice
are the only things that are left untainted
in my mind.



I think about your face
How i fell into your eyes
You brought me into your life
Then pushed me out
Theres no time to ask why
I just want to runaway
I can't change the past inside
Somethings you can't erase
I need to get away...




Always

I have some friends
who are hurting real bad
over someone they lost
someone they had
I know it hurts
Because it's hard to part
But you know
They'll always be in your heart




How badly did he need the drinks?
Those drinks that took his pain away
How badly did he need the pills?
Those pills that led his mind astray

He will give you his mind
He will give you his heart
With his body and soul he'll just as easily part
But the necessary evils
that take over his life
For those necessary evils
he'll deal with any strife

It all started with a drink
It happened so fast,he had no time to think
he got so wasted he could hardly see
and that was when he got his first tasted of herion.

After that he couldn't live without the thrill
It came easily by making a call
later he found the great simplicity
That shooting up the drug's could be
The needle's soon became the center of his world
Then a new obsession entered his life
It controlled his mind,made him reach for the knife
But as the cut's grew deeper
The odds against him grew steeper
So when the suicidal fantasies danced in his head
He made the final cut and fell to the floor dead.


THIS CHILD

This child that will be forgotten
as the world turns...
That shall have
no love,no light
to look forward to...
That can exist
Though no one will care...
Whose precious word's
Will be wasted sentiments
on all those
But himself...
and who lost
the voice of
his soul
To the mindless workings
of the world...
Is I...
He with two names
and no past...





Losing a friend

No one said losing a best friend could be so hard
I remember all the fun times we had
even the times we where caught being bad
But those times also made me glad
Glad that you where my best friend
you once said that you would be there until the end
It has been the end for you
So now what do I do?
What we had is embedded into my heart
I didn't think that we could ever part
But I know you are in a better place
But I want you to know I will never forget your face
Or the way you used to sing to me when I was sad
I will never forget you.

I liked them, I hope you post more, you seem very intelligent.

A wild painful outpour

Unknown,a pure blast
knocked you out,mind of
pout.A wild outpour
unknown,A flood of black
Water dense and packed
washing over your shores.
Exploding and igniting grains
of sand.Burning,chasing,catching
and placing molecules of dark
Heat is glowing,glass is flowing
Life is slowing.Hawk is crowing
A wild drainful in flow,known
a pure grasp,knocked you in,
found you out,A final grasp
Found you out

My last will and testimony (to whom it may concern)

you kicked me till i screamed
then you kicked me for screaming
you couldn't see my dreams
but i kept dreaming
you suppressed me at home
and you oppressed me at school
and when i made an expression
i became the class fool

I had no popularity
I never learned to drive
you told me i was weak
and that i would not survive
but if you take a close look
deep into my eyes
you'll know that i have seen through
all your bullshit and your lies

FDR said all their was to fear
was fear itself
does this mean i must live now
with my brain upon a shelf?
i know now not to scream
when you kicked me in the head
because from start to finish
i shall live until am dead.


dying inside


something so hard
goes straight to the soul
it seems impossible to get over
and my heart is left with a big hole

I'm trying to be happy,wearing a smile
but I'm dying inside
the world seems to be fading
and i want to run and hide

everywhere i go i see your face
and i realize how much i miss you
and on the day you left
a piece of me died.



In a place deep down inside
i knew i couldn't stay and hide
so many things i had gone through
my life would've ended if it wasn't for you
if i never even knew your name
I know for a fact,my life wouldn't ever be the same
with so many things left undone
you ought to be glad i don't own a gun
cause with a quick pull of the trigger I'd be dead
with a single blow to the side of my head
with each new day starting at dawn
a new fear is about to spawn
why me or you or her
why where are lives made so unsure
if only i known ahead
i could not lie here,stiff and dead
in a puddle of blood
thinking was i ever really loved?
did she care?did she lie?
why do we all wanna die?
but not me, not just yet
i have things still left to do and get
pointless yes,dull indeed
but you try when your only 19
you can tell me what you want
but when am finally determined,thats all that will really count
but because life itself is faded and torn
you think that you had half to just leave and get it through
but when you find out someone's in love with you
what will they think?will they cry?
or will they also want to die?
why did all those bad things half to take place?
thats the question i have to face
when i"m gone what will you do?
remember its my life not your's thats done and through



is there anybody there to see me smiling when am dying?
don't you understand my pain



chasing the sunlight


and i find light in the love from your eyes
and i find hope in the tears we cry
for now we cannot let them fall anymore
in the light of day we can sigh
the twilight embrace our souls uproar,
through the woods will run
where natures love and caress is sweet
in solitude we find each other
i trace your warmth
your treasure my strength
in these days we share tomorrow watching dawn
exiled you once were,and exiled i"am now
in the barest part of you existance
because i sank so deep,so deep to find you
i stare at your the untouchable one
i wanted to touch you,to hold you...
but life turns the away forever...



never good enough

i awe i finally see,that you don't want me
if i tried to become what you want me to be
maybe then you would've wanted me,but i could never be
i could turn into a different guy each night for you
i could never be "HOT" or "FINE" because iam ugly
i cant be completely emotionless and voiceless for your convienience
i refuse to beg to you for your smallest shred of affection
i cannot be "COOL" or like "THE SHIT"
i cannot dress nice or care about how i look
although this is what you seek, I am meek
i could never be with you, cruel and cold destroying,lying,slaving you
i could never be good enough for you,its through
don't you see after i sifted through,all of you,its through
which I'll find you,the one who will heal me,love me,truly
i await thee my true love,soon,soon i will see you before me,
soon...



as i have no regrets
as i have no hope
for my cowardice peeks
as i look at you
as my soul is touched
as i admire from afar
as my soul is touched
as i lok at you
as my fear is at its worse
as i have no words to say
as i look at you
as you stand and approach
as you talk to me
as i cower in fear as far as i can
as i look at you
as you gaze at me
as you wait for a response
the blank in my mind
as i look at you
as i gaze in at beauty
as i watch awestruck
as you turn away
as you walk away
i cannot overcome
the cowardice
as i have no words to say...

So..I'll do with any room.I plan on hanging chains made
of steel that end's in large hook's from the walls,ceiling and floor
and streching leather between them,in tension. The leather may or may
not be painted to look like human... Essay's or poem's on hate
Rage,Precison, and vision will be included in some fashion...
The chain's will represent both dehumananization of the inner-city
soul and it's perfect, dangerous answer, A soul becoming faze represented
by razor-tipped hooks of steel. If my work is to inconsistant
with the other viewpoint's. It can be seperated by door's weighted shut or
The physical seperation of upstairs downstairs...


I can make a point...

Very original and creative and very well done!