Well, I thought I started a thread with my poetry in it but I guess I was wrong. Its not too advanced and great, but it's my release. Hope you guys like...

Down.. down the rabbit hole I go.
Where I will stop, no one knows.
You know how they talk about hitting rock bottom?
I guess this is how it goes.
My heart feels as if it is tumbling around in my body.
Every time I look in the mirror, I almost vomit at the sight of me.
I feel repulsive, grungy.
Because now I've finally noticed all the dirty needles and pipes around me.
This isn't how a teenager is supposed to be.
I hate these things going on in my head.
I feel clinicly insane,
I feel.... crazy.

The people around me make me not care whether I live or die.
If they don't know I exist, then why try.
Why should I cry?
Will it make me feel better if I drain out the tears like a murder victim's blood?
Well let me fill you in on something that you may not know.
You can't cry when you feel as numb as I do.
I have cried so much already,
So I feel as if all my emotions are spilled out onto the floor.
There can't be any more.

You may be wondering why these words are being written.
I tell you in confidence that if you repeat this you won't be forgiven.
I warn you my stories are not for the ones with fragile hearts.
The whole story lies deep beneath where all the memories start.
Sometimes it feels as if my whole life has been ripped apart.
It all begins because he simply doesnt love me back.
Then, I feel as if I'm not good enough, and that is when the demons attack.

I lay on this cold pavement hoping for just a speck of light to brighten the rest of my way.
But it doesnt matter what they say,
my soul has been ripped out.
It has been taken away.
Sounds around me fade as I slip into the darkness where his face is hiding,
and take this needle from my flesh.
When I get to a better place I will just be ready for what's ahead of me.
I wont worry about the rest.
The letter in my hand is more harder to hold on to,
and as I get weaker I realize this is for the best.

Mothers Addictions

You Are My Mother; My Protector.
At Least That Is What You Are Supposed To Be.
Before You Held Me; Shielding Me From The World Filled With So Much Corruption.
You Would Love Me Like A Parent Should Without Any Interruption.
Now You Are The Leading Cause Of This Life Of Disruption.
15 Years Later Here I Sit Crouched In A Corner.
I Now Think Back Missing The Times That You Were So Much Warmer.
But Even Back Then Things Werent The Way They Seemed.
Everytime Youd Mess Up You Would Expect To Be Redeemed.
Always Pulling The Cloth Over My Eyes And Hope That I Would Believe Your Pathetic Scheme.
I Have Realized That The Happiness You Portray Is Nothing But A Dream.
With My Head In My Hands I Can Hear Nothing But Your Screams.
Your Intoxicated Breath Does Nothing But Make Me Nautious.
With Each Word I Speak I Must Be Ever So Cautious.
Your Words Decay Me,
They're Always The Same.
Your So Unhappy,
And I'm The One To Blame.
You Were So Happy Until I Came.
Truth Is I Was Happy Until You Changed.
If It Isnt This Then It's Just Another Sick Addiction.
The Drugs; The Stress; You Cause So Much Infliction.
I Dont Need Proof Or Evidence.
I Have Made My Conviction.
The Thoughts Of Our Past Is Unshakable From The Mind.
I Dont Believe What People Say That Wounds Heal Over Time.
What You Have Done To My Childhood Is An Unforgettable Crime.
I Will Now Shake Your Words Of Hatred From E And Get Far Away.
Please Dont Think You Can Sit There And Beg Me To Stay.
I Am Going Away For What I Hope Is To Be Forever.
Dont Think That Back Here Is Where I Will Later Stray.
From Now On I Want You To Think About Why I Am Leaving You,
My Mother And Old Friend.
I Know That You Will Be Feeling Alone And Sorry Altogether In The End.

Very original and creative and very well done!

Missing you

Since you've left,
you have been in my thoughts.
You need to know that you are my first love,
And my last.
You are my future,
And you are my past.
There isn't a thing I wouldn't do for you.
I don't think you will ever know how much you have made my dreams come true.
You are the best thing that has ever happened to me.
Keith, you have opened my heart.
I am finally experiencing what I wanted to find.
There's an unconditional love that exists in my body, soul, and mind.
I will give you all the love I have to give.
You have been my will to live.
You are an amazing person,
and without you I don't know where I'd be.
Having you in my life
completes and fulfills every part of me.
I love you today
I'll love you tomorrow
I'll love you forever
Our love is one of sweet embraces,
And tender sighs.
Our love is one of passion,
And where ecstasy knows no end.
I love that shuddering nerve-tingling feeling.
And the wondrous joy when I discovered that I had surrendered to you.
For the rest of my life,
I want to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck,
The warmth of your lips on my cheek,
The touch of your fingers on my skin,
And the feel of your heart beating with mine.
I know I could never find this feeling with anyone other than you.
You are my life.
I am so lucky that I am able to be your wife.

thank you.. i will posting my poems as much as possible.. i have a whole book so maybe in time i will get them on here.

Sometimes there are just things that need to be released. When you write them out.. they really don't make sense to anyone but yourself. I wrote this when Keith and I were having problems.



The passion will never die
This feeling won't fade
It is deep in me
Happiness and love
But why are the memories seeming so far away

Try to understand the changes
Try to understand
Cry out
Please get me
Tears pour out
Words are supposed to help
They don't

No more blame
Listen and try to be open minded
For the sake of each other
Dont hold back and tear down the walls
Let yourself be deeply in love

Or
Will I turn black inside
Or will the worries just disappear
Mind cant stop
Keep it all locked up
Throw away the key
No expression
No weakness
Poison your soul

Cant recognize myself
Not anymore
What is the issue

Scared
Wanting to stay true to myself
What happened to this
My fault
It is

Hardest part
Realizing it
What matters though
Is the actions
To make things better
Or worse

In the end
Is there any compromise
Can each side take the negative
and make it positive

Dont give up on it
My walls are down
Wanting
To just be
How it was

Very emotional; i can't dive that deep into me or let myself go like that. keep it up.