I am drifting and collapsing. Dark clouds are growing and manipulating. Windows open in the smoke. Faces peel open in the dark. I can hear them shaking away the fear. Can feel the hearts beating. Intricate bleeding labyrinthes pushing their way through the ground. There was a time when I could still feel the pounding. Now it's all the same to me. Dead static blurs a white force field around me. I am electric I am dreaming of you. Everything is falling. You spin away from me. Our love is hidden in a puzzle. The guardian rewinds it at the morgue. I can hear the chattering of ugly bones. Car crash victims laughing at my living body.

Can't hold the steering wheel. This place is too big for me to control. Too many monsters in my brains. Can feel the skull cracking. What happened to...don't tell me I...can't seem to recall. What is it that what was it I said.
Ghost shadows in locked wooden houses. Deep in the forrest I can hear your voice again. It pulls me in and I can dream again. It comes in cycles. I use to understand but now I can't even stand the thought of it. I have become my own exit. The doors are glowing. All the people and places. All the things I knew from the start. They are with me here forever.

I'm pushing a never ending wave. It's rendered me incapable and insane. Paralyzed I watch them hunting. Scraping down they all start running. I want to join them but I fear I'd kill them all. And I'm so sick of playing the games. Speeding towards a blur of something. It becomes a storming sky. I can't wait to fall through the floor. Down into the clouds where it is nice and electrifying. The operator without a voice. A place I can call home again. The void will breath in me and it will stop. Welcome to the horror show step in and show your broken soul. Give in to the disease it will breathe in and stop. If only for a second or two. Please don't start it please don't start it please don't start it again.

ha. two views. I'm so popular.

It takes awhile for ppl to reconize new works...dont worry. I like your stuff so far, the way you have so many thoughts to compose..keep posting

Touched me deep, can't say that I feel to many peoples words around here on a personal level... only a bare few, and now you... nice words... painted a picture so familiar.

These cut to the bone:

thank you for sharing them, please continue. Don't take it to heart that you only get so many views, or so many comments. It happens to the best of us... as in society, even in this, a place that claims to be so 'dark', some are still outcast...

like you came here to be popular. outcast among (self-proclaimed) outcasts, enigma to the misunderstood, it is a high honour you hold.

if my head weren't rent in two pieces and staining my aesthetic beige (ugh) carpet a jarring shade of (the square root of jasmine) i'd be more clever, and probably toss something back at you, like

you amaze me and make me want to kill myself because i'll never be as beautifully ugly as you

or

i want to take your sickening words to bed and make little fucked-up pain babies so you'll feel obligated to take care of them for at least eighteen years and in this way i'll be assured that you'll continue to suffer for my viewing pleasure

but that might be disturbing, and there's the whole headache thing, so maybe next time.

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well all your words are appreciated. I never came here expecting many clicks. A couple is fine with me. The prospect of impending doom is getting the better of me. I drempt the world was coming to an end. The sun was going supernova and we were all watching the last final moments as the sky became a beautiful fire. I woke up terrfied. I haven't had a nightmare so vivid in a long time.

Winterwings.... We have words that fit back and forth like some bizarre jigsaw puzzle. We can wish for drones and watch the sky come crashing down. Always dreaming of a stranger tomarrow.

I do so enjoy your writing... please share more doll...