Hey well I know i havent posted in a while but this poem should explain why!Please excuse the grammar mistakes its late!

I UNDERSTAND

I never quite understood how
people could be so ignorant to
over look thier many options and
rely on self-mutilation as an
escape from thier problems.How
could life be so miserable to the
point of depression and suicidal
thoughts.

That was until I experienced the
inner darkness which lies in us all.
I suffered with the pain,felt the
loneliness,faced the horror of feeling
pathetic as if i were a misfit.I too woke
up each morning dreading to live
another day.Praying to end this misery
someway somehow.

I turned into the same type of person
who I onced look down on in disgrace.
I found myself running to the comfort of
the blade when anger enraged my mind.
I confided in the blade like it was a key
to my secret happiness.

I have traveled the wrong path and now
my vision is becoming more clear and less
blurry.I see the path ahead of me.i see its
unpaved road.I know I must turn back from
this mistake of mine.A struggle is required
for me if I intend to make it on to the correct
path.I'm willing to travel the distance though
to experience the bliss and pleasures of life
that i have been missing out on.

I regret the journey down this road,but
with in the mist of my confusion and distraught
mind I leave with a gain.Now I can honestly
say I understand all of you out there like me
who look to the blade for copanionship.

very very good...i know how you feel...except i havent turned to the blade yet...and i hope i never do...im sorry you had to experience that dark side of life. i am like that on and off...i think im bi-polar. but...i hope to see more stuff from you youre very good.

slipknot61 thanx 4 your comment,and I hope u never have 2 experience what i have experienced it is a one of the scariest and most challenging problems i have ever had 2 deal with!Thanx again!

I think U have alot to express and U also have the heartfelt emotions to rely on. Already an excellent base to build on, I think at times U choose a few untimely words, which in effect slow the pace of the verses and their flow. Other occassions there seem to be one or two extra uneccessary words, which pause the smooth flow of Ure words, example;
"I too woke
up each morning dreading to live
another day.Praying to end this misery
someway somehow."
If U read those lines, they are just a tiny bit away from greatness, try them this way;
I too woke
up each morning dreading
to live another day
Praying to end this misery
someway someday

the flow is abit smoother, I think if U enjoy this U'll have a bright future as long as U're willing to work at it, and just keep on FEELING

See U Soon
Me

Thanx 4 the tips and compliments,they are both greatly appreciated!