Well, if I'm gonna write crap I should at least post it somewhere. These poems come from my heart (or lack there of). They were written with emotion and not intent to entertain. Therefore you can criticise and call them crap all you want, I don't give a damn
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The sun will rise
But I do not care
I have no use for light
For only in darkness
Can I hide from the world

My Pheonix Wings
They fill the sky
No dark things
To catch my eye
The flames of soul
They singe the veins
I'll reach my goal
Through all my banes
Spider's Kiss
A Kiss of death
They're things of bliss
To steal your breath
And now I lie
With Pheonix wings
My soul to by
New hope which brings
The end to pain

Nothing is real
I've lost it all
I cannot feel
My graceless fall

You call me heartless
No, I'm not
You do not know me
I am empty
That wicked vampire, life
It sucked me dry
Hope was drained
Love was lost
And now I share my emptiness
In this rhymless poem
A soul wronged wrongs
But only discriminately
You call me heartless
Maybe I am
I think it's still there though
A ghost of its former self
That immortal wraith still haunts me
I promised I would never love again
Sadly, that's a broken promise
I gave away my heart
As I gave away my soul
What soul?
You call me heartless
I suppose I am
I've forgotten how to cry
My spirit is shattered
Like so many broken dreams
And now my existence is meaningless
For I've become a heartless romantic

I can't see myself
Yet so many others do
I cannot trust the mirrors
I've been lied to before
I lost myself in that willow
But it wasn't really me
Now I've found my true self
Only to see it shot down
In its mistaken flight
Was it destroyed?
I cannot say
I will gather the pieces and begin again
As the pheonix rises from its ashes
So too shall I be reborn

The only thing I still believe in
Though it's so hard to find
One time I thought I'd found it
But it was a reflection of myself
And now I think I've found it again
But I am more weary now
I'll test the waters before the plunge
Protecting my heart until it's safe

Faith, Ha!
Faith is meaningless
When there's nothing to believe in

The fools laugh
I do not care
The fools cry
I do not care
The fools scream
I do not care
The fools die
I do not care

The pain inside
It swells
I dwells
In my heart
In my soul
My bottomless hole
Tears are shed
Life is bled
From the evils on my wrist

Ebb and flow
To and fro
Dig a hole
For my soul
Break the light
With your might
And lay me down to rest

The following was a suicide note from my last (most recent and final) attempt to kill myself. It's not a poem, neither is it well written. I just thought I'd put it here. Read if you dare.
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If I really am such a burden than I shall leave. Tell all of the family I love them and will miss them. If I were a Christian I'd say I'd see you later, but I'm not and I won't. Tell my friends what happend. This is the only way to stop it all. Don't bury. Burn me. I think it's more fitting. Give my stuff to the family. Also, read all of my journals. Then you'll see.

Forgive me
For all that I've done
I've broken the trust
I let my heart rust
Forgive me
For losing my calm
Cause I can't continue
With the anger in you
Forgive me
For missing my soul
forgetting to cry
And living a lie
Forgive me