Gemma...I'm sorry I've hurt you. I didn't want you to be, I hope you know that. You mean a lot to me. You've always been there for me, listened to me, talked to me, and be the greatest friend anyone could ever have. Please know that I am sorry and I don't want to lose you as a friend, My best friend.
Love, Devin

hunny, I know you didn't want to hurt me.. and in all honesty don't worry about it.. I actually agree with what you told Aaron about us being too good of friends.. I don't want you to think I am jelous or anything cuz I am not.. I just think you are making a mistake.. but its your life.. and you are still my bud, you always will be and that song wasn't directed at you.. it was directed at a lot of ppl

this song is significantly more mellow...

I know that I lost it
somewhere down the line
the need for you
to lead me when I'm blind
I know that I love you
nothing ever changed
but I'm chasin a feelin
that left me untamed

chasin, oh I'm chasin
I'm chasin a feelin
chasin, yeah chasin
I'm chasin a feelin
I need to be wild
I need to be free
but when you are gone
you still hold onto me


no one can match it
the love that we had
no one can touch it
and it makes me sad
I wish I could shake it
this feeling I know
I wish I could take it
but the chase won't let go

chasin, oh I'm chasin
I'm chasin a feelin
chasin, yeah chasin
I'm chasin a feelin
I need to be wild
I need to be free
but when you are gone
you still hold onto me

will I ever find a someone
I need as much as you
will I ever find a love
thats almost half of you
I wish I could settle down
stay with you forever
but the chase is callin
its now or never

chasin, oh I'm chasin
I have to chase someone
chasin, yeah chasin
but I'm chasin noone
I need to be wild
I need to be free
but when you are gone
you still hold onto me

(repeat and fade out)

I looove cali.. I wanna move here.. haha.. just thought I would share since no one loves me and writes on my thread.. haha jk

GEEEEMMMMMMAAAAA!!! I STEPPED IN SHIIIIITTTT!!!!
there i writed....i like your songs!!! i reads them!! i just don't reply alot....*i'm lazy* so is cali nice and warm??? you took our sunshine from here....BRING SOME BACK!!!!! plllleeeeaaassseee!!!!

it very hot here.. very inspirational too.. I started a song.. but its not done so I can't put it up yet :p ttyl

GUESS WHAT!! I GET TO KEEP MY DOG!!! YAY!!!!!

hey gemma!!!! write more music!!! i love it. we need to seriously start a band! ok. anyways ill talk to you in about a second ok...lol. l8rzzz

ok.. this isn't my best work but... the lowercase part is like kind of quiet and mellow with just a little guitar and then on the caps part there is lots of guitar and drums and stuff and its really loud and heavy. the chorus sounds off though.. any suggestions?

I feel down in my heart
I've failed you my friend
when you talk so much
about wanting the end
I can't stop the pain
I can't stop the rain
standing at your grave
I would contemplate my end
creating your grave
to me a death note you send

WHY WHY WHY CAN'T I FIX IT
WHY WHY WHY CAN'T I HELP IT
WHY WHY WHY ALL THE BLOOD
WHY WHY WHY DOES IT FLOOD
WHY WHY WHY ARE YOU ANGRY
WHY DOES YOUR PAIN EFFECT ME

please throw your pain on me
you always tell me how much stronger I could be
well my friend I was once where you are
if you want I can show you the scars
causing yourself so much more pain
the adrenaline is causing red stains
popping them back, like nothing is wrong
keep this up, and it won't be too long


WHY WHY WHY CAN'T I FIX IT
WHY WHY WHY CAN'T I HELP IT
WHY WHY WHY ALL THE BLOOD
WHY WHY WHY DOES IT FLOOD
WHY WHY WHY ARE YOU ANGRY
WHY DOES YOUR PAIN EFFECT ME

BRING IT ALL BACK
TAKE IT AWAY
WHY CAN'T I HELP YOU
PLEASE WILL YOU STAY
I WANT TO HELP YOU
TAKE ALL THE PAIN
ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS ASK
I'LL TAKE AWAY THE STRAIN
I KNOW ITS IMPOSSIBLE
BUT I'LL TRY ANYWAY
I KNOW ITS NOT MUCH HELP
BUT I'L TRY ALL THE SAME

(lots of loud guitar until it ends)

Hey Gemma.....um...this is Devin by the way.
I'm not an idiot!!! Be nice okay. I like the idea about burying Becky and listening to her suffocate. Let's do it. Anyway, sorry about being late the other night. I like your music but sometimes I get the feeling that it may be directed at me. I think that we should start a band. Seriously. :metalhead Yes!!! Last day that I am a Minor. 18 tomorrow. yea. Gotta go babe.
Love from the "Dumass" Devin.

my songs are directed at any strong emotion I have.. and right now you are the cause of my strong emotion.. yeah this one is kinda about you you just worry me kid... anyway.. I am gonna go.. see ya tomorrow

NELLY!!! Hey...wait a minute...that was when you had to give her up right? Well quess what....YOU DON'T HAVE TO GIVE HER UP!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!

nice gemma...like your new song. even though it is about our friend. it is very deep. explains a lot. anyways talk to u l8r!

-fuknutt-

Devin knows I love him.. so its ok

somebody needs to have a tragety so I can write a new song!! I need some emotion here people!!

post your songs gemma! i wanna read them!!!! ok. l8r.

-fuknutt-

the future is falling
down through the dark
no one can save me
pulled from the start

I'm falling deep inside
inside the hole I've dug
clawing its edges
help me fly up
I want nothing more
than to please you that much
I want so much more
deep down in my heart
I want something better
I want to fit the part

the future is falling
down through the dark
no one can save me
pulled from the start
the future is falling
down through the dark
no one can save me
pulled from the start

lift me up
lift me out
help me someone
pull me out
I'm falling and I know I am
must help myself
I know I can
I hold the answers
inside my hand
take me to
my promised land
take my future
off my hands


lift me up
lift me out
help me someone
pull me out

the future is falling
down through the dark
no one can save me
pulled from the start

lift me up
lift me out
help me someone
pull me out

AWESOME!!!ill lift you out gemma! haha, actually its not funny but anyways. keep writing, i love it. anyways talk to u later.

-fuknutt-

time is a precious thing
but its so easy to waste
I feel like I'm losing
this ongoing race
falling back
back in the line
I'm not even running
I've lost it this time

some say life is endless
some say its a start
but what good is life
if its broken your heart
if life is a story
I've lost all the pages
if life is a play
I can't find the stages

its all lost its sparkle
all of my joy
its lost all its marvel
I am just their toy
I need a crutch
someone to lean on
someone to tell me
that I will go on

but I stop all my whining
I keep it inside
because you need strength
I keep it inside
you are more worthy
to be held and cry
if I can't help you
your spirit will die
its all up to me now
no one else can
because I need you
I'll hold your hand
I've lost so much so far
in this place I call life
to lose something more
would cut like a knife
I need you to keep me
from falling behind
I need you to keep me
from losing the line
the race isn't over
until I am done
I might be in last place
but at least you have won

this song is dedicated to my little candles that keep a light burning for me I LUV MY BANDMATES!!! YOU INSPIRED ME!!!

in dedication to Devin and Aaron I present:

The Light Inside Me
(anthem of the Violent Gyners haha)

Holding back insanity
the darkness thats inside of me
you burn a fire inside to light me
but when you leave
the darkness finds me
take my hand
and walk with me
the light is there
through dark we see

you're the light inside me
you're the fire deep within
you hold back the voices
you keep me from the black

we're digging up our holes again
pullin out the hatchets we buried
questioning what feels right
taking back that lovin feelin
we can't find the rainows
all we see is the rain
we can't find the sunshine
all we see is a cloudy day

I'm the light inside you
you're the light inside me
silence the voices
hold back the darkness in me
I'm the light inside you
you're the light inside me
silence the voices
hold back the darkness in me

hold back teh darkness
hold back the night
hold back the pain
hold back the fright
divided we can't make it though this
together we can beat it all

I'm the light inside you
you're the light inside me
silence the voices
hold back the darkness in me
I'm the light inside you
you're the light inside me
silence the voices
hold back the darkness in me