...there's something haunting, depressing, numbing, and hurtful yet healing....

i love/hate the motherfuckers i connect too damn much with.....does music ever make you feel something like this?

these are the songs that seem to getting played A LOT on my computer on randon play that i love, but hurt too fucking much right now...the lyrics make me fucking cry all the damn time, but also smile....damn bi-polarness:

razed in black - come back to me
placebo - special needs
the crüxshadows - marilyn, my bitterness
type o negative - can't lose you
the cure - lost
evanescene - my immortal
hedwig and the angry inch - wicked little town
the postal service - the district sleeps alone tonight
prick - i apologize
raspsutina - wish you were here
scarling - creep
stabbing westward - what do i have to do?
vast - touched

what are some songs you connect too damn much with right now (lyrically)?

um, i used to be like that....when i was younger, more emotional, and an alcoholic.......i used to listen to Jack Off Jill's "vivica" and just baul my fuckin' eyes out........as did NIN's "something i can never have"; i never was a NIN fan, but the song...whoa! lemme tell ya......first time i heard that song was the first time my heart truly broke....i was at my girl, who i assumed was my girl since she fucked me 2 nights prior, and i was at her house with some other peeps and she was gettin' her groove on with another dude, so i did the same with another chick, but was very heartbroken, and that song came on, and i lost it......

but now, i'm all peachy-hunk-a-dorry and music don't do that to me no more......i just, where once their was all black clothes, jewelry, and boots; there's now shorts and colorful silk shirts and sandals.........somewhere i changed, and ain't so sad no more......but i still love to go RAWR!!!!!!

Placebo - "Summer's Gone"

'Never Again' by Nickelback

If you look at music just another form of energy, its not so hard to see why different styles have certain affects on people.

Dj Hooligan - Hear you now[GRand Chillas Mix]
StareCase - Faith

Lyrically, the last line in "Blood Roses", but musically "Ruby through the Looking Glass"; both (of course) by tori amos.

tori amos and placebo have a tendency to tug at you like that. i like'em both.

earshot-wait
placebo-every you, every me
U2-with or without you

baker baker (another song of tori's) used to really get me. there's another that I can't recall at the moment, though.... oh yeah. hey Jupiter.

Brian Molko is my hero......