Medicine......Guster

Into the maze
Enter the medicine handed down.
Within these veins
Bleeding with apathy till it drowns.

Am I your charity
For you to look so kind?
But your aim is not quite clear,
It’s better if you leave in quiet.

Is this mood frightening?
And who are you sometimes?
Don’t try and rescue me,
Go save someone else,
I’m far too gone.

Into the maze
Enter the medicine handed down.
Within these veins
Bleeding with apathy till it drowns.

No more to gain
Needing the ugliness that surrounds
Return again
Caught in the medicine handed down

Gasping, calling
I saw
I’m all alone
Grasping, crawling,
Is this not what you had planned?

Oh
I’m all alone.
Go on hero.
You’re faking no one, not today

Stop this you’re scaring me
Don’t even know you now
Trying to rescue me
Go save someone else
I’m way past gone.

Into the maze
Enter the medicine handed down
Within these veins
Bleeding with apathy till it drowns

No more to gain
Needing the ugliness that surrounds
Return again
Caught in the medicine handed down

Into the maze
Enter the medicine handed down
Within these veins
Bleeding with apathy till it drowns

Oh
I’m all alone.
Go on hero.
You’re faking no one, not today

A Stoke of Luck.....Garbage


Hanging by threads of palest silver
I could have stayed that way forever
Bad blood and ghosts wrapped tight around me
Nothing could ever seem to touch me

I lose what I love most
Did you know I was lost until you found me

A stroke of luck or a gift from god
The hate of fate or devil's claws
From below or saints above
You came to me
Here comes the cold again
I feel it closing in
It's falling down and
All around me falling

You say that you'll be there to catch me
Or will you only try to trap me
These are the rules I make
Our chains were meant to break
You'll never change me

Here comes the cold again
I feel it closing in
You're falling down and
All around me falling
Stroke of luck or a gift from god
Hand of fate or devil's claws
From below or saints above
You come to me now

Don't ask me why
Don't even try

A stroke of luck or a gift from god
The hand of fate or devil's claws
From below or saints above
You came to me
Here comes the cold again
I feel it closing in
It's falling down and
All around me falling

Falling

Torture....The Cure

I'm in the room without a light
The room without a view
I'm here for one more treacherous night
Another night with you
It tortures me to move my hands
To try to move at all
And pulled
My skin so tight it screams
And screams and screams
And pulls some more

Hanging like this
Like a vampire bat
Hanging like this
Hanging on your back
I'm helpless again

My body is cut and broken
It's shattered and sore
My body is cut wide open
I can't stand anymore
It tortures me to move my hands
To try to move at all
And pulled
My skin so tight screams
And screams and screams
And screams some more

Hanging like this
Like a vampire bat
Hanging like this hanging on your back
Oh it's torture
And I'm almost there
It's torture
But I'm almost there

It's torture
But I'm almost there
It's torture
But I'm almost there

Dedicated to someone out there in pain....

"Refugee" by Oi Va Voi

You ask me,
Why it is I come to you,
when someone else is just as good.
I asked them but they said the same,
Didn't even ask my name.

Explain to me
Just what it is you have to lose
Take a minute in my shoes
Don't it feel like you've paid your dues
already

I'll show you,
That all our fates are so entwined
don't lose your faith in humankind
Just don't forget my state of mind
is fragile.

Together,
we can enjoy the taste of dignity
As long as you believe in me
I'll show you my reality
I've seen a few.

You ask me,
Why it is I come to you,
when someone else is just as good.
I asked them but they said the same,
Didn't even ask my name.

Another refugee.

For myself...


Hora by Oi Va Voi

It's all about identity,
Construction of a family
Of difference and simile,
What I give you and you give me.

It's all about identity,
This tribal sense of dignity,
Of tolerance and unity,
Of prejudice and bigotry.

It's all about identity
A web of who we'd like to be,
Let's cut and paste our memory:
A dark and timeless industry.

It's all about identity
A strength and solidarity,
A dazed, confused desire to find
A place and time in history.

It's all about identity
Or how the sheer majority
Impose a predetermined badge
And wait to judge you silently.

It's all about identity,
A retrospective odyssey,
But where I live and who I meet
Are stronger in defining me.

For everyone....Happy Halloween

Siouxsie and the Banshees....Halloween

The night is still
and the frost it bites my face
I wear my silence like a mask
and murmur like a ghost
"Trick or Treat"
"Trick or Treat"
The bitter and the sweet

The carefree days
are distant now
I wear my memories like a shroud
I try to speak but words collapse
Echoing
"Trick or Treat"
"Trick or Treat"
The bitter and the sweet

I wander though your sadness
gazing at you with scorpion eyes
Halloween......Halloween

A sweet reminder
in the ice-blue nursery
of a childish murder
of hidden lustre
and she cries
"Trick or Treat"
"Trick or Treat"
The bitter and the sweet

I wander through your sadness
gazing at you with scorpion eyes
Halloween......Halloween

Another one for Halloween.....

Lullaby.....The Cure


On candystripe legs the spiderman comes
Softly through the shadow of the evening sun
Stealing past the windows of the blissfully dead
Looking for the victim shivering in bed
Searching out fear in the gathering gloom and
Suddenly
A movement in the corner of the room
And there is nothing I can do
When I realise with fright
That the spiderman is having me for dinner tonight

Quietly he laughs and shaking his head
Creeps closer now
Closer to the foot of the bed
And softer than shadow and quicker than flies
His arms are all around me and his tongue in my eyes
"Be still be calm be quiet now my precious boy
Don't struggle like that or I will only love you more
For it's much too late to get away or turn on the light
The spiderman is having you for dinner tonight"

And I feel like I'm being eaten
By a thousand million shivering furry holes
And I know that in the morning I will wake up
In the shivering cold

And the spiderman is always hungry...

for Dani ....

"The Outsider"

Help me if you can
It's just that this, this is not the way I'm wired
So could you please,

Help me understand why
You've given in to all these
Reckless dark desires

You're lying to yourself again
Suicidal imbecile
Think about it, put it on the faultline
What'll it take to get it through to you precious
Over this. Why do you wanna throw it away like this
Such a mess. I don't want to watch you.

Disconnect and self destruct one bullet at a time
What's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die

Medicated, drama queen, picture perfect, numb belligerence
Narcissistic, drama queen, craving fame and all its decadence

Lying through your teeth again
Suicidal imbecile
Think about it, put it on the fautline
What'll it take to get it through to you precious
Go with this, why do you wanna throw it away like this
Such a mess, I don't wanna watch you...

Disconnect and self destruct one bullet at a time
What's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die

They were right about you
They were right about you

Lying to my face again
Suicidal imbecile
Think about it put it on the fautline
What'll it take to get it through to you precious
Over this, why do you wanna throw it away like this
Such a mess, Coalesce, Coalesce

Disconnect and self destruct, one bullet at a time
What's your hurry, everyone will have his day to die
If you choose to pull the trigger, should your drama prove sincere,
Do it somewhere far away from here

This song Im gonna dedicate to my buddies Shawnie and Jan because they would probably say and do everything on the song...

Neden Game

VOICE OF HOST: LETS MEET CONTESTANT NUMBER ONE hes a skitzophranic serial killa klown who says women love his sexy smile lets see if his charm will work on Sharon Sharon, whats your question for Number 1?

Sharon: Number 1, i belive first impressions last forever if u were to eat dinner with me and my family, how would you make it last forever?

Number 1: hmm lets see well id have to think about it i might show up in a tux HA! but i doubt it id probably just show up naked like i always do and lick your mama in the eye and tell her FUCK YOU! hurry up bitch im hungry i smell spaghetti, i pinch her loopy ass and tell her get the food ready your dad would probably start trippin, and get me pissed, id have to walk up and bust him in the fuckin lips! its dinnertime! were hearin grace from your mother i pull a forty out and pour some for your little brother im steady starin at your sister, ill tell ya this, ya know for only 13 SHE GOT SOME BIG TITS! after that, your dad would try to jump again, but only this time id put the 40 to his chin after your mom dies the dishes and the silverware, id dry fuck her till i bust a nut in my underwear ~~~applause~~~

HOST: now lets meet contestant number 2 hes a psychopathic deranged crack head freak who works for the dark carnival he says women call him stretch nutz Sharon, lets hear your question... >

SHARON: i like a man whos not afraid to show his true emotion a man who expresses himself in his own special way number 2, if u were to fall in love with me, how would you show me that you care?

Number 2: first thing, i could never love you, you sound like a witchy bitch yo FUCK YOU!! but if i did, id probably show you that i care by takin all these other mutha fuckas outta here id go through your phone book, and whack em all, then find contestant number one and break his fuckin jaw (Number 1: WHAT!!??) anyone that looked at you would have to pay, id be blowin off nuggets all fuckin' day id grab your titties, and stretch em down past your waist, let em go and watch em both spring up in your face id sing love songs to ya the best i can get ya naked and hit it like a CAVE MAN!! we go to tha beach and walk through the sand i throw a little in your face and say im just playin as you spit it all out, i rub your back, and grab your underwear and WEDGE IT UP YOUR ASS CRACK!! ~~~laughter and applause~~~

HOST: well it sounds like contestant number 2 is just overflowing with sensitivity, Sharon its a tough choice so far, sharon lets have your last question to find out whos gonna have the rights to your neden

SHARON: ok, if we were at a dance club, and you both noticed me at the same time, tell me, how would you each get my attention and what would your pick up line be who ever's the smoothest wins!!

Number 1: first, id slide up the bar, and tell ya that i cant believe how fuckin fat you are id say i like the way you make your titties shake, and if you lost a little weight you'd look like Ricki Lake

Number 2: FUCK THAT!! youd be jackin me quick, id order you a drink , and stir it with my dick, and then to get your attention in a crowded place, id simply walk up and stick my nutz in your face

Number 1: yeah freak her with yo nutz yeah that'll get her

Number 2: TELL HER THAT SHES FAT, YEAH THAT'LL WORK EVEN BETTER

Number 1: look, fuck you, i got a strong rap shit you dont want contestant number two hes mad whack i walked in a barn, and there he was, standin up on a bucket Hooough tryin to fuck it it was big fuckin smelley ass farm llama

Number 2: DAMN DAWG!! how ya gonna diss your mama?? ~~~champagne popping and laughing~~~

awww....thats so sweet...



Painted On My Heart
The Cult


I thought you'd be out of my mind
And I'd finally found a way to
Learn to live without you
I thought it was just a matter of time
'Til I had a hundred reasons
Not to think about you
But it's just not so
And after all this time
And I still can't let go

I've still got your face
Painted on my heart
Scrawled upon my soul
Etched upon my memory, baby
And I've got your kiss
Still burning on my lips
The touch of my fingertips
Is love so deep inside of me, baby

I was trying everything that I can
To get my heart to forget you
But it just can't seem to
I guess it's just no use
In every part of me
Is still a part of you

And I've still got your face
Painted on my heart
Scrawled upon my soul
Etched upon my memory baby
And I've got your kiss
Still burning on my lips
The touch of my fingertips
Is love so deep inside of me

I've still got your face
Painted on my heart
Painted on my heart
Painted on my heart

Something in your eyes keeps haunting me
I'm trying to escape you
And I know there ain't no way to
To chase you from my mind

I've still got your face
Painted on my heart
Scrawled upon my soul
Etched upon my memory, baby
And I've got your kiss
Still burning on my lips
The touch of my fingertips
Is love so deep inside of me, baby

I've still got your face
Still got your face
Painted on my heart
Painted on my heart
Whoo!
Baby
C'mon, c'mon, c'mon, c'mon, baby
C'mon, c'mon, c'mon, baby
C'mon, c'mon, c'mon, c'mon, baby
On my heart
Whoo!
I still got your face painted on my heart
Painted, painted
I still got your face painted on my heart

Dedicated to those I've lost in my life...

Bruce Springsteen

Streets Of Philadelphia

I was bruised and battered, I couldn't tell what I felt.
I was unrecognizable to myself.
I saw my reflection in a window, I didn't know my own face.
Oh brother are you gonna leave me wastin' away
On the Streets of Philadelphia.

I walked the avenue, 'til my legs felt like stone,
I heard the voices of friends vanished and gone,
At night I could hear the blood in my veins,
Black and whispering as the rain,
On the Streets of Philadelphia.

Ain't no angel gonna greet me.
It's just you and I my friend.
My clothes don't fit me no more,
I walked a thousand miles
Just to slip this skin.

The night has fallen, I'm lyin' awake,
I can feel myself fading away,
So receive me brother with your faithless kiss,
Or will we leave each other alone like this
On the Streets of Philadelphia

"The Misinterpretation of Silence and Its Disasterous Consequences"
- Type O Negative





























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To mah buddy. Im totally in this whole thing where I think a song by The Wildhearts would be appropriate because I keep sending you a shitload. Had your fair share yet or are you going to go with my statement that Geordies are the best people you will ever meet? Just want you know that Im thinking of you budday! Not in a girlie way at all... More in a "Hmmm. I wonder how you are today" typa way, you know who you are so Im going to save the loco talk or at least most of it.. You take care today and Im glad to have a cool person such as yourself to talk to, EVEN IF EXCITEMENT MAKES US TALK LIKE SO! Have a great day babs.


In Lilly's Garden
by Wildhearts

Honesty will set you free
But individuality is wonderland
The greatest gift provided
Kept inside a case
No-one understands
Add animal instinct here

When all is settled and done
There’s just empathy chains
The crowd was second to none
But the memory remains

In Lilly’s garden
In Lilly’s garden

Some are small and some are smaller
Wise above their size but they’re all in here
But they’re all in here
They needed company, condition free and
Wanting me when I was near
And down beneath the ground, waters meet

In the confusion of friendship
They don’t let you down
To break the future in gently
They’re always around

In Lilly’s garden
In Lilly’s garden
In Lilly’s garden

Dedicated To... (enter your name here)

I Don't Care About You
---Guns N' Roses

I'm from South Philadelphia up on Avenue C.
I've seen empty hands that was waitin' to freeze up from the power at home.

I don't care about you,
Fuck you !
I don't care about you,
Fuck you !

I've seen Hollywood Boulevard
Welfare hotel
I spent the night in jail
In the Wilcox Hotel

I don't care about you,
Fuck you !
I don't care about you,
Fuck you !
I don't care about you,

I've seen an old man have a heart attack in Manhattan
Well he died while we just stood there lookin' at him
Ain't he cute ?

I don't care about you,
Fuck you !
I don't care about you,
Fuck you !
I don't care about you,

I seen mad rollin' drunks
I seen bodies in the street
I saw a man who was sleepin' in his own puke
And a man with no legs crawlin' down
Fifth Street tryin' just to get somethin' to eat.

I don't care about you,
Fuck you !
I don't care about you,
Fuck you !
I don't care about you,
Fuck you !
I don't care about you

Fuck you !