Similar in what ways?

Listen to this man, he knows what he's talking about. I've seen him do it.

and as for all of you that are saying stuff like "why are you coming here to fix this? we can't fix this for you!"

does it not help just to get all this shit off your chest in a public forum sometimes? i'm sure he expected backlash, and that's all well and fine. But telling someone their posting here is useless....well i mean, what's the internet for besides whining and making us laugh?

I expected backlash, and I'm fine with it. Even though I'm unstable, venting has been very good. This is the kind of shit I keep, and have long kept, bottled up inside.
Change. I'm thinking of admitting myself back into the psych ward. That may soun melodramatic, but when I was there before for the three days, it felt so refreshing due to it being such a huge change of scenery. The doctors wanted me to stay for a few weeks at least, but I had been desperate for some reason to get out. "It seems I've made a miraculous recovery" was what I said to them. I was in a complete trance.
I have to get out of my house. Away, from everything for a while. They called me and encouraged me to re-admit whenever I'm feeling...unwell.
I got nowhere else to go. 'Go to a friend's place', you might say. Don't have anyone close by. So...yeah.

If you feel that going back in for a few weeks will help you sort yourself out better, then by all means do it.. I hope it works for you.

Beyond that, the only advice that i might offer is this.
When you realise that you are experiencing those thoughts/actions, stop for awhile and think deeply on 'why' you are going there.. Find that part of yourself that leads you there and look for the reasons..


on a side note:
I have been watching this thread closely. And myself debating on wether or not to act on some of the posts made. Alas, some people just don't understand that the act of typing out your problems most often actually is benificial to the solving of a problem..
Remember that the next time you start a thread about something that involves yourself.

Yeah, like I said, I knew fairly well the risks of posting a thread like this. There are plenty of myspace groups and the like for stuff like this, too. It's been helpful just to get any reaction at all, let alone positive ones. Part of me was also curious to see if anyone else had similar stories.

As far as those DID psychotic episodes go, that's a whole other topic. One way too sensitive and awkward to talk about here. I probably took a gamble even mentioning that at all. But it feels good to share.

It's always nice to know you're not the 'only one' with a problem..

i believe it eases the fear a little...

It really does.