That's really sad and I feel as though I can relate to you in some way. I also suffer from night terrors though thats not to say that things are exactly like you because you seem to have some really nasty shit going on.

The reason I come to forums like this is in hopes of making friends that can understand because with baptist parents and a small Christian town there is no one here. The night terrors have gotten really bad and I have to take medication to sleep because I go through spells of insomnia. I don't really have any friends around to talk to because I'm bad at social interaction.

It may sound a little sick but I really like the sight of my own blood and I like to look at scars that are left behind even though I hide them well. I get anxiety attacks sometimes that drive me to cut a lot and I feel so alone here. The only real friend I had tried to kill herself and then distanced herself from me by ignoring me and never speaking to me.

I really just want people to talk to from time to time.

Welcome to the hell that is life.