2day was horrible:

-it was my 1 month anniversary with my boyfriend whom i'm seriously thinking of dumping. i speak in paragraphs...he speaks in grunts ("me tarzan you jane"kind of thing).

-it was both his and my mom's birthday...i got him a gift and the asshole didn't even thank me. my mom (as usual) was happy with the gift certificate i got her and even THANKED ME! Hmm...u'd think he'd get the hint.

-we went to see MIB2 and he proceeded to make loud comment throughout the movie and there were other ppl in the theater TRYING to enjoy the movie as well. (note to self: don't try to lean against your boyfriend half sitting, half lying on him...my back still kills)

-my younger sis and bro almost made me go deaf in the car with all their fucking screaming @ each other. HELP!!!
forget rock concerts- i've got an entire band in the two of them!!!

-dinner was nice, we went to the olive garden (w/o my boyfriend...hehehe ) it would have been too expensive to bring him along, o well.

now don't get me wrong, chuck (my b/f) is a great guy, but sumtimes i wonder if he's all there-if u get my drift. he doesn't seem extremely bright either...hence my inevitable decision to break off the relationship. I need someone who can keep up with me and has a similar personality as me. (ie- respects my beliefs, likes goth/heavy metal/punk music (just a suggestion), but is happy and bubbly like me. strange combination, i know...but hey what can i say, that's me for you.

i'm not quite sure what i'm going to do about chuck @ this point, maybe i'll stick w/ him for a while longer and see if any changes take place.(this is probably just hopeful wishing, but hey, whatev)i think that i'll go now-i feel better that i've ranted and raved a bit. o, to my darkforum buddies...i had a strange premonition of something bad happening to one of u yesterday, if this means anything @ all to any of u, pleaze tell me asap, thanx.

I think this belongs in Advice.

hes otta there. if hes already this apathetic about you this early into the relationship what will it be like in another month?

honey, get rid of chuck but dont take marquise, i get these weird vibes from the both of them.
chuck obviously doesnt appreciate you lil k, and you deserve someone who does. dump this loser! u know i'll hook you up w/ someone, or die trying. fuck it, you can have my man. TAKE HIM! if he wont even pay attention and thank you for a gift, and listen VERY closly now, GET RID OF HIM NOW!!! you need much better. good luck rae
as for your sister and brother, get rid of them to. i'll help w/ the bodies! just talk to your mom about it, DONT GET HOSTILE YOU DO THAT ALOT AND U NEVER GET YOUR WAY. if it gets to bad call me and i'll talk to them. also, when ur fam therapist comes over try to talk to her about these things. when they start to scream in the car just scream out "shut up, shouting isnt going to: change her mind/get you point out any more/help...try it, and if it dont work, i'm always here baby....

Your Morning Star

-Dri-

p.s-thanks for the books, they helped so much.

dri any thing I try to go into you are always there stop prestalking me
and I agree w/ her dump his soon to be sorry ass

bleah.. what a weirdo.. send him over to crypts or antiheros house for a butt whooping.. or evilash even..

*goes off to ponder how that guy got a person like you to be his GF* hmmm

Well, its official to anyone who cares, i'm breaking up with him the next time i see him. i'm soo sick of his loser ass, i don't need to deal with somone like that. o, and that other dude marquise? He's now officially out of the picture too, he went home to philly last thursday. i'm kinda sad about it but maybe it was for the best considering how strange everything became in the first place. Its weird, but i have this sweetheart of a friend named steve whom everyone thinks that i'm going out with. There's one catch though...he's gay. o well, ya win sum, ya lose sum. The other thing that happened to me was that i was invited to join a coven by this 17 yr old that lives in the same city as me, too bad my mom said no. o well, nothing else to say for now.

hey rae babes, how goes it?
understand ur pain w/ the whole men issue..i'm going to call you tomorow, i miss you so much. i'm going through withdrawl...