for people that know me, and my family. you all know i dont have a very functional family life. i dont get along with my siblings, and im pretty sure my sister is inlove with me. freak! anyway, i am realy starting to hurt because i am thinking alot about the little brother i lost.

when me and dri wicked broke up, and i was banned form comming near her, i also lost my bond with her brother. i used to think of him as my little brother. a smart kid that i liked toplay games and stuff with, talk to about his sister....(laugh) he was always fun to talk to. annoying at times when i was trying to be close to adrian, but fun non the less. anyway, like i was saying. after we broke up, i havnt been able to see him, talk to him, or anything. this sucks. i dont know if i am more worried about adrian doing somehting with another guy, or kyle forgetting me and starting to like karl over me.........

(starts to tear up)

i never had a little brother, o a true love, and when i had them both and did all that dumb shit, i screwed it all up. i lost a family, love, and close friend......

i dont know if there is much help anyone can offer, buti figured i would put this out thier.

i can see that either people dont know what to say, or are saying nothing..........
(feels unloved even more)

jeez, im having a bad fucking week.

(shoots self)

better?

(dies)

fran, i care. your sister is in love with you? ewww, that's really gross!

its good to see, through that whole post, the only thing rae saw was the part about my sister......jeez. you people look for the worst in shit......

(shoots self again)

i don't miss my family, so there's nto much i can say. *shrug* maybe some good ol' fashioned incest will help.

no thank you.... dont wanna even think about having sex with my sister.

i still cant get adrian out of my head.

*hug* stop shooting yourself

its just hard for people to find words that would be comforting enough to you right now

yah..... i wish words spoke loud as actions...............


:cries:

thanks for following me around ice_devil_girl!

lol what can i say im your not so secret stalker lol
just kiddin. im really bored. and ill

i am sick feeling to.....

:tummy hurts::

take aspirin. they solve everything.

fran you have a younger brother. . .not the smartest person in the world but you do. . as for your sister. .I never did like her.

yah, but there shitty. kyle is more like the little brother i wanted, and adrian is the love of my life........ now, if given enough time, rj will move in and take my place and ill be forgotten......




giving up...............

:lame: well . . I must say how long has this been fucking going on. .I just get real tired of this bs between you two.

yah, well...... i couldnt help it. what can i say, huh?
good to know everyone was so psyched about this whole thing.....lol

they were. .that's kinda mean. .Right now I could really just care less

good to know jess, we still hanging out today. i am at the library right now, so i have until 2:38 to sign off...

what would be the point anymore, of missing something that looks at me like a mistake. between me and adrian, i am the worst thing that ever happened.
between me and her family, i am the worst thing that could have happened.
and her brother hates me anymore.

little secrets and lying were what tore it all apart with her and i, hope she learned that.
or she is just caring aout............fuck it