I got something interesting for you all.

I'm currently dating an 18 year-old female. I'm not legally an adult, we'll put it that way. But that's of little importance.

She's going to college soon. In september. Bye bye

What am I to do? The only person I have ever loved must leave; away from me forever. The fire of my soul extinguished with the simple passing of one, solitary soul.

Now for those of you who do not know I in no way either trust, or love, anyone. I don't even believe in love. However, with her, the entire world is different. I can see things from a different perspective; not one as my own, clouded by hate, but through one that has been lightly tapped upon by an angel. And she is my angel.

And yet, through all of my pitifully euphoric bliss, she is soon to be gone. I met her, thinking my heart could only hate; and yet with her touch all of my insurmounable hate disappears. It is only she and I; alone, without all of the shit against me. She is everythign that I lost; caring, sympathy, all of the 'good' things. She loves me despite our age differences and she is so beautiful. And still, every thought of her leads back to the one simple conclusion: she'll have to leave. And who would want some little shit holding them back? *shrugs* And so it stands. Those of you who don't understand about my...unusual...problem of extreme hatred, just talk to Tisha19. She knows a lot about me.

well you can still keep in touch. I know its not like the easiest thing or anything but you can't stop her from going either. Its one of the hardest things having to say goodbye to someone close to you whoever they may be. You will be able to see her again I am sure of it and its not like you can never see her again is it ? I have found somebody who makes me feel so happy , cheers me up and likes me. It is not official that we are going out but we are both too shy even though we made our feelings clear yesterday. There is a 2 1/2 yr gap between us, he is 17 I am 14 yet he makes me happy and as you say see things in a different perspective. We only get to see each other now and again and once I go back to school it will be less unless he gets the job in my town which I could see him after school then but....... I dunno, all I can say is I kinda (kinda because I don't know you really or what your like) know what its like.

She's 18, and I just turned 15, so I'd say we're in the same boat.

Only she's going to another state.

Thats pretty bad. My boyfriend lives a couple of miles away which I could get to by train in about 15 mins , plus he has an interview for a job tommorow in my town , I hope he gets it. All I can say is try and keep in touch and see how things go.

Eh

wha ?

*shrugs* This is true, I suppose. And yet, it is not, for she's going to college. There's gonna be a lot of guys a lot better than me who'll want her.

Sweetie I know how hard this is for you. I'll be her for you always, you know that. I'll tell you again, be thankful for the time you do have with her, and don't just give up cuz she's leaving you don't know what could happen.

Love you lots *kisses~n~lixx* ~tisha

keep in touch with her, try and make things work. if they dont, she's only going to be gone for a couple of years hun it wont be that bad.
i understand how it feels to have the only reason you are still leaving, the only reason you still value life, the ONLY reason you dont cry yourself to sleep tonight because you are still goign to wake in the morning taken away from you. more like riped away from your needing arms. i know how you feel, i do... time heals all wounds hun... i hope you guys can work things out, good luck...

DRi

She and I have discussed things; she has no desire to try and continue things through her college years. And in a 'few years' a lot of shit can happen. She just wants to break it off. *shrugs* It's probably for the better.

Well I'm sorry love, you know I'm here for you. *kisses*

if it's true love, it will endure. i'm sure of this. my love that completely turned my life around has endured through so many things. what is meant to happen will happen, think of it that way, and everything always happens for a reason. if you two are so direly in love, it will surpass everything else

good luck, and blessed be,

skarllette

You're right. It probably is for the better considering everything you said, but that doesn't mean you have to not talk to her ever again. You can remain close even though it will hurt, probably forever. Are you thinking that because you two aren't going to be together anymore that she isn't going to continue to enrich your life? Well, that's not true. As I said before, just because you are going to end your romantic relationship, that doesn't mean that you never have to talk again, and you never know....if you two are meant to be, it will happen.
love me

take it from me bro. take the experiences, store them in the back of you head, and move on. its happened to me plenty of times. just keep in touch, and once in a while, get yourself a bottle of jack daniels and reminesce. no use in gettin all down about life. wish her the best of luck, and life goes on. walk away like a man.

So if I am cought up in losing her then I'm not a man? With those mere sentiments you have already proven your ignorance of my situation. Not trying to be rude; but merely speaking my observations. NOt everything in life can be simply stowed away and trapped.

im not tryin to belittle you. i've been there, over and over. and i guess ive grown a little cold. but good luck

Cold merely makes the heart grow sour. *shrugs* But I'm alreadyt aht way. IT wouldn't be a big deal if she wasnt the only person around here that I trusted; let alone the only person I've ever really cared for. Hell, I don't even believe in love...but becasue of her I'm being forced to second guess myself.

hun
hehe I know weve been over this again and again, even with in the last hour, but ive warned you im, just if not more stuborn than you are, your not second guessing, you realizing, she wont be the last one that changes you, like i said just hang on to the ones that wont listen to your warnings and isolation of the heart you know? youve always got us here, its not the same by far i know, but it does help sometimes, times the only thing that will calm the storm, the pain will always be there, but it wont always be this hard...*hugs*kisses* love ya lots and lots, hang in there
~Rix~

*shrugs* it doesn't matter anymore.

She's gone. Kissed her for the last time at 1:50...gone from me at 1:53...PM