i suddenly find myself very alone.

i just got out of a hospitol where at least there were people around, but now i feel as if there is nothing here. everyone is gone or not connected to me anymore. i fear everyone, even the people that say they love me, or care abuot me. i think i have right to. im in the room right now where alot of my problems started, and there are people all around me, but there are no people here. do you know what i mean./ maybe if i take a walk i will fell better.

see you all soon..............


halo ten-further down the spiral: track 7, it sets my mood.

well you shouldn't ignore the people who love you. at least you still have thoughs people. how can you feel alone that way? I think that you have alot of negative thinking going on inside of your head. you should try some meditation. maybe that could calm you down. in the mean time try to do some positive thinking and things in your life. I hope that i have helped you out some.

i have been meditating, it is the solstice ad i have the rituals all set up. im calm and i know people are around me. i ont thik of it as negative, but as a purpose por a goal. i have to try and trust all these people again before i can truly decide who lies next t me on the deathbed or on the right hand side of my throne. get what i mean?

good at least you have been meditating. yeah i know what you mean. you are telling me that you have been betrayed and lied to with some people that have encountered you. but its going to take a long while to see if you can be with people again. with them fucking you over. did i get your correctley?

its not some people. its all people. even now, im being fucked over. it never stops. all i wanna do is trust, and not have a dagger driven into my spine everytime i turn around.doesnt seem like to much to ask for to me.

well, thank you for listening. i have to travel 15 miles just to do this shit here. im gonna go forum........

see ya.....

yeah i know what you ment. well you are not the only one that gets it. everyone gets it. even i get it. it does suck a whole lot.

every single person? even me? i'm sorry...

Fran...U need to just calm down. U know u have people who truly care about u..Some might not always show it all the time, but u do....U say u get fucked over...Look what happened to me ALL last year. Look what everyone did to me. Yes i know i caused some of the problems...But still. Ur not the only one hun. Just look at the good things and be happy for what u have. I know u have had a bad life and im sorry. And i know u probably hate me, which i totally understand that. But i do want u to know that i do care about u. And i will always be here for u no matter what. And u cant get rid of me...So mwhahah! *sticks tongue out at u* Take care of urself! *hugs u then runs away* Buh-Bye!

well i for one know exactly how you feel...been there a few times (unfortunatly). just hang in there, hopefully things will get better for you..

yeah sweetie, things are starting to look up. you guys are moving so you can be in the school you want and away from other unwanted. *looks slightly obviously in Devils directions* After the past few weeks he's had he doesn't have to calm down. He was just betrayed by his "friends" and me, forced to move back into his middle-of-no-where hell with two people who need to care more about it and has to deal with his grandma. You don't need to calm down, you need to cheer up. You know I'm always here and if your not I'll come to you! Feel better

Ok sorry sorry....

oh tis ok...