whut up y'all I am bored and am trying to waste my *precious* time until I went to tha gym so imma create myself a lil' journel thingy.Aiight what happened today I woke up for school and went up tha trail like I do normally ,blah..blah...school is boring.Saw Nicoles baby phay hat which I wanan steal itz tha shit son.Anywho-After school I saw krysten and she told me dis slut shayna was poppin more shit tellin eric or dan he best tell krysten and nicole she is gonna beat their asses.Tell me how she thinkz she gonna do dis shit when me and nicole went up to her @ tha dance and I said if she touchez krysten imma be after her.So tell me how she threatens nicole as well when I threatened shayna but dont say shyt bout me?Cuz she know (and so does remainder of Sw)dat I WILL hurt her.I tell ya once and it dont happen again.At least from now on.Im not frontin like im some big ass violent bitch dat will fuck wit anyone cuz i only hit one girl my whole life (punching wise) but if you start wit me my homiez or my family I will be after you.I confronted:Shayna,chris,Amy ,Christine @ tha dance and I dont say shit then not do shit like shayna so I was lookin for dis hoe in town all day.I told her at tha dance dat she touches my crew i'll be after her.And how she think she can say shit like I wont hear it...shit it is Jeffersonville.Aint no bigass town.So Imma bout to bounce ova to Sunoco and see if dis bitch is here.This whut imma say after i push her and grab her by her neck and throw her against tha wall:

yo shayna why after i tell u ya f*ck wit my girl (krysten )u gotta tell dan to tell her.And then he after nikole?Why not me?Cuz you know I will find your ass and hurt you.I warned you @ tha dance and u had to open ur fuckin mouth and threaten.If you were gonna hurt anybody when christina went up to you wouldn't you have done shit?NO ya dumb bitch you walked away...so im not gonna lett you walk away.
slap 1-datz 4 talkin shyt u aint gonna do
slap 2-datz for f*ckin wit my homei krysten
slap3-thats for fu*kin wit my girl Nikole.
slap4-Dats for thinkin ur gonna get away wit dis shit.
one last thing u say shit about my girls again I will make you bleed.I dont know if ill rememeber dat whole 1st paragraph but tha rest I will.Dis girl dont mess wit my best friend krysten leigh hallfors.From everyone she deserved dis shit.Aiight now much else Im about to find dis hoe aiiight so holla at me after y'all read dis.Gotta go get ready n shit.PEACE!


Amy


~*MMFWCF:*~

hehe! Very interesting day! I dunno what to say to any of that...So i'll just hug and kiss ya and leave for alil! *does that*! hehe! Luff ya!

:blackeye: <~ Is that what she is going to look like???


Dont u just love me????? *coughs* *falls down*

yeah datz whut she will look like.



as for today...I didnt see tha bitch yet but tis only 3:10 and i just came into town since I live in town but I came home from school @ 11:15 cuz I had a appmt wit my therapist but imm madd sick cuz of "girl shyt"soo...Im chillin wit liz so shell if you see a mean message....ahh fuck it ill fix it for you !*mwah!* *~fixes away messege~*..........ok im back anyway shell uhh yeah imma fuck her up seriously.I put tha poem u wrote me on my new notebook thingy and dat "remember kidz,make it count"thingy from dat dudes sig on df.com wit phsycopathik shytZ,anyway uuuh yeah so I went home had a ********** ....an den I watched tha ring had popcorn and uuuh took a shower and now im wit lizzzy and whoah dis dude adam thinx im hot n i been really depressed lately cuz I realized how ugly I really am.My brother is living wit us again.He pisses me off a lot.I bet now dat he is livin wit us again we will still not talk.I dont care,he is an alchie who only gave a shyt about my well being when I was in da hospital.Aiiiight liz iz being dumb.Im tellin ha bout dis forum shell.You two are a lot alike.I will prolly add some more shytz in like 2 minz.PEACE


~one~



I love matt,I love matt,I love matt

10.16.03


Hey I guess shelly isnt going to read dis.Well shyt is cleared up wit shayna.Turnz out dat rob was makin tha shyt up (dan too)dat she sayz she gonna beat nikole and krystens ass.I told her im not lookin to start beef wit people nut doze are my girls.And I said if I hear it again...imma makesure itz true and then find you.So she admidtz she dont like krysten but nuttin wrong wit me nor nikole.If i frind out other wise....well y'all know.I am pretty depressed I really miss matt.I dont even think I could truly open how Im feeling in dis journel.I belvive my sister will tell my mom shyt no offense to her.I just am really paranoid over shyt.I wanan cry.I couldnt even tell krysten suttin on tha phone last night b/c I thought someone was listening.I been really paranoid lately and aggitated.Itz only been a few dayz w/o my anti-depressantz so itz not that.I am going to tell my mom tonight I want to switch to paxil.I just dunno.I cant even chill wit joe,kenny,krysten,nikole and liz in town cuz I didnt go to school.But i am glad I didnt go cuz i was soo tired and I am so depressed right now I wanna fucking cry.Nobody understandz and I cant even tell anyone.I just been fuckin paranoid lately and I wish dis fucking shyt would end.GGOOD MUTHER FUCKIN PEOPLE!!!



:cry:

I feel shelly is tha only one who will veiw dis so mebbe ill stop.Tomorrow im supposed to go to liz's.I wont have a ride to kaylas halloween party.Their wont even be alchohol anyway so id prolly be bored cuz I dont know her family.GodmI sound like a loser.Kenny hates alchohol.Adam likes me and I kinda like him I am gonna write him a letter.He went to Pa today so he idnt in town.Im prolly goin to pa dis weekend.Aiiight peace.


I fucking miss matt.I hate this shyt.


~one~



even krysten left me to go chill wit dem all....my best friend *criez*

and itz not like i can even open myself up in this journel...cuz im too paranoid.Imma write a poem about dat tonight.

Im here yes....Maybe not for a long while....but for these few mins im here....Take care love....And maybe i'll see ya over the summer...Or maybe i wont! Love ya.

maybe not for long?ur fuckin leavin me?This is fuckin great.You know if ur jokin ur not funny if ur serious den thnx!!!!!!!!!




As for my day today.....I woke up late as usual b/c I took my medz late & shyt but today is Friday so yey imma hopefully go to liz's.Im not goin 2 jhonnies wit krysten to babysit cuz when she goes she getz madd tired.ANYWHO...dis morning my sister asked me wut i had I said a backpack and she asked me again & I said a bookbag instead of baby phat.And dey got super pissey cuz i always have an attitude and Im upset most of tha time.BULL SHIT.Honestly I dont get whut they're talkin about and my mom was sayin im in bad moods so much prolly cuz of my friends.NO!I told my ma been reall upset lately and I didnt feel like discussin shyt .Anyway she was callin my BESTFRIEND a slut & she isnt.Her sister is yes so I was givin her tha cold shoulder.You know if dat wuz ne1 else id punch dem?Then i got ina fight wit ha tha night b4 last night.So ileft wit liz joe kenny and adam.Anywho yesterday I was really upset!!And some juggalo told me to kill myself and just get it ova wit.Im not suicdal.God sometime I just wanna fuckin die but im not gonna kil myself & Itz not like it'd bring me to a better place .So wnayway my ma was talkin about florida to brin it up 2 my teachers dude im not f*ckin goin!!!I dont even like bein home @ my house fightin wit everyone.I like florida but in tha car for dat long..NO!Im not tryin to be a bytch....but id fight wit dem and im not stayin in a car for dat long .Plus jessica is goin and she annoys me.Alisha isnt even going.Even doh she thinx im some fuckin bad ass too.Im just sick of dis shyt.I wrote a poem today...but I decided not to post it.Imma go be pissed off & shyt.PEACE!


~one~


shayna is a dumb ass liar and IZ gettin ha preppy ass kicked!

Im not joking around...Very soon i shall be gone...Maybe forever, maybe for a few months...Something..

Ok do you think like dat b/c of your fucked up dreams?


Well I been chillin wit jop kenny and adam there hella cool and adam liked me and were goin out now.But we dont act like it like we dont even hold hands.But I still love matt so much I wanna cry.But I dunno were chattin right now and i wrote a poem bout him.But I dont submit my poems anymore.It takes too long Im unpatient & nobody reads em cept shell and hells revenge once.Anyway I been chillin wit them lately & shit.I dont even really have time to come on here but I had to be home @ 7 and tha library dont close until 8.Anyway..imma go listen to music.Peace

What does my dreams have to do with everyday life????

huh?

I dunno...

10.22


Hey y'all Alisha just brought Joe and adam home cuz it is hella cold and me and adam are @ tha library.Kenny was talkin about ******* well I just dont want alisha to be worried.I had a talk wit her last night and I realize I think besides krysten she is my best friend.I thought I couldnt tell her shit and I wish I didnt have to tell her dat shit cuz I wish I never make dat mistake but i did and im sorry lisha.I think i am gonna go to florida wit tha family.I wont be put on level 1 in school unless I am on it b4 I leave.I will just have to make tha work up & shit.I had to see my phsyciatrist today and I was really buggin.I told him I dont wanna see him anymore it doesnt do anything for me.Only for my mom,I mean if I wanna talk to someone I can just talk to krysten or alisha.Cuz they're pretty much tha only people ill tell things to and alex but I havnt talked to him in a hella long time.Anyway...Im sick of my family giving me shit about my friends being sluts.Liz-gives a lot of head so people say.Nicole-has sex wit a lot of people and they think krysten does too she doesnt.Now shelly.Youd fuck matt if I didnt love him.THATS FUCKED UP.To someone else in real life id beat their ass but on tha comp and since its you i dont know what to do.How can you love sex?Ur fucking 16.I dont get why guys are so obsessed over it and its worth being labeled by your town as a "slut"?NO!If they do think dat....then change.If not,then obviously you dont care if your friends get labeled as sluts too cuz they hang wit you.Im really starting to understand where my family is coming from.I mean nicole yea she is easy.Liz doesnt sleep around bit gives head which is still bad but I know dat and everyone pretty much in town is easy.I am not...cuz Im not a hoe.My point is ,your being idiotic and Im really pissed shell.Im also pissed @ my phsyciatrist cuz he wont put me on paxil.Dude I am not fucking staying on celexa mebbe ill give prozacc a try but I WANT PAXIL,God.Its more of risk to kids under 18 b/c it makes you wanna kill urself.SUICIDE IS STUPID & It makes you more hungry.Trust me i used to only have 2o calories a day I can handle it.Im trying to lose weight neway.Okay well not much else.Alanna is back @ school."good times"as kenny and joe always say.Im really stressed kenny&adam wont have a place to stay. what do I do?
~one~

I cant help it that i love sex. Im a horny girl. I dont give a shit if people call me or think im a slut. I really dont...lol. Cuz im sure they would think of something else to call me. Cuz thats just how life is. I cant help it that im attracted to Matt...Its his fault..lol. I do not like him. And i dunno. I didnt wanna sit here and lie to u. Im not like that. I will tell u straight up if i liked him or if i want to fuck him...And i told u everything. I dont want u to find out shit and then be more pissed at me. I dunno. Its not going to happen anyways. U love him. So im not going to have sex with him. If u didnt love him then i would cuz u wouldnt care. Thats what im trying to tell u. Hell i could go see him this weekend and fuck him. But im not going to cuz u love him. Shit u know how many people would not fuck or love someone for that very reason. Some and most people just dont give a shit and just do it. But im not like that to someone who i love and care about. Im sorry ok...Shit u need to calm down. Nothing is going to happen...I was just telling u. And ur not going out with him, u have a bf. So calm down. NOTHING IS GOING TO HAPPEN! Sorry im so truthful with u....

1-he wouldnt have sex wit you cuz he is a virgin and no matter of his hormones he respects himself.
2-You never met him and we were together for about 8 months so I doubt wit a girl he never met .....and any kind of guy would more so want to have a realationship+sex wit a girl who respects herself.I talk to alisha too much Its all good (that i talk to alisha)

Ok...Well u can sit there and say that....But i dunno...From what i see and read from him...*coughs*...U think what u think u know...

....And anyways...I can play and look, no matter what...But i wont touch...For my reason..I already gave to u...And u need to chill out...Cuz i told u a 1000 times i wont fuck him...And im not going to say it again and really im not going to say im sorry...cuz i did NOTHING!

Yet...you are a slut.Please dnt visit nor respond in dis thread and Ill do tha same to you.



Hey I was so stressed and thought kenny was gonna move to brooklyn but suttin happened.He is a rea; good friend .I am buyin dis birdhouse skateboard from dis kid soon for $50 and their usually like $110 in ccs (biggest skatin store)anyway yea imma start I was gonna when I was 13 but my knee was fucked up & nopw it dont even hurt when it pop.Imma go up to shayna when I see her and not say shit!!!!!Cuz beat tha fuck outta her.I seriously will make this girl bleed.I been lookin for her everywhere.Anyway today is friday and I am goin to syracuse wit alisha.SHE HAS HER NEON BACK!!!!HELL YEA!Anyway I am, not friends wit shelly b/c I will no longer talk to niggaz like their my best friends when their just sluts.Krysten aint a hoe.Im forcing her and liz to get tested doh ....and i seriously said if i ever find if they dont use condoms next time they have sex imma slap em.No more den dat cuz I love dem.Anywho....whut poppin wit me?I dont think imma go to florida...Good song beef by tech n9ne alanas bro wrote me from jail he in their for fightin and were friends.His name is james and he wnant his friends and fam to write so he dont get in as many fights ya know?He is really cute and madd ppl real his letter and said he was flirtin but nnaaw cuz im wit adam and happy wit him.Our personalities are really similar.He reminds me of matt but not til he asked me out.Well Their comin to town soon cant wait PEACE!

~one~

"Shelly": You sould like a straight up hoebag. I don't know you, I'm basing this on what I just read, you sould like a hoe. And, the only girls I know who are hoes are:
a) ugly,
b) fat,
c) stupid,
d) all of the above.

You need to get to the clinic... like, yesterday. I'll also say that no decent guy would touch you with a ten foot poll. They'd have to be ugly or dirty to want a girl who is ugly or dirty, that's just the way the world is. As far as Matt goes, I really don't think he'd even met you... I don't even think he'd talk to you on the phone. If he would, well then he's a dirtbag. Why the hell can you want to sleep with someone you never even saw? That's the craziest thing I ever heard of. And you're 16?!? God, you must be really desperate to have to meet guys online and/or give it up that quick, huh? Why is it that they all bounce after a few weeks? Hmmmm... I dunno, girl.