I am just gonna put random thoughts of mine here...lyrics, poems I read here and there...stuff like that.



Mountains. Heavy are the mountains, but that changes over time.

Sky... Blue sky. What your eyes can't see. What your eyes can see.

Sun...There is only one.

Water... Comforting. Commander Ikari?

Flower... So many alike. So many useless.

Sky... Red, red sky. Red is the color. Red is the color I hate.

Water flowing.

Blood... The smell of blood. A woman who never bleeds.

From the red earth comes man, from the soil.

Born of man and woman is Man.

Town... A human creation.

Eva... A human creation as well.

What is a human? A creation of God?

Is it a human creation?

The things I possess are my life and soul. I am a vessel for my heart.

Who is this? This is me.

Who am I? What am I? What am I? What am I? What am I?

I am myself. This, that which is, is myself. That which is formed is me.

This is the me that can be seen, yet feels as if this is not myself.

A strange feeling. I feel as if my body is melting.

I can no longer see myself. My shape is fading.

I feel the presence of someone who is not me.

Who is there, beyond me here?

Who are you?

Who are you?

Who are you?

When the world ends
Collect your things
You’re coming with me
When the world ends
You tuckle up yourself with me
Watch it as the stars
Disappear to nothing
The day the world is over
We’ll be lying in bed
I’m gonna rock you like a baby
When the cities fall
We will rise as the building’s crumble
Float there and watch it all
Amid the burning, we’ll be churning
You know, love will be our wings
The passion rises up from the ashes
When the world ends
When the world ends
You’re gonna come with me
We’re going to be crazy
Like a river bends
We’re going to float
Through the criss cross
Of the mountains
Watch them fade to nothing
When the world ends
You know that’s what’s happening now
I’m going to be there
With you somehow, oh
I’m going to tie you up
Like a baby in a carriage car
Your legs won’t work
'Cause you want me so
You just lie spread to the wall
The love you got is surely
All the love that I would ever need
I’m going to take you by my side
And love you tall
TilL the world ends
Oh, but don’t you worry about a thing
No, 'cause I got you here with me
Don’t you worry about a just you and me
Floating through the empty, empty
Just you and me
Oh, grace
Oh, grace
Oh, when the world ends
We’ll be burning one
When the world ends
We’ll be sweet makin love
Oh, you know when the world ends
I’m going to take you aside and say
Let’s watch it fade away, fade away
And the world’s done
Ours just begun
It's done
Ours just begun
We’re gonna dive
Into the emptiness
We'll be swimming
I’m going to walk you through
The pathless roads I’m going to take you to the top
Of the mountain that’s no longer there
I’m going to take you to bed
And love you, I swear
Like the end is here
I’m going to take you up to
I’m going to take you down on you
I’m going to hold you like an angel
I’m going to love you
I’m going to love you
When the world ends
I’m going to hold you
When the world is over
We’ll just be beginning...

Switched to darkforum v2...should have done it for a long long time now.

A simple lie...brings you down....in an ordinary way...a simple lie..

Saturday will be 40 days since my Mom died...
People will gather around, I don't know anyone...
I can't feel anything right now..people are supposed to feel sad and maybe cry and all...
I just know she has stopped suffering from this cancer..and she is at a better place from here..
But still...no celebration from me.

understand
there's comfort with the wealth of gold
increase demands
release me from the scenes of old

And so there goes another day....

my condoleances....and yet...my gratulations, you probably understand what i mean with that...

it is a sad thing to lose someone to a disease, but as you said yourself, she has stopped suffering. It's not uncommon for you to feel nothing, it's just your way of dealing with it.

for the rest...what can i say, i have been in several situations like this (though not so close) all i can say is: remeber the good days...and never forget those...

you'll do fine

Thank you very much...good days are hard to find...but I am cherishing them.

It's 14:15 here..work was boring..another realization that everyone is stepping on someone else to advance...

thats the way life goes...everyone is a footstep for the other trying to be first in a race that ends in only one thing......

it's kinda useless but so is thinking about the uselessness, trying to make the best of what you have and have the best time of what you make of it will do when dealing with things called life...

and i am giving myself enormous headaches with this cryptical posting of mine...lol

where are you anyways, it's 1:30 pm here or 13:29 for all that matters

Greece.
What about you?

The Netherlands.....

*checks your location and slaps his forehead*

seriously sometimes i think i am blind or something..

i like the poetry and thoughts by the way...

They kinda pop in my head when I read them somewhere and stay there for some reason.
I am keeping this journal.

it's nice i am kinda inspirationless buti used to have that to....

it's cool to be able to write stuff around like that...and i like them to because they are real thoughts and everything

I like your signature by the way. Do you try to live by it?
Does it work for you?

i wish i could live by it, again some sort of ideal i try to uphold but which never works....

it just fitted my mood at times...and i like it sometimes though...i care for no one i dance i do i let go of all that holds me back

(most of the times this is after i had enough alcohol) from which i am trying to refrain myself....somehow i contradict my signature and hold back for the rest....meh

your sig...are those your own words?...

Nope, its of an Anime Character (Avatar) that her personality its like mine. The series she was into was called Neon Genesis Evangellion...

www.lonelyangel.com

i know evangelion, i have it all on dvd including both movies

now that i think of it yeah, i had a sig a long time from rei...from death and rebirth...

rei is such a weird character in the series, though i like her rather much because of that...i just love the series, what can i say, i am addicted to that stuff

kaworu and shinji.... *little school girl like giggle*

If you want I can send you all 26 episodes, end and rebirth and the End of Evangellion in Cd's for you to watch. I didin't like the plot much, but I was and am like one with Rei.

i have all 26 episodes on dvd.... yay for boxed sets

and i bought both the movies to... and like with the matrix i thought a lot about the series, what the va units really were and who is what who is adam and eve and who belongs where in the great picture

it's a wonderfully odd series...especially the endings