Long Distance Relationships.......not something you want to get into. If I could I would have never gotten into one, too bad I was too stupid to realize it wasn't a good idea then...what I didn't even expect to be more than a frienship ended up as more...and instead of being a couple of months ended up starting two years ago and lasting until now. It is so emotionally taxing, and it sucks. It ended and we stayed friends...off and on...but we never really could stay friends, ironic thing is he moved from far to even farther....just my luck eh? It was very funny because instead of forgetting about it I ended up getting deeper, and I started to fall for someone I knew that lived near me, but didn't want to because I didn't think that relationships were right for me at the time..funny thing is i got back into the relationship with the guy that i had a long distance relationship with before....and ended it again because i couldn't talk to him even online....because alot of stuff happened.....and he was just too busy irl. That hurted alot, and even though I did try to forget him, it didn't work and now here I am still in love with him because I haven't been able to get close like that with anyone else at all. And it hurts more that he's so far away, that he's so busy, and even though we should just be friends feelings don't agree to that, and when he talks of other people it is probably the worst feeling in the world, even though I have talked of other people in the past, and still do now. It isn't the most pleasant thing in the world to know that there are people you don't even know who are closer to someone you love with a hell of alot of yourself (i'm young so i wouldn't say everything because that's teenage ignorance really) physically than you can be, and sometimes when you're hurt and they make you feel so much better you just wish you could be in your arms, and you'd give up so much just to be there, and it makes you hate where you are even more....but you can't....and that just means you have to pretend that you don't feel anything....when in reality you feel it more than anything else. And because of these damn feelings, there someone who still in fact still has feelings for me, and i still have feelings for them (who lives near me) but i can't even let them get close because it would be so wrong to fall for him only to tell him that i'm completely in love with someone else.....and i'm just giving him a "chance" to see if he can be better than someone else....when in reality i'd like nothing more than to be with the person who is thousands miles away from me....in my opinion don't get stuck in my dilemma, it's hurt and it really fucks you up and anyone else who wants to be with you.....who might be better but you can't let go of someone else.....and i would love to tell him i love him with all that i know, but if i did it would cause too much trouble and pain

Yup....I sorry hun! Damn ya know..We r all dumb...lol. Everyone says the same thing....Love fucking sucks sometimes...Why the hell is it called love? Love is a sweet word...But its not. Love desevers a evil word...lol...Yes im dumb....Im leaving now...*hugs everyone*...Bye!

Love is a drug, it doesn't give a damn who it attacks, but when it hits it hits hard and sometimes the result of trying to get it or leave it is death (i'm exaggerating so don't get a stick up yo ass you know what i mean)

lol...Yes very true!

love is getting kicked in the penis with a steel toe boot, and a trip to the ER late on a Friday night after youve drank too many whiskey shooters and fondled some guys girlfriends ass.

I dont feel it that way...lol...But if i had a dick im sure i would!

I can imagine the pain so I very much agree.

Eh.. long distance relationships, they are much more trying and difficult to keep, in my opinion. Even someone who is only an hour away is still pretty far. It eats you up inside whenyou cant see the person you love, and youd give almost anything to just be in their arms. I met my boyfriend on line. At the time, he lived about 5 or 6 hours away. He started to go to college aroudn here so i actually got to meet him. I dont think i could handle an online relationship. I see him 3 or so times a week on average. and we really havent been together for all that long. He was one of my best friends for a very long time. I have loved him for a very long time but there were things that needed to be taken care of and what not that kept us from starting this relationship. I love him more than anything in the world, but i know that the distance will take a toll, it always does. i have been in a relationshop similar to this. i dont think he has. He lived in the same building as the one girl and if she wasnt such a rageing bitch, he could have seen her whenever he wanted and the other he went to school with and im pretty positive he saw her everday. I consider my relationsips long distance, others may not. but anyway they are difficult and i would say most fail, i think it takes more effort and commitment to keep them strong.

online relationships.

well i'm in one of thoughs online relationships. so far are relationship has been going by pretty well. i plane on seeing her though in PA. i just hope that i can make it happen for my self. i just have to be a perfect little angel so i could have permission to go and see her.

hehe i hope it all works out for ya!

dont know what love it. have stayed away from online relationships. i try to be friends and women say they love me anyway. *shakes head sadly* i dont think net relationships work unless both parties are understanding. and patient. and willing to drop everything for the other. as far as if you knew the person physically then moved away. then i can say yes ive been in 5 of those. haven't worked out till my last one which im working on even though im in japan and shes in back in the state of illinois. i like her alot. and was friends with her for a long while. same with the others and we are all still friends though... so i cant really complain on those notes.

I hope it works out for u 2! I wish i was still friends with Kenny....He says he still cares about me...But i know its a lie. O well. Im still not over him. And i really need to. Im just giving up on love for awhile. Im sick of being in pain.

well... all i can say is that i hope you find a guy that respects you, worships you, is honest, and honorable. good luck. we are hard to come by. but dont give up. when in doubt do like SOME of us guys do... just go out to get laid when you can. its not hard. getting a guy to please you in bed when he doesn't want to.... .now.... thats hard. otherwise i think you will be ok. im done rambling now.

lol....Nice idea...hehe...I hope i find someone...and soon. Im so fucking lonely...It sucks sometimes.

Long distance didn't really work for me. Or maybe it worked until we got too close. I don't know. When people think they've figured each other out, I think they begin to take each other for granted.

*sighs*

Problem is.....................maybe we've only figured out parts of the facades, and not the real parts. Gah, I'm so confused.

U and me both. Now i got Kenny telling me he loves me so much and he wants to be with me. But hes with Mandy. And i know he wont leave her for me, cuz i live in PA and not there with him in Mass...And i just am so pissed off. Cuz he does this big ass talk and i fall for it and then the next day he loves her and its the hell with me and the next day its the other way around and the next day its the other way around. Its driving me crazy. I just wish i could kill Mandy and then i will be happy...lol. Thats so mean to say but i wish she would die...God im so mean.

ick... sounds like a player at work. *shakes head* just smack him, tell him to grow up or choose. if you were a guy id say get in a 3some but thats just bad advice. if she were really that bad would you care? if you really dislike her that much. why dont you befriend her to see what he sees in her. when in doubt talk to mandy about kenny hitting on you and flirting withyou. thats one way to break them up, and it will be with the truth. *shrugs* anyway. for clot< people only see what the other shows them. its when youre living with them and are close that you really start to see all the flaws. if youre best friends b4 that and you know all their flaws and they know yours then there is a good chance that you will both discover that when you are together you create a whole bunch of mini flaws that will drive you both crazy and towards separation.... jeez im starting to sound like a psychiatrist again.... *used to do relationship counseling while in highschool, both with students and teachers....* im done bragging now.

I have tried that before. It worked. I got him....But then hes like i really realized something and its that ur not Mandy. Hes in total love with her. And im done trying. I totally just give up. I dont wanna ever talk 2 him again and im never goin to see him cuz if i do i will beat him up. And if i see Mandy ever in my life i swear to fucking god i will kill her right there and then. I dont know how he could like her. Shes a fucking preppy fuck. She hates the music he listens to, and hates his band hes in, hates how he dresses and acts and just wants sex. And he bitches about all of this...And i just love everything about him...I dont understand whats wrong with me...But yes its over and im for real this time. Im sick of crying every nite cuz of him. Im done.






....As i say this now...Probably will talk 2 him again within a month and fall back to where i am now....God do i hate me.

theres two old sayings for this: (mine "lifes a bitch, sometimes you just have to grab him/her by the hair andfuck her/him harder then s/he fucks you."
"love is blind, hatred sees nothing but red, and War & Peace sucks"

anyway. i know that wont help. but hey. at least you can honestly say there is someone you care for. yours isn't dead. be thankful that he is still alive. sides. is mandy just wanting sex from him so bad? eventually he will relize that there isn't any more to her then what she is. and he will rember that you have always been there for him. all it requires is patience.... when in doubt find yourself a boy/girl toy to pass the time with. make him jealous if you haven't already tried. as long as you dont look too happy and convince him that you dont want him. then you will be fine.

I dont wanna do that to him. Cuz i know what that feels like. Cuz i know deep down inside he does like me. But its just the distance. But nothing will change. This is how it has to be. Hes happy..or so he says. And thats all i want. He knows she only wants sex. And when he doesnt give it she gets extremely pissed off. But hey...its his life. He knows i will ALWAYS be here and i will ALWAYS love him...And i hate how this has to be now...But we will see...If he talks 2 me ever again i will talk 2 him but im not goin out of my way to talk 2 him...And its goin to be hard. But i have to. So...O well. GREAT friendship, relationship, whatever it was...is now ruined.