lilywhitemm journal of things that happen to me and what i think about them.
FriendshipDiscuss lilywhitemm journal of things that happen to me and what i think about them. in the Welcome forums; Ryan and I will be getting an apartment in october....so I have to move 200 miles away from all of my friends and family. If I did not have ...
Ryan and I will be getting an apartment in october....so I have to move 200 miles away from all of my friends and family. If I did not have my art to comfort me I really do not know what would happen to me. Ryan is all excited and planning everything, he keeps telling me how much he loves me and cannot wait until we get the apartment. I find mostly all of my friends repellant in their company as of late but what am I to do but avoid those who I cannot stand to be around at the moment....which means everyone. I do not think I will miss these people.
Ryan did, however, promise that I could have any kind of cat that I wanted when we move in...and I have decided that I want a white female devon rex. devon rex are sort of a rare breed cat and they are so lovely....but cost like 600 dollars each. He does not mind though, because he loves me and I am lucky for that.
Ryan and I will be getting an apartment in october....so I have to move 200 miles away from all of my friends and family. If I did not have my art to comfort me I really do not know what would happen to me. Ryan is all excited and planning everything, he keeps telling me how much he loves me and cannot wait until we get the apartment. I find mostly all of my friends repellant in their company as of late but what am I to do but avoid those who I cannot stand to be around at the moment....which means everyone. I do not think I will miss these people.
Ryan did, however, promise that I could have any kind of cat that I wanted when we move in...and I have decided that I want a white female devon rex. devon rex are sort of a rare breed cat and they are so lovely....but cost like 600 dollars each. He does not mind though, because he loves me and I am lucky for that.
its so hard being me. I am always surrounded by people whoses intelligence is nonexistant...I am brilliant compared to these people and I actually get headaches (very bad ones) when I have to put up with vast amounts of stupid people. I thank any higher power that I have the internet and various online *people* for their distraction and *friendship*.
I feel sort of sicky today. I was sick for hours last night...total intestinal agony! but after that subsided, i went to sit at my drawing table and waited for inspiration to come to me.....AND IT DID! there is this comic book character that i started on several months ago and i found her last night...and i modernized her! now she is exactly how i wanted her drawn in the first place. i almost couldnt believe how well she turned out. *sigh*
now i have my work cut out for me in drawing the comic perfecting the style copyrighting it and sending it to the publisher in california.
i just taked to the breeder about the kittens that Ryan and i are getting and she said that she thinks we have the perfect home for placing kittens!!!!yay! oh, i cant wait! they will be born in july! and i was born in july......good things happen in july. so, we will get the kittens in october when they are 3 months old.
sometimes i cant help but wonder why i exist. to create? i often feel like i will die if i do not get these images out of my head and onto paper or canvas. who deserves such a hellish existance?
i cannot understand why things are the way they are for me. i feel so unwanted and i cannot help but think it is my fault. why? this will be my journal of good things...im going to start a journal of dark thoughts.
i have just got sooooo much shit to do today. i have to take the puppy to the vet to get weighed. i need to go to work and buy a roll of packing tape so that i can seal the box that i then have to take to the post office and have it sent to lilac_cat. then i have to come home and clean and i feel the need to paint one watercolor today.
well, i sent the box to lilac_cat...but i had to fill out a customs form. i didnt like that...because the stuff i was sending is supposed to be a surprise for her birthday and now it says on the outside of the box what is in it so there is no surprise left!
I'm not sure what though 
*sigh* 
i didnt like that...because the stuff i was sending is supposed to be a surprise for her birthday and now it says on the outside of the box what is in it so there is no surprise left!
