if you think you know what you want. especially if you are sure and not so sure of it. what do you want for yourself and what do you want for your person? you can answer this more then once if you wanted to.

Great idea for a thread Kendra

Key: high, medium and low priority.

Short-term (before 2006):
Complete this assignment by friday
Complete the others a week before deadlines
Clean the house
Wash some clothes
Get a new computer
Finish doing xmas shopping
Join the gym
Buy some new stud earrings
Make sure my spiritual side isn't being neglected
Get a TV licence

I have some longer term goals, but they're more malleable. Because my life is good right now, I don't need to focus my thoughts on a 'better future', because I have a better present.

Anyway, back to the grindstone!

All i want out of life is true happiness and true love. But i need to stop looking for it...cuz they say it comes when you least expect it or some shit like that. Plus how the fuck can i make someone happy and love someone when i hate myself more then anything and when i hate life right now?

But right now all i'm worried about is getting myself better. I need to get my knee fixed, back up on my horse everyday, back to the gym everyday, and i need to get myself happy.

i really need to get myself not to be so depressed. that i need to learn how to make myself happy. i need to find love within myself first before i can use it and express that kind of love for that somebody. i need to take better care of myself. instead of not really taking care of myself all too well.

what i want for another person. i don't know if it's such a good idea or not for that one person to hang out with me for the way i carry myself as a person. because of how it would make her be and feel from it. all i want for that one person is to have something that is decent and that would mean well with her. because this person will know who i'm speaking of as a matter of fact. just as soon as she feast her eye's on what she is reading by kendra herself. i want to know what is best for her? when it would come to hanging out with kendra. because this is her choice. i don't want her to feel miserable, hurt, or frustrated by anything of the sort. because of what i said from up above on what i need for myself as a person. i do of course care so much for her. i seriously understand and know that she does love me alot. our friendship will last forever and always. nothing is breaking that up though. she will always be my friend. all i am doing is wanting her to have something that is decent and she know's that she can. because it's out of my best wishes. even if she does decide she wants to stay with me. that is still fine. your in my heart cassandra.

i'm having tears roll down my face and so i better stop.

I'm in dat boat toooooo! *hugs* I love ya. Just hang in there.

thank you sweetie. the same will go for you

*hugs back*

Life - is for living. It would be great to get through life with without any problems, or any heartaches, but both of those are inevitable. It's how you cope with them that shapes you. I'd like to think that I will always be happy, that I do my best, and maybe I can help other people see the significance in themselves. I'd like to make a mark, to be remembered somehow, but I'm not sure how to do that.

For my friends, and my partner - I want only happiness and a feeling of belonging and love.

OK - I'm going to puke now, allthough I do sincerely mean what I said.

I want life to give me the run-around. then when I have it by the tail shake the hell out of it until it gives me it's candy.



*translation; I want to be happy*

i want to see my daughter grow up and compleatly annihilate any compatition in any areas of interest she has. i wanna stop living from paycheck to paycheck, but that's a problem that also has to be recognized by my spouse. i want to keep doing everything i have interest in 115% untill the day i die. i dont want to ever dissapoint anyone that takes interest in me, except my parents, they dont count.

My life is on track at the moment. I graduated last year and spent 8 months looking for a job that would suit me. I have found it and the company I work for treat their employees like good.

My goals for the next year is to save enough $$ to spend a month in Hong Kong and China, move out of our apartment to a house with a yard so that I can have pets, have at least one art exhibition and try to get together a local illustration/art based magazine.

Longer term, I want to be safe and secure, so I do want to own my own house. Paying rent sucks ass.

In terms of bettering myself, I think I am on the right track too. There's nothing obvious that I would want to do except keep an open mind and an eye out, read everything I can get my hands on or that time will allow and let it all marinade.

i want to find people that are alot like me. i feel that once when i find people that are alot like me. i'll be better. and happier.
i'm happy that i've found ONE person that is alot like me. which is seriously cool by the way. cause we can seriously understand each other without having any problems doing so. that we know what this and that feels like, now all we do is talk to each other alot and help each other out. finding people that are alot like me is what i need.

my life is just bad.... always has been but hopefully not always will be.... the only person i love lives thousands of miles away and nothing can happen untill a few years have passed..... cant wait that long dammit lol

Ah - patience is a virtue

*offtopic* LOVE THAT AVA!

I'm finally on the good road. I'm so greatful. Life is looking....hopeful. Its nice. Few more months...i just might be the happiest girl in this world...

I'll be able to have a normal life again - Go to the gym everyday, ride my horses everyday, party like a crazy person....Just finally have a life without pain and have nothing hold me back. I will be the happiest girl in this world.

to be some one people like, the problem is I'm happy the way I am and how I am, I love being depressed, infacxt I thrive on it, when I'm depressed I do nice things for people which makes me happy, after awhile the people forget what I did and I go into depression, so to get out of it I keep doing nice things...I go through this process 8-10 times a day

you and i have something in commen nelg...only i don't try to be what people like...

I.....have no idea what any of you said............. but if you ask me life is what you intrpret it and how you live it. That and how the world treats you. But good or bad you should just enjoy it.