*Sniffle* I need to talk...to anyone, or just get this out because I feel like I need to tell someone, anyone like me who will understand all of this and NOT call me mental, or crazy, or tell me that I need to look deep inside myself to figure out what is wrong with me, and what I need to do to fix it, my donor said all of the above to me about thirty minutes ago, and I am so sad because of it...he was the only person around here who I thought could help me out, but after he tells me that, "if what I am was real that I should be able to control it with just a couple of drops of blood a week." and here I sit going crazy for wanting him to feed me more than what he feels is right. I completely respect his wishes as to why he doesn't want me to feed off of his shoulder, granted I asked him once how he felt about it, and he seemed edgy about this and so I let the matter drop because I have this things about morals...you know? But it's also my choice to feed from him, and when I tell him I don't want him to be my donor anymore he becomes upset and starts putting a knife to his skin, and I try to take it away from him *crys* but he won't let me. He proceeds to tell me that one of the main reasons why he was feeding me was to get me to go out with him, and he's finally come to the realization that I won't do it. But I left his place feeling depressed, suicidle, angry, hurt, betrayed, utterly alone, starving...soulless.

*Tears roll down cheek*

Any and all comments are welcomed and appricated.


My Sanguine Cent,
Bathory

i can listen. but i don't know if i can help. but i'll try.

yes say more...I'm a little confused.Im here for you whenever you need someone.I understood what an ass your donor maan was only trying to get with you.That I understand....just if you can plaese explain a little more.
Love ~Amy~

maybe you should realize that vamps don't exist and that sucking out someones blood isn't the smartest thing in the world to do

Oh so thats what ya meant.Hey everyone does their own thing so i respect you Bathorys. Suck my vlood....

Ditto x 10. I respect most any lifestyle, but man... some are just outlandish fantasies that need to be terminated as quickly as possible, before you end up screwing your health, or becoming a complete social miscreant with a super-taboo compulsion for the rest of your days.

*will feed you anytime*

what a waif... end it all put the barrel in your mouth the pain will end.

who....me i hope(baby)

suicide isn't "cool."

no its not. neither is drinking blood. so if I get a cut I lick it up, but having a feeder? This doesnt sound too healthy an indulgence.

hahaha i'm sorry hun i can't seem to fallow you. i agree with amy that you need put more info on your little problem so everyone could fallow you easy. i agree with what lobo and anti have said about the vampires.


~sharpens a wooden stake.~

lol Down shy shy!!

but but a wanna be vampire might attack me!
~calls vicent price~

its my job to bash out all the vampires! i think that i might be naughty.

i agree. i mean, have you thought about the possibility of getting aids or other diseases that are transferred through the bloodstream?? definitely not cool at all.

well i think that people need to get this out of there god dam heads. there is no such thing as a fucking vampire. i mean when its night time do you happen to turn into a fucking bat and fly into someone elses room and make them emortal? no a person can not do that. they can only do it in a fictional world. i think that is where you so called vampire lovers are in. you all are in a fictional world. if you don't like what i have said about it then don't read it.

Yep...well, rest in full assurance that is all I needed to know, and it's been fun...bla, bla, bla...But, umm...I needed help not instructions on how to live my life. I'm tired of this crap, and for the record, I won't be coming back here...I'd rather not put up with this. *Screams in frustration*

Don't worry, I'm gone.

Bathory

i can't fucking believe this. because no body helped you out with your problem you didn't like how everyone was being sarcastic. man its so easy to drive people like you away. as amy and i have said before if you would have more informational in your post maybe people wouldn't be giving you these kind of replies. i wouldn't be gone just like that darling. you could have taking everyones reply to your post here as a joke. i don't think that you should go away and give up that easily. come on women! know tell us your problem again and we would take you seriously this time. i know that you are going to come back. so don't think that you could full me that easily.

your being nice now?