okay, i'm going to write about my religious thoughts. these are mainly thoughts on catholicism, because thats what i was brought up with.

i'll be honest. at the moment i don't know what i believe. i don't believe in a god or a deity. at the moment i don't care, i don't want to have to spend my whole life worshipping something that might not be the right thing anyway. i want to enjoy my life and not spend my whole life trying to do certain things and holding back desires in fear of going somewhere i don't want to go after i die.

but i do not believe in catholicism. i think it is bullshit, and completely false. each day i find new things that add to my evidence. and even if it was the true faith i think the catholic belief has driven people to do more bad than the good that is preached.

the catholic god is meant to be pure and good, yet in the scriptures even he loses his nut sometimes. he sent the flood (noahs ark), and the plagues of Egypt, also many other things. Now, people willl say he did this to punish the people or show them the wrong they were doing, but god is meant to be all
forgiving.

also, so many parts of this worldwide religion contradicts itself. Apparently, we have a choice how we lead our lives, wether we stray from 'the path', but also we are told our future is pre-destined. god already knows wether we go to heaven or hell. and also, if this is so, then god is barbaric in his own rights, letting only some of us live eternal bliss in heaven.

you know what? now i'm fucking confused . i just needed to get that load of entrails outta my head to see if i could detangle them, but the mess is bigger than i thought. Fuck it.

I highly reccomend to you(and anybody else interested in clarifying their beliefs) this book:
_Shaving the Inside of Your Skull_ by Mel Ash ISBN 0-87477-841-7
see if you can get your local bookstore to order it for you..

I read somewhere that an acient culture used entrails to predict the future....disgusting thought.

I`m stealing that pic you know.:p

No insult meant, but my daughter like's the picture to.

I could not have said it better myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I agree 110% with you

Oh and under your name you have "My tears washed god away" It seems you took those words straight from my soul! Every time I cried and begged "god" to help me or at least give me strength to get through the hard times in my shitty life... he did nothing. Believe me, I cried until I refused to ever cry again.
I am too a baptized catholic which has chosen to abandon it. Ok, well I just thought I would share.

Maybe instead of depending on one thing entirely to unravel you out of your troubles and worries you should instead find a way to help yourself as well..It seems as though you were taking advantage of the use in saying "Help me God"

dude, i stole it in the first place

why would it be an insult? hold old is your daughter?

Man, i'm glad you liked my outburst!!!
i can't count how many times when something was so badly out of my control i would pray so hard to god, i would have so much faith in him that he would help me i would pray until i cried. at nightime my pillow would be wet with my tears, and during the day i would speak to him in my head.

thanks for the reference fishy, i'll check it out .

But when i was seven and i prayed every night to God, so he might be able to protect me from 2 girls who beat me so severely that i had ended up in hospital quite afew times and blamed it on myself so as not to upset my mom, do you think i had any help? do you think god in some way prevented me from having to walk home on my own so they could get me? hell no.

how the hell can you take advantage of 'Help me god'? maybe by asking god to help you win the lottery? i don't think that was what Jinxedsoul meant.

Np, it has a lot of good exercises for sorting out your beliefs, and identifying and getting rid of the harmful/useless ones...
*hug* good luck...

aaaw, you are so sweet! can i put u on my buddy list?