i saw the movie butterfly effect today, and yes my mind has been spining. the idea of time travel is nothing new in my mind as it is not in most humans. the ability to go back in time and see, change, or create a different future. not until later do we realize what things would have changed from that choice. i used to think about going back and saving my father, my aunt. i just took a while to think, seriously think of everyhting that would have changed.
in order to save my father, i would have to of saved him in his younger years. made him eat, live healthier. that would hopefully save him from his horrible death, but opens a whole new can of worms. if he was never daring enough to eat unhealthy, how would i come into existence. i would only be given the chance, option, to go back far enough as to make him get treatment after i was born to insure my life. but, lets say i did do this. consequences:
my father and i would have gathered up money and moved. i would have lost touch with my grandmother, and never seen my mother agian till i was atleast of the age i am now. by then, it would have been to late to help my sister, and brother through all thier problems of not having a family of thier own, just grandma. i would have never met the love of my life. i know i am young, but that doesnt change my heart. i would have never met her. but, now that i was thinking on this fact, would she have been better off never knowing me. sometimes i think no just out of greed of having her. knowing her, and loving her. knowing what i had would make it so hard not to know her now. (as in the new future i ave created) meaning, she would have fallen inlove with someone else, i would not have been her first and i would nothave broken her heart so many times. character building, but ultimitely our downfall and demise.
i would have never met the people i know now. growing up in a better neighborhood i would have got straight a's like i used to when i cared. grew up white collor, and dull. i would have never given into the other side of things. (if you knew me now, you would know what i mean) certain little things would be different also. (but again, going with the lapse of what i would know going back and changing everything, i would still have my love for certain types of music, fetishes, and people) i would be in a new life. waking up somewhere else, and seeing all my life back with me again, but not all thier. i would feel empty. never seeing my family, never knowing my mother. never knowing adrian, or angelo, bobby, josh, torrie, tori, billy, all of them. what would i do?
i found myself comming up with a question of whether or not, knowing my mistakes, would i have gone back and then forth just to try and please myself. if given the chance, would i keep my friendship with people, or try as i would have to. would i meet these people and try to win them as i have done before. would they accept me. knowing everything i know already, would it be wise to try? to fall innlove with adrian for the first time, (meaning in this new time) or maybe, not be greedy and selfish. would i let her go on with her life. knowing everyhting i know about her life, owuld i have let her go withought ever knowing me. it would be so hard, but maybe for the better.
i know i find myself talking abou adrian, but that's because for the past 3 years, she has been my life. my love and my whole reason for existence. would i, knowing what i kow now be the man to change everyhting just to try agian, or should i come to realize that, no matter what time and space i am in, we are doomed as lovers sometimes find themselves in history?



this was just one of my many thoughts and outcomes. i am trying to start something that maybe has been around and i didnt know about it. this is making me look differently on everything in my life. a movie is making me see things in awhole new light. i am not angry baout what has happened, and i feel no animosity. i am glad i do not have the ability ot change things for myself. i would not be wise in my desicions...........



this thread is braught to you by the flap of the butterfly's wing on the other side of the world.

If I could travel through time, Id go to the moment when my parents would having sex in which I was created and Id just walk in and go "Hey! Im you future son how are you doing!?" Then again, if they saw what I looked like they'd probably stop immediatly so then I wouldn't exist 0_o

yah, but i was actualy looking for more thought, and concept. i wanted to see if anyone would catch on and think of any serious moments in thier life they would try and change, and why?

I'd go back and get what's rightfully mine

meh.

Yes I was thinking about this after I have seen the movie as well. But if I were to go back in time. I wouldn't know which person to visit and I wouldn't know what to fix. But the real question is. Why do you care so about what you did in the past? I wouldn't worry about it. You make misteaks and you learn from them and then you move on. While trying so hard not to make the same misteaks again. I think i'm going to think a little bit more on your post.

Jesus Tapdancing Christ. This is the most typically goth post I have ever read.

c'mon anti, how about you. chip in here man.....

I'd say any "mistake" that was made in the past and then righted is infallible. Each happening needed to occur because it was inevitble. Say, some one could go back and change the fact that the holocaust ever happened. Without that occurance, we would never know it's hardships, or how to prevent it in the future. As a culture we are the better for each mistake, despite those sacrificed along the way.

I'm giving Dark_Duqualle creadit for his post.

yer kidding right..

Nope not kidding.

thank you, but i want to hear some more opinions.... c'mon guys. this is changing me, i wanna know if there is something your hearts would want that you would fight, somehting your brain cant stand that you would change no matter what.?

............to regret one's past is to regret and despise what you have become, admit wrongful doings, and create a sense of loss that will never be fullfilled. That's what fate is about and why you should leave it alone, because it is infallible.

well thier you go soul, that was great. thank you for sharing.
i dont know, i think i have made to many mistakes in my life, and i do feel regret for my past. hatred for what i let happen to me, and what i let myself become and do to others. like i said, "character building," but otherwise useless, and hurtfull. i cant apoligize enough ot my love, but i can try. thats one of my regrets. tainting her, and doing the things i have done to make her hate me. i would change that i beleive, maybe to another person. but then, it would be a reality for me, and a nothing to her. jeez! oh well, i cant change it, but back to topic. what do you guys think?

You're 19. Wait until your 50 and then talk to me about regretting your life, kiddo.

age is nothing but a physicality. age doesnt matter in hurt. a 5 year old child and a 100 year old man have the same thing in common. they both know what hurts.

i hurt when i think of my past, and alot of it i had nothing to do with, i just was along for the ride.

You sound pathetic. You think your life is bad? It's oppressed? You have so much hurt and pain in your life? Be happy that you even have food on your table, or even a table for that matter. Be happy that you don't have a dirt floor and you weren't sexually abused as a child. Be happy that you have clothes to even wear and money to go spend on shit teenage movies.

People like you make me sick. Look outside of your box, do0d.

for everything a reason.

well when i was 6 instead of letting it go on for moths i would have told someone..but then again would anyone really believe me? would anyone honestly believe a 6 year old girl was molested?especially when a child probably doesnt even know what that means...
in 6th grade i probably wouldn't have started talking to 'the wrong crowd'...maybe i would be such a coniving little bitch...i try not to dwell on things i know i can't change now..what the hell are you going to do? cry about it all your life and walk around with a chip on your fucking shoulder...o well..lifes a fucking bitch..