Sin isn't it an odd thing? Many look for redemption from god...As I know I will come
face to face with whatever superior being I get sent to he is not my concern.

I remember being and innocent little girl... Infact the grand daughter of a preacher in a
white country town... So as an unknown out cast at the time I didn't ever realize what life
would have in store for me in my later years and maybe even if I did I wouldn't change it
for the world except...Except my relationships with people ... Mainly a person for all
intents and purposes of this article.

I had always been dark minded ... dark souled... Never letting anyone in to know me to
much of a risk. Heh course there is always something that slips through ... her name was
Megan a sweet curly blonde haired , blue eyed doll of a girl the total opposite of me but at
the same time one in the same as me. We became close friends and as we entered high
school together we got even closer... Maybe in the back of my mind i knew it was a
mistake to connect with someone... I just didn't want to be right...denial is a wonderful
thing, i guess... All of the sudden high school hit both of us hard... she started to change
and so did i...but some how she became darker then me. I know i wasn't the only one who
saw but, I was the only one who was there for her.As the connection grew between us i
could tell we were becoming more of the same person. Even though the things and
thoughts she had and the actions she took were hers... they killed me just as much as they
did her. It scared me to be that close to something and not be able to help it. I began to
sink deeper into a depression that hasn't gone away still to this day...

Its not her fault how i feel. I know after all i had tried to do to help her i had failed and
when she truly tried to end her life one day after telling me she would do so... I knew i
had failed her and that is something i cannot forgive myself for.

I could not allow this to happen again I found away to push her away..

For awhile she seemed to be doing better with out me... Which truthfully killed me even
more...

Now as i unsuccessfully try to move on with my life hers still some how run side by side
with mine and affects it everyday ... I do love her with all my heart and we will always
have a connection but I can't ever face her with the same kind of friendship and affection I
once had ...

maybe someday she will forgive me for what i have done and what i am doing... but for
now I move through life restless and tired of what life has offered...

And now as i Lay me down to sleep I pray my soul to keep quiet... maybe for just one
night... so the sweet nightmares can come in peace and i can sleep in a peaceful hell for
once.

I'm a bit confused..what exactly is your sin??






















(Mine is sloth..but that's besides the point)

Oh wow, you are sooooo gothic. In fact, I think I shall try to bask in your gothness.

im too lazy to read that first post...

Ok, enough with the melodrama what the hell are you trying to say ???? Be straight forward.....pages aren't that fun to read...esp when they sound more like some excerpt from some kind of book than something in reality...hm maybe you're trying to promote some kind of book you're trying to sell?!?! ok...i'll stop being an idiot... what the fuck are you trying to say

I'm a little tea pot short and stout
this is my handle *puts hand on hip*
this is my *puts other hand on hip*
sp.....oh shit, i'm a sugar bowl....

*sticks a pencil up LdG13's nose*

Hey, boy.... How 'bout #1 on my list there...?

wtf?

whats going on here?



lol@bunny

*grins at powdy*
i dumped my guy just to letcha know

my isn't that off toppic?

yeah,thats a bit of topic,but with a topic that fucked up...that has no point to it(not that i can see anyways,maybe im just to fucked up)who fucking cares...

anyways,sorry to hear bout that bunny
::huggles & lixx you to death::

powder, why didn't you use the gif version of that image as your avy?

becuz im a computer idiot and i couldnt make it work
::shrugs::
i know absalutly dick all about anything,especially computers:p

LOL
It might have been too big anyway... Anyone know the max size that our avatars can be?

Besides the 100x100...

i have no clue...no clue at all
<----------retarded:p

Bah. You're not retarded. The guy that pulled out in front of me on my way to work is retarded...

I cant wait till i learn to drive..... its legal here to beat people up for cutting infront of you. So long as you dont kill them and leave no serious marks.... so you tend to use soap in a sock

I'm a highly trained killer and i cant even own a drivers license how fucked up is that?

Now, that's what I'm talking about.

lol,ide say so
about the guy that is...

road rage is finlands second biggest killer, and 95% of the time you get away with it as long as you dont do it in a city as one bloke did, although it was against a traffic warden, he got a ticket walked back inside his shop and came out with a metal bar and beat the tarrif warden unconcious before ripping up the ticket and driving off. He got 20 years for that.

infact there is no actual speed limit on the roads outside the cities and towns becuase its so sparsley populated.