I'm not use to death
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My cousin died exactly a week ago as of sometime after midnight tonight. He was thrown forty five feet from his vehicle and died from blunt trauma to his neck and head. His funeral was monday and it should have been closed casket. his face was so strange. there were bruises and places where his skull was either missing or sunken in. one of his eyes looked like it might have been missing since it was incredibly sunken in opposed to the other. his hands were curled inward like something in a horror movie. i have a slideshow of everything we did together that won't stop playing in my head.
i've never really known anyone who's died before. my grandmother when i was eight but that was a really long time ago. my entire life feels incredibly strange after jeremy's death. i always anticipated experiencing a person close to me dying but when it really happens it's so surreal. my entire life suddenly feels very fragile.
I find it kind of funny I find it kind of sad, the dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had.
Sorry for your loss ....sometimes it jsut takes something like this no matter how horrible it seems to make us see the things that we take for granted and casually cast aside...again i am truly sorry for your loss ...considering my own grandfater died jsut a week ago
There is no Joy greater than soaring high on the wings of your dreams, EXCEPT mabey the joy of watching a Dreamer who has no where to land but in the Ocean of Reality!
Alone together. It was all two people could ever be to each other, Alone. Together. For the dreams and secrets of our hearts may be spoken, but words are poor handmaidens. Wordes can never fully say what we want them to say, for they fumble, stammer, and break the best porcelain. The best one can hope for is to find along the way someone to share the path, content to walk in silence, for the heart communes best when it does not try to speak... from the book "Dragons of a Lost Star
Death is the only thing certain in life. We will never get used to the death of those so close to our hearts but the pain can always be ignored, for a while anyway.
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A giant lamb will fall from heaven and save the world. You poor bastards
so sorry to hear that. i've lost a few now, and it never gets any easier.
just two months ago i actually witnessed my grandmother's death from cancer. we were close (she raised me), and i know i will have nightmares about losing her for the rest of my life.
i find it especially hard to reconcile my own devout agnosticism with the deaths of loved ones. i mean, i actually envy the people who, however blindly, believe in an afterlife. i really wish i could, but i justdon'tknow.
i'm also convinced that anyone who says they have no regrets in life is either lying, or an asshole.
there is nothing that can be done but remember them with love.
and try to keep yourself sane. do *NOT* give in to drugs or alcohol to relieve your own pain. any other time, sure, but not now, it will just kill your soul at this time. let your seratonin give you their natural numbing. the sharper hurting will fade away in time, but expect to always have this sort of sensation of missing them for the rest of your life. don't worry, it's not always so defined. usually it stays in the background of your subliminal mind.
take care of yourself (and eat)...
...do you believe that?
-transmothra, KSC
a.k.a. Sparky, the Ro-bot Bodhisattva,
a.k.a. Max Boolean,
a.k.a. CounterPope Meat-Thing,
a.k.a. The Brazen Lily,
et cetera...
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