yeah, uh,

i wanted to reply to threads that were
already there

but i didn't know anybody,
so i got weirded out,
and decided to make myself look like a fool This Way,
instead of
seeming like i might have been here for years by
replying with a comfortable, casual attitude

(but everybody would have known that they
don't know who the fuck 'this guy is'),

or whatever

work hurt,
food is great,
sleep is good, and on the way

i'm so self-absorbed i'm disgusted,
but what should i work towards, then?

dissolving into others?

btw,

thankyou for the warm welcome, ArSiNiK, and InKY

well fade ya got nothin to worry about you can pretty much post in any thread that tickles your fancy ....... hell half the time it does not even have to be relevant to the actual thread itself.... as long as it is semi intresting is really all that counts aound here..... though there are those post here and there that could use a martha stewart makeover.........



and as far as making a fool of yourself...... well everyone does that every now and then so no worries.....

i love this board. everyone's self esteem is in the gutter.

dude, like totally, are you having a bad acid trip? or are you like, just seriously depressed and all like, embracing the darkness like yeah man, totally. the words just like...die... and then they're gone.... they're dead....

cheer up man, it could be worse

i appreciate your concern InKY,
but i have been off of my meds since
February,
you see, i have no medical insurance right now,
and the trileptal and risperdal and effexor,
they cost alot of money every month,
as do the doctors which fill them / monitor me

the job i have Now, offers bood benefits;
my insurance will kick in on September 1st,
i will go back to my 'help' then, and should be
good to go


as far as not indulging in the depression,
it is difficult, considering that
ignoring it does Not Work


but thanks for the good advice