same days without a meaning...without color...same pains...same nightmares..and eveything because of them.....ot is it because of me?i am hurting myself...among other people that are hurting me...but why?so do i have a reason to cry?so that when somebody asks me why am i sad? why do i hatemyself?why do i hate everybody? why?
to many questions....same answeres ..with no meaning
i've become a box....loked ...cold....:mad:

hmm. sounds interesting.
I think that you need to think outside the box. I used to be a bit like you seem- very angsty and contemplative. Then I found sarcasm and self-deprecation, and it was better.

You're at the asking questions stage, you just have to reach the acceptance stage which can include accepting any or all of the following:
- You're a bitch
- The world is against you
- You have no future
- You'll never be truly happy
- Every day is a new chance
- You have to keep trying, even when you think you can't
- Things can get better
etc etc

Your thoughts currently seem very introverted, and concentrated on your own faults. Everyone has faults. Look for the faults in other people, and realise that no-one is meant to be perfect, or ever will be, and that's not what you should strive for.

I hope you don't think I'm rude, I don't mean to be, I just like to get straight to the point and be honest.

thank you...i think u are right...

she is right. well said! i do hope karma exists in this world..

ummm? raises eyebrow, shakes head and runs away screaming at the annoying teenage angstyness of that post poor you.

*catches fallen (who i don't know) and runs away as well*

Clinical depression , go do something that looks self destructive , ignore the stares and laugh at the absurdity that you did your insanity in the open and they hide theirs behind beautiful qrotesque masks.Or you can watch the super bowl and be happy that you are not one of those drunk , couch potato fucks with their face painted.Always makes me feel better about myself.:disturbed