i really don't know what the fuck has been bothering me at all. i am not on my period. i am also never like this to begin with. i find this to be really fucking strange. that i'm going down the hill all of sudden. that is how i'm describbing my feelings. that is what i feel like. i feel like i'm going down the hill. down the hill for no reason at all. i'm never like this to begin with. maybe i'm having an emotional week or something. i still fill like i could flip out in anger and just go NUTS! since no one is here at all. i have to deal with this the best way that i can. i have been doing that all my life. its really not a healthy thing to do. go through your problems all alone. but i'm so used to it. any advise would be nice. i don't care if they were to be mean or nice. cause i can be mean right back at ya.