ok well, i kinda know a little about this...obsessive compulsive is what it sounds a little like. Well yeah, you do need help if you want to stop. Try going to your doctor and ask them if they can refer you to a good councellor, thats what my friend did and now he is on pills...wait thats bad...welll the point is you need help to get off this addiction you have with pain. I know how it feels a little ive sorta been there...ohwell c ya