| problems with my dad -
03-30-03
Okay, so everyone has problems with their parents at one point or another, but I'm stuck. My sister and I found out that my dad's doing/dealing drugs. Pot, acid, meth, and other stuff I can't even identify. It's not such a big deal to me really, other than that he's lied to my sister and me our whole lives, and is continuing to do so. He's also an alcoholic and a very violent bastard. He's never hit my sister or I, but he's been damn close. He's a huge reason why my sister attempted suicide a few months ago and is currently in therapy. My sis's therapist told her to write our dad a letter telling him that we know about his "li'l habits". I think it's a stupid idea and that he'll just freak out and it'll make things worse. On the other hand, if we don't say anything... he'll keep doing what he's doing and I'm afraid he'll drive my sister over the edge again. I only see my dad every two week or so, and everytime I go down there I have to bite my tongue. I swallow blood every goddamned minute I'm in his presence because I haven't got the gall to confront him about it. My sister is weak and is practically relying on me to deal with it because she's too afraid of him. I'm just in a jam. I could use some other opinions because mine are all fucked up at the moment. Thanks. Early in life I had to choose between honest arrogance and hypocritical humility. I chose the former, and have seen no reason to change.
-Frank Lloyd Wright |