i think about a lot of things all the time and most of them play on my mind like an instrument, but this idea or theory as i call it i've thought about for a while now and i've never really been able to come to a substainable conclusion, maybe there's no real answer for it but i'd like to hear your opinions on it.

it was always my belief that anything that is built upon something should be followed through with respect to that foundation, obviously with time the foundations can still remain the same but implemented into a different form yet still in a way respecting those foundations upon which it is built. my theory always was that gothic was founded upon as a rebelian against the mainstream society, or the consumer society as it's known to me now, that mainstream society revolving around a time where christianity was the unquestionable belief that you absoloutly could not have an opinion against or it would result in harsh consequences, such as in the practice of black magic or the belief in evil itself, or just to have an opinion against what the mainstream was built upon. it's these foundations that makes me think, what really defines a social outcast, because it's ourselves that choose to "outcast" ourselves in by having an opinion against everything it is, but in by doing so you become a new society as such. i think of the mainstream as a consumer society, being a satanist this is what my beliefs are built upon with trying to break from this consumer society and to become truely free.
satanism is not what people think it is, the whole thing has been twisted around and presented to be something totally out of the question, typical stereotypes like killing cats by the light of the moon, or suicide in sacrifice of the devil, as i call him the dark lord and it really does make you think. infact rules come in the form of, you cannot kill animals unless for food or self defence, and also harm to children is a big no no.
it also encourages you to persue the things that bring you enjoyment through life and is also the first religious organisation to accept gay and lesbian members. to think of it more as to break away from "slavery" within this consumer society is a more acurate representation to it's basis. learning to depend upon ourselves and bring this down to become truely free.
when you see the truth in that way you can see why goths have been misinterpreted to being satanic, i myself am gothic and a satanist yes, but those are my beliefs and nowhere does it say that those need to be implemented to be of such, it's what i believe and follow. yet it's far from what everyone thinks of it as depressive kids or a rebelian against the parents in a search to feel daring.
infact the restrictions of parents can be considered a form of slavery and the need to rebel against that is only human nature for the need to feel truely free, but those are your parents, they brought you up from childhood and looked after you and put a roof over your head, you start to realise as you get on they were only doing it for your own good, or just in the realisation of not quite seeing what the world revolves around today.

so now we start to see that it's ourselves who have outcast ourselves from society, for the simple fact we want to be outcast from "society", always called society, as if it's one big thing yet it's many, it's the mainstream society or consumer society that's the society in question. facts to support this are the hate we see against "mainstream" such as http://www.fuckthemainstream.com or the general need to show your different from everyone else, to show your views in a self explanitory manor and not have to explain it to every tom dick or harry that asks "why do you dress like that".

the idea is thought, the idea becomes a way of doing things, that way of doing things actracts like minded people and then the idea has become the institution. housing like minded people within this society, i like to think of it as a gothic society.
this is where the idea starts to get interesting, as we see that mainstream classes us as something else, anything else apart from what is considered "normal" as if they are trying to drive a knife into us and hurt us where it hurts the most. this only fuels the fire more as we see that they no longer class us as part of the mainstream, the objection is complete with the need to detach completly from what it's all about. yet with that completion comes a price, the emptyness that's felt inside like we no longer belong, that emptyness leads to depression and is where we start to see that it's through this the representation on gothic being depressed kids is comming from.
if that's the case, then it's mainstream that made us just by the fact it exists, and then we're outcast like something that doesn't belong to it when mainstream is suppose to be "an accepting way of life where all people can feel as one with each other", i don't have a clue how i thought that line up but it really hits home when you think about it.

if we yern to be accepted by society, but the whole foundation is built upon wanting to be no longer a part of the mainstream, how can this wish ever be possible with such restrictions upon us. with these restrictions we still feel bound by the rules of society, playing in our mind like something we can never quite figure out, yet it's always there and we feel it everyday.
as far as my opinion goes we will always be outcast from mainstream wether we wanted to be or not, it's this we have to accept to be able to overcome the emptyness felt inside or even begin to.

please remember this is my opinion and i'm not saying this is this and that is that, it's simply my opinion and i appoligise to those that feel offended by it.