That is how i am. I am more closer to my mom then i am with my dad. You see my dad isn't bad at all. I'm just kind of quiet around him and him i don't talk every day like i do with her. But i kind of hate it how i can't seem to open up as much with him like how i can with my mom. I can sooo understand how painfull it could be to lose someone that is very very close to you. I just can't think of how that would be if i were to lose my mom. I would maybe drink like a fish and smoke and cry alot. Since i'm alone and don't have any friends in person it is kind of hard to be able to help your self with that kind of a problem that you have. But all of this shit takes alot of time to heal. Don't listen to people like errant. Since your waiting for the results i'm going to hope for you and think for the best of your mom and hope that she will be in good hands.